Show c C 1 AAD T NO GOD ap if TC CART ai 1 4 k etani I 1 7 CHAPTER XII 1 it me wag eniy my ah an hour I 1 or or so before dawn antra when milea huff got to the hall hail there them were no trams between midnight and morning and talbots car or shuh hot tic be might have used hall had been conff ong do de lived by his burst tire he took n lad arlim trolley tire line tor to I 1 perhaps half the distance and walked walk d the rest resit at four 0 lack clock 1 in t the be morning he jua pressed juad d the arbor button and old hen riette grumbling at this thia second ill ds of her bar rest roused rd rainor again gal f time was precious huff hag having rung mug the almon announcing cing bell made his nay may up through ze the dow dew to the ila house and so BO it ft was a that ull elinor opening the hall house a door met him face ace to face As she recoiled from him he be closed 1 tile door done T 1 I h have ha a brought you yon a message logo from boroday Rini alay he eald aid ive ila it beca a tool find and ad scoundrel and it ft a bout about oil 11 up 1 elinor hardly realized mal what he be use as akym g the of horror had bad hardly dad out of her eves to her walter once her bar lover now typified all ot of suir suf ferine and nearness to death that lay in old hilary a room mom upstairs the best vain tram leases ionic a the city it at at six R a 0 clock he be said reving to loop keep his rot voice Is at steady dy it is hardly likely the at bill 11 be out so soon but under some pretext or other they will search the house home this al morning how cin can I 1 leave the house num now upstairs in fathers room rooms 1 T I know he put in hastily 1 I linow know all 11 ant nebout t it elinor elm r I 1 ma cm sorry I 1 am I 1 wildly mildly 1 S sorry I my it s no 1 excuse I to eay aly I 1 sm was C crazy sy im but I 1 was t it if I 1 go away elinor said aid with ejob alte lips how will they manage about him the nurse needs so man many things and I 1 I 1 see that she has them the aflame A lame leaped into the boy I 1 eyes it you care for file join him ilk like that whit hajt are you going to do boat about tta it y even en if lie ile come cares for you you cannot marry him if he ever found out about your you I 1 he a will ill sever ere marry cry C me a and he does know the fact that ward knew the truth about elinor and the band brought back to h him their common peril ile he thrust aside for the time at least his pion passion and liis his despair and calmly dire directed led his energies toward preparing the house for the inevitable search 6 ao systematic had old hilary been that them were acre few papers to destroy such ot of the ledgers as were jus ta lug ing he a burned to la the furnace elinor elam s box of jewels he carried upstairs and placed place if on an the table such act settings as S had bad remained from the country club C ON raid after the gems gains had bad been bee taken outs out he melted together in old hilares Hi larys crucible and placed PI d the ial gold 1111 suit and platinum nugget tn hi elum t in box he had set the safe to a shop simple cc corn blua tion end and closed tt it except tor or its a size and ad tor far the pra protective teethe wiring miring burled buried in its walls it might ight have been a family safe built b by a nervous and elderly gentleman living I 1 la the country to hold his silver spoons it was too late by thit tbt time to bury the box as barbada boroday Y had d suggested huff did the next best thing 13 he burled buried it carefully I 1 in elmore elinor B gardn under a clump of erl crimson phlox elinor worked hurriedly but b t mi th hopeless eyes eye her preparations cpr at consisted CO in I 1 little more than putting on the clothing in which she meant to travel in this new life on which she was entering she wanted little to re IS mind her of the old A letter to he hen iffet rhette to contained enough money to pay off the servants and the household ac 1 baug counts in another envelope she fold ed the deed to the house bouse and A note conveying it to henrietta Henr lette you can sell it she wrote goodby dear henriette Henr HInt lette I 1 shall never for get bet you and tt if ever it Is possible be sure I 1 shall see yo you I 1 acain the time came just before dawn damn when aluen she and a a d falter NN alter stood again face to bi face IS ce in 1 the library H huff off wk going at an once e it was a not at boroday barnsley a plan that any of them should further incriminate elinor by accompanying her bee to the train at a sound bound of if step 0 on the stairs huff started the nurse arse going down probably for irs ice I 1 I 1 she Is explained us he I 1 Is getting bettor he be yes but he still SUIT suffers at times time s wine when the steps top had bell died anav as ellnor elinor blosl dr drew I 1 ott off it her el I 1 engagement ring and held it all out t to him across the table although he h was watching watch hig her he made no move moe to take it and she bhe laid it down between them on the table 1 I 1 dont think we need talk about it walter she bhe said bald simply imply there Is nothing to say iz Is there 1 I suppose not he returned bitterly ho H added if only you sol will 11 try not 0 o hate bate me elinor I 1 1 1 I do not hate bate you but it if he ha had bad affied huff came swiftly action around it ill the