Show nun orris iJ Ri ga I Part VIII or IS a 8 deep humiliation to relate IT I my list experience In I Cincinnati but for tor reasons I set et It down downA t Yn wn 4 A friend of ot mine who nailed from Cincinnati and ancI who wished to serve me Toe had bad ha said One thIng thine I think I Ican Ican can can do for you friend Clara ClaraI I can dan B Be Ve you the weariness and annoyance of or n It long Jong search in m a ft strange city for board My wife and nd I were ere never so comfortable com In our lives before as we v were Ie e at the house houa of ot a Mrs Scott She Shela la 15 1 a u gent gentlewoman leu oman therefore she never pries never neer gossips never just runs rons in a moment wh w r you want to study a part Her charges are reasonable r the th table a little close perhaps but the cooking perfect I was delighted at such a prospect and early earty on Monday morning went j rth from my temporarily temporal sheltering hotel to find Mrs Scott and beg her ber to take me m in on the word pf h her r board boarder er ore era of or a year ago ngo I 1 found the house hOUE oure e easily ensil but modest mode modestas t tut as was Its exterior its rich Interior sent seat my heart down rapidly it was going to be away beyond my salary I 1 dt d 1 Yet after at r a to me most be bewildering Interview I found myself inspecting ng the big sunny room and shrinking at the thought of or my rough trunks coming oming in contact with such a ahan handsome han carpet Mrs Scott had re IC mad that she had put her earn ng hack back b ek on the house aa as a pure matter of or business bu and I was radiant when she named her price for fo the room and anft hastily ha engaging it I started out o t tat at once nn to order my trunks taken there and anti to telegraph mother to come As AM I 1 descended the tho steps I r elp lp humming a little tune tUlle A police policeman man nn strolled across the street toward i me nit and I had a hazy notion that he hart had been n there when I was wa In As I leached the Ute pavement he stepped up and ond holding out to me tue a handkerchief palpably p his own asked while look ing at me closely if It was vas as mine 1 was Indignant anti ana I answered sharply Ij It is not mine as you vary r well I and a d said sad 8 Well WeH you are not stupid It If you I are Innocent then asked Are you a stranger here I turned back toward the house hOU ho e I 1 had bad hJ t left loft then paused as I said an angrily grU I 1 have haven a mind to go beck back and n nak aak k Mrs to come out with me meto mb to protect me from the Impertinence of ot tho the police Who he asked a ked with wId t open wondering eyes eye You will go back to who To Mr Mrs Scott I snapped Why said he theres no Mrs Irs Scott there t fre freNo No I T questioned sarcastically sai No Well foU a am 8 I have just engaged board from Mrs Scott I venture to r with WHit you ou Good Lord Lort miss the man roan said suld Mrs William Scotts been dead these the e nine months or more no place for honest people now no w Wh Why why wh w rc watch in the house this moment to catch atch that womans jailbird son nor who ho has bas broken in LouiS Louls vi i Dont look so 80 white miss Hut but I whispered I II 11 I was pent here by a u friend I II I have en enS S td a room there then Oh what shall I 1 Ido do doT lh it ill right miss reassuringly ired the policeman up tb th room for you You Y aint the only on nn that has l come here hera expecting to find Mrs Scott ott in the house libuse You dont need to go back to the door And the theatre being in full view In an agony If humiliation and terror I 1 flung my myself myself myseLf self into its friendly just opened of ftc where Mr Macaulay Mac ulay presently pre T found rund me shaking lLe Ii e a leaf and al at almost must most tb tO t make plain my expert experience ence euce He was furious and finding my name was 8 mentioned in the letter of ot In to Mrs Scott and that Mrs i Scott toad had retained it he called the j and together they went vent to the house hp tse and demanded the ha h letter back It was W given up nut but most unwillingly as I Ithe the woman th the superstition su r of tl an gambling people looked upon it as a a mascot an all hour I later by b Mr aid I had found two to wes wee we rooms whose would welcome my trunks as ai a hirers of holes rooms ms that were lull luU even en dingy dingS but had haa nevertheless n securely sheltered d honest poverty for tor long jears alJ j I Past nast and could do as much for or yea veara to come gome comeI ome I mention this Incident simply to show how utterly unexpected un pct d are some of the pitfalls that make dan dangerous dangerous the tle of honest hon t girlhood Tb TO T show too that utter ignorance of evil is in itself a danger The interview that bewildered me would nave teen een for instance a danger signal to my m mother who would too having seen how the richness of furniture contra contradicted contradIcted outside shabbiness have had hud her suspicions su t aroused arou ed I noted that fact but not knowing of gambling hUng b un unlawful unlawful unlawful lawful and secretly s carried on my ob oh observation observation was of no service to me tite as it suggested nothing Ignorance of or the existence of evil may sometimes be become become become come the active foe of No one learned