Show ord ENVIRONMENT RULES OUR LIVES It Jt is strange Margie said saidi t i Paula nula how quickly wo a adjust our- our to tn different ways of or living It had b been en le less s than a n. year Jear since I had been jerked up b by the tho roots from m my beautiful home homo in inthe the thc midst of or ln 10 loving friends and anel yet Jet hero I was vas s settled down into tho the life JiCe of an actress And Ancl the queer part of or It all MargIe Mar c was that m my other ether carefree existence seemed but a dream No o ono could have ha loved lovd her parents moro more than I 1 did anti and yet jet I could auld hardly realize that I had ever had parents There Is something about aboUl the tho absolute finality of or r f. death which makes itself felt in the consciousness of tho the oven o tender tender- cst est and most sympathetic mindI mind i I believe belle Margie only those 1 who have lost b by death someone tl ft tf who is I very dear to them can understand un- un ty kC what I 1 mean The old K saying While there is life thero is iss s I hope ope Is very true and its antithesis anti anti- 4 thesis when there is no life there thero is no hope Is quite as true truc 41 I Your mind refuses to think about it an any more Yes les you JOU have havethe tho the loneliness a a. loneliness that sometimes seems to smother your our very lungs so that you ou cannot breathe a breathe a feeling of ot tho the utter fu futility futility futility fu- fu of living JIving and struggling and fighting for tor something which is meaningless in the tho end What I 1 want vant to convey to you OU Margie Is tho the fact tact of or quick adJustment adjustment adjust adJust- i ment which the tho mind makes A At t this time it almost seemed f as ns though I had never been that 4 carefree happy girl whose hole 1 i interest was centered on whether x she ahe would mako make tho the daisy chain and so be bo proclaimed one ono of tho the prettiest girls of the year ear at Vas- Vas ear sar Here Hero I was opening m my eyes in m rny my little suite suito in the boarding house In a a. strange e city at about Ii 11 t o'clock each morning as though I had been doing It all my life lite and to sa say my little old brain accepted the tho changed conditions as asa asa a a 0 matter of or course cours This sounds rather vague asu does eloes It not Margie i What at I am en endeavoring endeavoring en- en dea 0 rm S- S Sto to bring out Is tho the pe peculiar peculiar peculiar pe- pe culiar wa way in which nature copes with tho the Irre of death and arni the tho wa way we poor mortals ac accept nc- nc celt anything that comes Margio when we have hae toDo toDo to Do you ou think I 1 am run preachy preach dear I dont don't mean to be I only wish all those girls who nr are workIng workIng working work work- ing n away wa and trying to do their best would only onh understand that the tho mind can only onh stand about so much jo Joy or grief pleasure or pain These can only be experienced d Ii by byone's byone's ones one's capacity and even before beCore wo we will own It to ourselves our minds understand that tho the decree admits of no repeal Until I left leCt m my fathers father's house I had hael always risen before 8 S o'clock taken laken a cold colel shower and m my athletic nth nth- letic exercises breakfasted simply hut but rather ruther bountifully and then started in on tho the affairs of or tho the thoda da day Now m my da day never nover begins be before before be- be C- C fore 11 and I 1 usually have o m my cof- cof tee fee in bed Usually tho the moment my eyes es popped open I began nn to think of ot m my dancing lell lesson on my fencing lesson or my French lesson I al always ni- ni ways Was tried to get in a a. mile five walk and although the play was exceptionally successful we a averaged averaged aver Ver- aged ed a rehearsal 1 a week to keep us up UI to ke key I seldom ate nto much until after afler theatre at night when Earnest and anel I usually ate together at some res res- If I might be Le aho the tho paradox I 1 was WILS living rather irregularly in a most regular way My Iy whole existence at lt thiH thiN time was bound up in that of ot Earnest Earm t Lawton It never ent entered red m my mind that ho was not as completely Interested in interested In- In in mo as IS I In h him m. m l I 1 do dr think Margie that at that time Earnest B Lawton wis was 03 l deeply in love Joc me as ns h ha was capable of ot being in lovo 10 with anyone anone But I soon learned alas that there was but hut ono one being on earth Earnest Lawton I really loved and m that was as himself To ro bo be continued |