table end and taking both her bee bonds banda in his held them to ids his throat with a despairing gesture mif a I 1 did n t know that it would malce make you more unhappy he said bald slowly td kill myself today wait Is 1 I a tell you now it wont change mattera matter sky any but perhaps it will change your memory of me ever sin silica res k known kon you yon rv ive had one dotska you etere S ere to marry in me and d I 1 one na going to turn straight I 1 C could old have done it with ith your h help cp but now 1 ho he dropped her bonds bands rod and turned so anay P ei nor car mhd batched him wistfully the one till tiling 9 lie he 11 in eted led she could not fir give there could be no an compromise between ill them it must he be all or noali oil ing aud ad she had given her nil all to some a one else i in the he turned and looked bee babli k at her with haggard eyes it was as aa it if he be were Im impressing on his on mem i orr are every cry light and ad shidow had of her he face ivory every line of her straight glit young figure figare then he be acut t out ant into that darkest hour of tile the night that pr pre ceda the dawn for far the tha first nine lime since I 1 his injury wards we id mind was quita quit clear he 11 had bad not ind been able to sleep and the nurse had been reading to him strange read ing too for the assistant reitor rector of saint S aint judes ades the books blohs old minty had bad kept kept on his beds bedside i de sivilay still lay there even the nurse nure accustomed to many books book for far many say men was gently outraged ward nard lay in his bis bed his bis eyes halt half closed listening intently at last the nurse put dow dom a the book why it 3 frightful its outrageous it its b blasphemous b aspher name I 1 do you really think I 1 should read sou ou any more of them mard ft ard smiled feebly if you are afraid of the effect on a ou N not or at all 11 said the nurse almost sh arple and picked up the book again W ward III lav back on his ifil pillows lons and listened to the age old arguments so it was mes OB all such in literature I 1 us this that ael elinor in or he had it b been or reared I 1 how fair a plant to have grown thus in the dark I 1 and US as the nurse droned dronek on word ward came to realize how natural and how hall inevitable b la b had it been her develop ment be beaded I 1 red 1 in a such soil what might he ii himself I 1 not have become and more than ihan tint that would he be have been 1 one I half so sweet so tender so go good T toward tard ard da dawn the nume slept in her chair her cap had fallen a little crooked and rd the beautifying hand of sleep had touched away the small furrows between her eyes plain slie she was but kindly and full of gentleness ward iving awake watched her she was waa no longer very young ile he thought of the child who should have bare clung to her broad brand flat bosom and felt the touch of her tender hand then beau because curiously enough e C en thing of gentleness and tenderness n ess reminded him of elinor his thoughts though t a swung round to her he closed his eves and dreamed the dream that had been with him sub co mady nil all the right night to take her in his muk arms and by teaching her bar love lose teach her infinite love have by showing mercy end and forgiveness and great tenderness ae der ness riess to lead her by these hia eta S attribute to the this was a his dream ream and because it brought hope and ad healing eating and great peace after a time he slept elinor standing loan alone 1 in the house outside his door too took courage from alq la even Ine athing and ventured in so liht was his sleep that sie se dared not touch him she lne knelt sit very quietly by the bed and ad kissed ane afie corner of h his as pt pillow ward spent his sabbatical year in oxford ile he laid had thought to find peace by exchanging one fora of activity tor for another the but with the less arduous da duties of his work there he had bad more time to think he found the old pam pain 0 oven o greater his restlessness grew on him in the three years since el elinor nor a flight he had bad done many things ile he had left Wo Singham for new york and rd could feel his bis usefulness now only bounded ill bv his strength but the old zest of life was go gone he m vaa as restless he heavier S vies of spirit there h had 4 be been times when he had thought thou glit that he be was forgetting only to di als cover through a mray army resemblance while his heart pounded aled and his blood raced that his forgetting was only the numbness muchas a of sulTer tog mg once on the stand in london he be emna came face fit cc t to 0 face with ith boroday ward would never foger that meeting its quick hope which died into the old ache at brodu B a 3 words 1 T I he have not at seen sean her he said of 1 I am ki always looking perhaps she Is wise to break with us all stilt still we loved her I 1 have never married mari led and she was like my own child he be had bad taken a clerkship to in lon don he said eald while of 0 couise he be did not say bay so ward read between hla his words that he was done with the old life for good ile he held out his hl land band and the russian took it if I 1 hear an thing boroday idd 11 I 1 let i ou on know once or twice she wrote rom me from liverpool once after she