of the unpleasant cx X so I was spared disagreeable comment and sending for my mother to join me rite m I devoted myself to preparations preparations of ef f my opening night Candy and Oysters The widow of the boarding house differs from the widow of the Testa Testament met ment in that the boarding house huse I cruse of O pf f oil oU seems always just out out and h at a 8 low ebb Neither my mother moth r nor myself were wele used to expected exp little md truth to tell we got It To ray ay we were nearly always hungry would be things quite mildly but we wore ore vere together and so better bettar to feel a bit gone under uh er the belt than to be filled to repletion and live apart I worked hard at all times Umes and five fie nights out of seven 1 I had to study till tar tai on to morning The rhe Saturday me dout e and left me a wreck I had hada a right to a bit of ofa a treat on Sunday and I can see s the Important air mother unconsciously assumed as she went vent I forth on her secret errand secret that no offense might be given to the eco ceo l landlady When the matin was over C brought home my persona ng tig for our next days comfort and pit pK are irea a copy of an illustrated weekly w klY paper and 5 51 cents worth of candy always some something something something thing hard that would last ua un long while we read Thus on Saturday night nighton on the sill of the back window there stood a 8 small can of oysters while in inthe Inthe inthe the ton tOD to drawer rested a box marked handkerchiefs but which held crackers beside bede be it a folded paper and on top of or that the wee package of candy I r had a membership at the library on the Che corner so we had books too thank heaven I have always been beena a fairly regular churchgoer but in Cincinnati the limitations of my ward wardrobe wardrobe wardrobe robe would have made me conspicuous Therefore I knew the inside of but one church hurch in Cincinnati Christs Epis Episcopal Episcopal Episcopal copal I 1 believe and only knew that In the spring when I had fluttered forth in new goWn and gloves and things so Sundays were re given glen over overto overto overto to a late breakfast a little UttIe read In the Bible a good long read of secular matter sweetened by candy candya a calm ac acceptance acceptance acceptance what hat was sas puzzling to the of ot a shadowy dinner a short walk if weather eather permitted then oh then a locked door a small a tiny saucepan we e had not the bliss of owning g a chafing abating dish and pres presently presently presently we e sat enjoying to the last spoon spoonful spoonful spoonful ful a hot and delicious stew a pot of tea that brought to mind many man stories and made old jokes daice daLce forth with renewed youth and kept us loitering our small uon jn In Jn a quite dip dis I I way Then back to our novels no els again till bed time and next day all alland and rested I began my round once more First Flowers and Jewels I I To say sa I made a success in Cin Cincinnati CIncInnati Cm Is the barest truth I say it was a sensation almost at once I The third night of the season to be exact I received my first anonymous gift a very beautiful and expensive I Iset set of jewery j eI pale pink corals in com combined I dead und and burnished gold setting They rested on the nest I and tempted me The sender wrote I Show that you forgive my temerity i iby by n wearing earing my offering in the third 11 act I 1 did not wear them in any act and I yet oh eternal feminine I tried tied them themon on at tt least I put one ring in my ear and held the pendant against a my throat Jut ju t to see how they would have you know w Flowers came over the th footlights the like of or which I had never neer seen in my life before great baskets of hot hothouse hothouse hothouse house beauties some of them costing r more ore than I earned in a tt week Then one night came a bolder note with a abig abig abig big gold locket a signature made It possible for me to return that gift next morning All that sort of ot thing was new to me and naturally pleasing yes because earned approbation pleases one even thought it be not quite correctly ex cx expressed expressed pressed It became whispered about that I 1 sent back all gifts of ot jewelry and lo one matinee with a splendid basket of white camelias fringed about with poinsetta leaves there here came cam a n box DOx ox of French candied fruit My what a sensation they the created in the dressing room I re remember remember remember member some of the ladies ladles we dressed in one great long room there took bits of peach and of green figs to show their friends while I 1 devoted myself to the cherries and apricots That seemed to start a fashion for candies candles In dainty boxes came to me as often as flowers afterwards and to my great pride and pleasure were often from women and my y Saturday 5 cents allowance was turned over ever to mother for or the banqueting a abit abit bit of cheese for supper I In spite of all the praise of my work I 1 should have remained unmoved had hadnot hadnot hadnot not Mr Egbert Johnson a lawyer layer calmly assured me that he knew the New York theatres and actors and he honestly believed that I had a chance of acceptance by the public if only a manager would give me an opening And straightway my heart gave gaye a abound