Show 0 0 O O O N I Suffer Self Blame and Sleeplessness While While- Learning a Bit of Wifely Wisdom My timid tap at Babs Bab's door brought no response lIe He must have gone gone to to sleep I 1 Isaid Isaid said Mid to myself and yet ret it was unthInkable unthinkable unthinkable un un- un- un I thinkable that Bob should bo able to clove close his eyes while our disagreement disagreement disagreement disagree disagree- ment lasted It wasn't fair fall I 1 thought and- and then I remembered that Bob had done the same thing more than once In the first months of our married life More than once I 1 had been as astonIshed astonished astonished as- as and offended to find that difference between us which kept me wakeful for hours didn't upset my husbands husband's s 's regular sleeping habit Inthe Inthe in inthe the least And I 1 wondered If It I 1 were the only wife who had ever wept over that experience or If It it was common on the lists of ot wives' wives matrimonial woes I 1 had the grace to reason however that Bob Dob ha hadn't heard my rap rap rap-It it had been a gentle apologetic little knock I I had meant It to say that I was awfully awfully awfully aw aw- aw- aw fully sorry and It was all my fault tault I I had meant It to say that I wa was awfully sorry and it was all my fault and pl please se couldn't I come Inand in inand inand and cuddle up and be kissed I 1 felt humble but quite sure that Bob would welcome this message and so I 1 rapped a second time much lounder than before and the sound echoed through the stillness of ot the night And that echo was all the answer I 1 received Tears came Into my eyes My husband husband husband hus hus- band could go to sleep like that without without without with with- out the formality of ot a goodnight kiss And I 1 never could get a wink of sleep without that kiss hiss And he knew I 1 never could It was perfectly selfish of ot him I 1 raved perfectly horrid of him to fall tall falloff falloff off ort to sleep inside of five five five-at at any rate Inside of ot fifteen minutes after atter our quarrel quarrel leaving leaving me shivering and andIn andIn andin In tears But it was altogether like a husband husband husband hus hus- band to do Just that If It girls only knew beforehand I raged how much less seriously a man takes marriage than his bride takes it I But nobody ever er warns a bride of i what is before her Marriage begins for tor each brigs bride as if It It were the original original original nal Adam and Eve experience If It Adam hadn't been such a sleepyhead sleepyhead sleepyhead sleepy sleepy- head probably poor Eve ve would have told him how the horrid snake was hanging around on the tree waiting to tempt her her and and then Adam might have killed the snake and snake and we would all be living in Paradise today As it is is each new bride has to find out for herself what mans man's real nature nature nature na na- na- na ture Is She has to make her own experiments and suffer Butter for tor failures she cant can't help She Sho has to get well used to the tho Idea that love is of ot mans man's life a thing apart apart womans woman's whole existence I crouched on the floor close to Bobs Bob's door and sobbed until the pins shook out of ot my coils and m my hair fell tell about me and made me feel teel like a real martyr But I wouldn't follow tollow the pull of my heartstrings I I wouldn't open that door door and and go Into Bobs Bob's room and waken him with a kiss So I t let the minutes drift until I Iwas Iwas Iwas was fairly sick with regret for tor the barrier I 1 had managed to erect between between be bl tween us sick alck with the surety that I had blindly and obstinately dashed I straight at the stone wall of ot Bobs Bob's stubbornness I had assumed that I 1 could Insult my husband and then cure his hurt with a kiss I had proceeded after atter the well WI known and ever popular plan of married married married mar mar- ried life lite Kiss and make up I had taken It for tor granted that Bob would forget torget my silly Jealousy and forgive my wretched Insinuation Insinuation for for a a. caress As I 1 huddled up In a heap on the floor shivering miserably I 1 acquired wisdom Bob Dob was hones honester tel and nicer than I I He lIe would cure unreason by reason not by the clasping of hands hands' Having reached this stage of humIlIation humiliation hu hu- and contrition a stage at at which all honest brides ought to arrive arrive ar ar- rive sometime I 1 began to hunt excuses excuses excuses ex ex- for tor my husbands husband's mood T i began to blame myself for tor our trouble trouble trouble trou trou- ble To be continued |