Show FEAR IN BATTLE 0 one is man tolls tells of the desperate Despe rats efforts it took to cure it heres to the grand old party baid the clubman as hs he raised his hig glass his companions numbering three followed suit thirstily you fellows still celebrating the result of the republican primal mal ites ies asked a fifth til th man as he joined the group ic I 1 no answered the man who had proposed the toast least wo vc are drinking every half hour by a ato slop P watell to the U G 0 1 I and are wondering whether adv any man ever anent ent through the war wit without bout finding out at al one time or another how it feels to be a coward some of ns its thick chirik there never was such a man others have hare been conten contending din that hundreds of men I 1 fought 0 if V b t straight through the civil war on each side without ever knowing a qualm of personal fear what have you to say about it colonel you certainly ought to know for you were in it from start to f finish yes I 1 ought to know answered vi the colonel and I 1 do know I 1 was a lad ad when I 1 enlisted 1 shall never dever forget that day my mv father had a fine country place up lip the river then I 1 had just passed rny my seventeenth birthday mere was nothing bothin but talk tall talk tall talk about tile the war war and enlisting and I 1 got very much aroused on the subject I 1 slipped oft off to a little island near by early one morning morn ing arid and stayed there all one that whole day thinking the matter over when I 1 went honie that night my mind was made up I 1 would steal away array down to the city next nest day and and enlist I 1 lid did when lien I 1 got honie home the next afternoon I 1 was waa shaking in ia in iny y boots for I 1 had no idea what my mother and father would say to mo me you know a young chap always tackles his mother first under those conditions so I 1 went in to where mine was busy husa with her household duties and said al other mother aveen Ive enlisted listed 1 TM niu thing she a L 11 angrily m and shut her lips lipa tight 0 1 I cant tell y you ou how bow miserable I 1 felt over the way she took the news because my boyish heart was full of the cause I 1 made my way hesitatingly to my fathers study opened the door and stood face to face with the old gentleman what is it oung aoun anant manlie lie as asked ked fattier father ive enlisted I 1 answered well what of itt it be answered if isyou you I 1 should have lift din owned you and he be took my hand in his bis then be looked at me ine hard bard and before I 1 knew it he be gave me the bibs I 1 hat should have come from my mother 1 I started in as a lieutenant my father was influential and he saw to that when I 1 stai stalled led out I 1 felt sure that I 1 would never know what the feeling of fear was and experience taught tile me that all soldiers went forth with the same impression gad how I 1 changed my mind during my first skirmish we were behind an embank me nt and I 1 was in command it just rained lead across our head every time a man inan raised liis his head above the breastworks it came whizzing off his shoulders as sure as shooting I 1 got c scared cared I 1 could feel myse myself ti growing 7 colorless I 1 articulate my arms grew ri rigid id and to save nac I 1 coul delt have put in a load all of a sudden it came to me ine that the men under me knew that I 1 was waa snared scared this thou thought I 1 alit loosened up my tongue and joints a 3 bit then it flashed over me that it would never do for me to let my men know that I 1 was waa afraid and that I 1 must do Eom something ething to prove that I 1 was not what could I 1 do the man next me poked bis head up at that point and a minie ball took him right between the eyes A cold sweat broke out on me and I 1 was ready to coll collarte apte when all of a sudden it came back to me that all would be lost that I 1 should be ruined if I 1 let my men go cl on thinking that i i was wais a bowar coward i I 1 my field glasses and with a shout I 1 leaped to the top of cf the breastworks 1 raised those glasses to my iny eyes and ami for a second our enemy almost stopped birin tiring they nere so astonished I 1 lo 10 looked aked from one end of their lines to tho the other come down from there you damned little fool said a rough voice behind nip mp and I 1 was jerked back into the ditch by a powerful force do 3 you ou want to get killed it was my color colonels els voice and his hand that saved me what did I 1 see through the field glasses not a thing thin I 1 was wag too scared A blind man could have seen more but I 1 saved my reputation stany many times limes after that I 1 was frightened fri 0 likened in bittle dutile but never so much and I 1 never shirk td from that day unil til the war closed my men adored me and they thought that I 1 never knew what rear fear was during tile the whole of those four bloody years what do you think ailed you that day it went the rounds in my company that I 1 had an attack of heart trouble answered the colonel with a laugh and I 1 never took the trouble to correct the story it was true in a way for I 1 was eo frightened that my heart almost stopped slopped beating its ILs bosh to talk about any ny man going goin I 1 through a war alit without h on t fe feeling elinn fear any brave old soldier will tell you of experiences experienc ce such as I 1 have told nev ne no v york jun |