abound abound bound my cheeks began to burn the leaven was working at last my am ambition amP was awakened I wondered day and night could I 1 act well w Il enough to please New York Finally I wrote to Mr Ell he knew all the New NewYork NewYork NewYork York managers few then and told him I was about to ask my first favor favorat at his hands Would he write to one or two managers for me or give me a aline aI aline line of introduction to them And his I unexpected opposition to my plans the I cold water he cast upon my ray warm hopes Instead of crushing my spirit I utterly roused the old dogged deter determination determination 1 to do what I had undertaken j I to do doto to make a try for fora a New Nev York YorI opening I The controversy finally end d in my receipt of or a n letter from Mr lIr Ellsler informing me he had written to four i i managers m and said what he could for forme forme forme me which proved to be mighty little I i He simply asked naked if they had an open opening openIng openIng ing for a young woman oman named Clara Clar Morris for leading l or business That was all not a word woid of recommendation for ability or men mention mention mention tion of years of thorough t experience not even the conventional expression of a personal obligation if they were able to consider my application Had I 1 been a manager and had I re received received such a letter I know I 1 should have cast it aside thinking Oh a duty letter and amounts to nothing If the girl had any a ap recommendations recommendations s for the position he would haye aye said sot so Still StIn some some answers w were returned though Mr Ig Ignored Ignored nored noted his copy Mr Jarrett of Jarrett cc Palmer wrote Mr Ellsler that they were bound to spectacular Black I I Crook for the year ear to come and had no earthly use for an actress act ess above a soubrette or a walking lady Mr Ed Edwin Edwin win Booth Wrote Crote If you had only addressed me a few days earlier I re ber well the young woman of whom you speak I have nave unfortunately last word was crossed out I have just closed with Miss Blanche De Bar old Ben is persistent and has lIas great confidence In her and as I have said saidI I have just closed with ith her for the coming co season With etc etc Then there was a wee bit of paper papera a little jetty black Imp Impishly impIshly vindictive looking writing on two short lines of about eleven words n each That was waa from rom Mr r Daly and it snapped out this information If you send the young youn woman to tome tome tome me I WIll vill willingly consider proposal Will engage no actress without seeing her A DALY These letters were blithely sent to tome tome tome me by b Mr Blister Ellsler who vho ho upon the question as closed but that was where we w differed I 1 considered lit I It a question just fairly opened I admit it Mr Dalys calm ordering of me from Cincinnati to his office ollice in New NewYork NewYork NewYork York for inspection staggered me at first but there was that line Une I 1 will wIllI willingly consider her proposal prop that I was all I had to trust too not much ranch heaven knows Yet I argued he heIs heIs heIs Is evidently a man who says much in little At all events the chance is small smaIl it is the only one afforded and if I can stand the expense Ill go and take that chance I would have to obtain leave leae of ab absence absence absence sence I would have to pay a a woman I for at least two performances even If I got off Saturday night I 1 would have j I to stop one night in a hotel at a New Nw N w wI York I and Ind oh dear would I dare to risk so much to spend all my little II savings toward the sumner summer vacation for this trip that might end disastrous disastrously i ly after all I read again Will en engage engage j lb gage no actress without Seeing her yell well that settled d the matter mattOr matt r Suddenly I seemed to hear my old Irish washerwoman saying Ah well God niver shuts one without opening anither I laughed a bit and decided to risk my savings nothing venture nothing win Then mother and I emptied out our flat fiat 11 t and old pocketbooks I 1 brought from Its secret hiding place the little roll 1011 of bills saved sayed for summers idle time and we put all aU in a pile As I 1 closed my pocketbook I said to myself There I 1 have hae shut one door with my mv own hand but Ill trust God to open another for me before vaca vacation vacation vacation tion arrives Mr fr Augustin Daly Theres an old saw that that gravely states It never neer rains but bu it pours po rs and surely business opportunities poured upon me at that time for forin forin forin in that very week I received two of offers offers I fers ers of engagements and one of them t em had not the New York bee been buzz buzzing buzzIng buzzing ing so loudly in my bonnet would have driven me quite wild with de delight delight delight light That was from Mr Thomas Ma Maguire Maguire guire of San Francisco and the salary was to me enormous One O hundred dollars a n L week in gold gola with an extra I benefit added as an inducement for me mc meto meto to accept I ISo So I journeyed onward to tempt Fate a little forlorn and frightened at but receiving so many courtesies and little kindnesses from my more for fortunately 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