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Show THE ZEPHYRJAN-FE- B 1994 GENUNE WOOD PIT BABBEQUE 36 S- - IOO W-- 2S9A4302 coming soon: LB IS Am Complete selection of Deli Sandwiches (including new vegetarian sandwiches ) Fresh tossed sofaefs Daily vegi and meateater soup specials. "With experience and practice, one may increase the odds in favor of triumphing over the bull. I respect the bull I know that even the best matadors come close to death. And sometimes -sometimes - the bull wins. I know he's in there, always. "My bull is the beast of I am at the top of my form as a matador. "But at age fifty-fiv"I'm confident in the presence of the bull. e, "This confidence is called vet llegar in the ring. It means 'to watch them come It is the ability to plant your feet exactly so - to hold your ground and see calmly, as in slow motion, the charge of the bull, knowing that you have what it takes to maneuver the bull safely by. this is dynamic stability. Standing still is one of the steps in dancing, as moments of silence are part of the music. Confidence lies in the stillness. It is die confidence that comes from many passes and many fights you can control the bull and defeat it because you have done it before. "My bull comes at me when I have succumbed to examining my life with a microscope. little mites become dragons under the lens, and fear makes me weak. Or the bull comes when I am hurriedly trying to collect and carry all the baggage of my life and haul it up the spiral staircase that leads to nowhere, and I despair of the absurdity of my life. The bull comes then. Because he thinks I welcome him as a kind of solution. "I know him now. I can smell him, sense him before he moves. I welcome him. Yah, Toro, come on. I plant my feet and watch him come. He charges. I pass him safely by with a swing of the cape of my confidence. The crowd in my head roars. OLE! The crowd is made up of all those ancestors who passed their bulls - they are pulling for me. OLE! OLE! OLE! "There is always a silence when the bull is defeated." And in that silence , the bird in the window sings again? H "Yes." This story first appeared in Maybe..Maybe Not, published by Villard Books and is used with the permission of the author. PAGE 9 |