| Show ratification AND disappointment to be disappointed is sometimes very serious usually vexatious and agitating at the expense of considerable effort to overcome distance and adverse cir I 1 put in an appearance at the republican ratification meeting expecting to see bee and hoping to near from that individual who was waa known in the late Minneapolis convention as the man who had lived in utah since ahe the time when those who differed from the cormons mormons were destroyed P and he would have been killed if the mormons cormons bad dared to see this prodigy of a man over whom the vilest plot tings forhia life had been freiti fruitless ew piloting was wag to me the great anticipated interesting feature of that occasion I 1 was disappointed since then I 1 have been endeavor log to reason out the character of a man not knowing what star he was born under that his bis life should be secured to him bim under such desperate conditions I 1 am under the necessity of adopting the plan of reasoning from cause to effect as when one on fact is established reason may justly estly arrive at other facts as deducible from the established promises premises or ultimate fact acquired being personally a stranger to the gentleman in question I 1 have no other means at command of forming satisfactory conclusions conc lusious to take the place of disappointment As to tc his bis physical appearance I 1 am satisfied he must be very careworn care worn gaunt weak lean and meagre as no ope one under ordinary conditions could possibly endure so many years of con stant excitement under anticipations of being waylaid by the innumerable assassins who were inflicting death upon all who differed rom them no these thee years must have bein been full of mental excitement leaving its furrows of care upon the ghastly visage that was able to carry them demanding the pity rather than the contempt of every beholder I 1 trust that today his appearance pe arance to is not net Is a living liva he to the declarations in which he has so freely indulged he certainly must have something to shew for the fearful apprehensions which have ever attended him in the midst of veritable assa the agony of soul which he endured must have been excruciating and have left visible marks of despair upon both countenance and conscience but what of his mental condition it is painful to contemplate the activities t f the mind which must have been his con constant tormentor lest leaf some one should so far forget as to dare do the terrible deed imagination takes in these years of sleepless sleep lees dreamy and the terrible exercise of that conscience that never sleeps gives hm him no rest but makes his couch of repose OPO one of despair and inconceivable wretchedness his power of endurance must have been more than human not net to have bare wholly given way under such a train strain of excitement that dream of blood at the midnight hour that unearthly vision that denies him rest and haunts liia slumbers with deaths despairing doom awaiting hint him to la enough to in its ito ordinary consequences to unsettle the most giant mind a mind to which he makes no claim I 1 am not surprised that under this pressure reason has fled bed but more surprised that anyone any one should consider him capable of possessing a mind that can reason with the accuracy of truth or the logic of right to expect one who has been subject to such extreme tests testa of both body and mind to tell the truth to be logical in his reasoning or consistent in his bis ima imagination to la expecting entirely too mud much ch ravings and imprecations may be expected from aoh such a distorted mind and even editors should not look for consistency from such a source such condi tims have often led to dangerous proclivities and institutions have been prepared where uch such my be kindly cared for and possibly reclaimed Is in this poor suffering specimen of humanity still at large has he not one kind friend to pity rather than censure his demented condition who will assist him to the kindly care his case demands in this his dire extremity has humanity taken the wings of the morning and fled fied to the uttermost parts of the earth that he should fail to enjoy the soothing administrations which christian civilization is capable of imparting to te such worn and weary imbeciles Imbe ciles as imagination pictures this human form to be were it not so late dreaded death might now be a desired boon but even that is in denied no one can be found now dow as all in the past many years who dare afford the remedy and a pitiful life must be endured until some kind providence shall determine the bounds of life bis endurance such to is but a faint brief sketch of what imagination pictures to be the condition of one who has lived in a community where none dared to permit a realization or of an anticipated end however much that end was merited or a guilty conscience could have desired IMAGINARY |
