Show KILLED BY POISON A dottor dot tor takes morphine and votes his symptoms dr joseph W waters the physician who shot and killed himself in his attic room in mr catharine ee kers lodging house SO college place left two letters addressed to dr G V wells medical examiner of the mu lifo insurance company one of them is a sort of journal of his suicide beginning with an attempt to kill by taking morphine and cocaine it wa only when both these failed that he resorted to the revolver lie says of the reason for trying the drug the revolver would perhaps aft the best hut I 1 have a strong prejudice using it besides it would alarm the house I 1 wanted to make my as quietly as possible he took tiie morphine first he said wishing to study out for alie benefit of the medical profession all the symptoms liis death ue was inclined to think that cocaine would act too quickly for his purpose tie took his first dosu of morphine on friday night at 10 0 clock he writes As near as I 1 uan estimate I 1 took fifty eight grains of morphine between 10 and 12 it required nearly that number of injections as my only holds half a the actual number of injections wag fifty four I 1 drank three and a half drachma drachms of the solution indicating that the quantity was rather larger than estimated at 2 a m I 1 feel the morphine strong iv xo soporific effect is yet manifest my skin has been covered with nn itching prickly rash very fugitive in character disappearing quickly or passing irom one place to appear elsewhere extending shifting blending and disappearing so that I 1 could not follow its changes my hand shakes so eliat I 1 can scarcely write this is copied at 8 M on saturday night my forner being illegible to any one else he went on giving hia physical condition his feelings and his thoughts for twenty four hours his thoughts wandered from one method of killing himself I 1 to the other at one time he was in dined to think that alie injections of morphine would do alie business for him at another he inclined toward cocaine and wrote this some time ago I 1 read of a victim of the cobine habit who took an overdose and died protracted and horrible agony I 1 must try it however before I 1 can use the revolver at a m y arday D waters wrote 1 I presume no tedious an exit I 1 am at a lobs to understand it of coarse I 1 kaev that I 1 could take of morphine danger at 9 p m on saturday jut oliree haars hoars after taking the first of the morphine retook betook took five drops of cocaine half an hour afterward lie arote that it had an agonizing effect toward midnight on saturday it dawned upon him that he could not die by cocaine either he wro tethia then it seems that misfortune and failure attend my efforts even in ending my existence now if cocaine faa why may not the revolver also ohp cartridges are ten years old yet they have always been well wrapped inthe original box and may be good yet the revolver never has bs fired I 1 have only eight hours in which to effect mv purpose before I 1 he disturbed wonder if amount of morphine coald kill me aca sunday morning he was not dead lie was very thirsty as a result of violent pre what would I 1 give foi a boul throb bina class of brandy or champagne he wrote he added this 1 I am a louah one it seems I 1 wonder if a bullet through the heart or one through the brain would bealh hill me I 1 must try it for I 1 cannot endure the suffering I 1 have at it is now a m I 1 am no nearer death than I 1 was at 8 it is now 9 I 1 wilt nat fool with deatle any longer I 1 will try the revolver 1 shall aim for alie heart just below the fifth rib gnp thing I 1 forgot A symptom not mentioned heretofore wa wai i my inability to judge of distanced every thing appears nearer to me than it actually is in fating up anything was it taking up the pistol that reminded him of it J reach beyond it this is modified by the quantity of morphine I 1 take at a m sunday dr waters wrote that he waa ready to fire the revolver but it would no t work owing to his nervousness he added will use it surely at 10 1 have not taken anything for forty eight hours my nervous system is in a complete state of collapse mrs found him dead at 6 p m one shot biad been fired into his breant from the revolver aad york sun |