he landed and again from here then the police biased closed up the dago a place which was one the only way she be knew to tc haard reach me I 1 ive im nevar or heard ance are I 1 then tle you think she be may be 1 in ilig eng land ale ward al asked eagerly W the russian hassan shrugged hm his bis shoulders shoulder perhaps if she is living s she he was not strong somali sometimes I 1 w wonder a a li or 8 so after utter all word ward took tank an mryt extra pang away with him from am the tha chance pang meeting in still what he it after rise nil hla his watching tn and 1 wilting ith meant seat nothing it if she were em gone gim beyond earthly finding death tor far him rd might it it be a a beginning or ning only a douba door TO OR Illi eternity illicit fit I 1 b but at Z all the phil 0 sop Y and ad laiq hopa pe of his S faith did not fall his inapt human home seno arms that night might he walked the london streeta street until dawn ITS he I 1 cama bali from oxford at the end of his co course there them jinnie home wc wai blima calling at ind work blessed work walk that hi in forgets alnes ulnes 0 on 1 tile the list last adv before ho be fallt all d he attended service 11 in 1 saint paul i Us he knew the ill church well in those earlier days I 1 when philosophy had taken take hla his young voting brain by storm and his faith had and rocked h he bad rone goes to saint P panl a I 1 i something thing in the v very solid solidity fly of 0 tho the old church in its in the nearness near nesi ot or those thoe dead and d gone giedt on ones of tile the earth who tied had lived mal and tied died secure 1 in his teachings had steadied him and now when it was hla hat heart that failed and rd not at his said he m went the there I 1 it Us was there them that be found elinor sho she iq ii just in front of him I 1 in the prim garb of nn 4 english army nurse as and it m was in no me a that th at roused sed his firt first interest what he saw w we waa mild a slender leader girl aneel I 1 as and d evl eli antly in aral terii she w wa as TO very thin I 1 d he saw that anti and her bar sh shoulders be heaved bod convulsively but US as ti the in service went cut a on she be grew quieter when she ehe r from her knees at last ehe be we was quite quite cairn a it unk then that he be knew be her word ward watched her with an ache the 1 in his throat she looked fruit frail sad led al wars in his 1118 mind he had bad pictured he her in her an summer nice garden garde flower flome herself 1 among her gower flowers or as she had looked that right night in old hilares Hi larys ii bracy the right night when to save him she he had bad told him the shameful truth bout herself and now he found her here wearing the garb of service and on her knees so feard tearful u I 1 was he of 0 losing h her that tant he staved close a aa the congregation moved slowly out of the hurch she did not intend to go he be saw that she stopped stepped out of the crowd and waited i he thought it probable ino plo bable that she was seeking what he himself had once sought a quiet hour under a holy roof aud and so it wis oas that they came face to f fice ce again she put her hand band to her throat I 1 with tile the familiar gesture when slie lie saw him rc for a moment at neither of them spoke the ordinary greetings were out of place and what was there to say it was ward who spoke at last I 1 it seem quits quite possible elinor he said she had bad never been minors elinor to him so save IS in hla his thoughts but anglo neither or if them noticed of 1 I am sorry you have found me I 1 have tried so hard bard to bury myself it was w as increasingly hard for him to speak all the things that had lain join 1 in ils his heart for three years clamored for speech I 1 you are quite we well again t perfectly but you I 1 I 1 oa ore are thin net r 1 I have hard and of course X have suffered it was not easy to tear in self aw am ay from the few friends I 1 had and then at last he broke into speech rapid incoherent ile he blamed himself for his hardness that night la in old hilary s library b aar Y he condemned himself for a thousand till things 0 ge ill she listened rather bewilders bewildered d with the I 1 old wistfulness in her bar eye eyes 1 should hould you say such h thin things she he asked at last when open he stopped from sheer panic you ton were right I 1 was a criminal h nanal I 1 have been lea learning things since bee then you were at algava was kind to me I 1 have never forgotten kindt he almost groaned she held out her hard hand I 1 must go now my time is no not t my own she glanced down don at her uniform u if do you Y 0 come remember nabor what you said to me ans once o about the tha brotherhood of wan man I 1 have been trying to live up to that ward took her hand it was very cold do you remember that 1 I remember almost everything you told me even the thing that right night while I 1 was watching the cob clock I 1 r remember them all 1 fihs ihs U he church was empty save a for far a verger here and there busy about ban t w his duties quite suddenly ward lost hla hi composure and 1 I I 1 remember everything too your smile bour eye eyes that right when I 1 was carried into the house hous oh h 1 dear my dear you are written a on my heart ile he bent beat 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