Show r 4 I I I j jn n s j J jI I f fJ S I CrU Her R iJ a uth r A Remorseful Womans Woman's omens wn Story o M Mrs Mary Thomas t the ther t rr self made If victim ii of What It Cost Cosh Her to Win Rack Back s a i a q wh what she now thinks a Her Bright Eyes Well Wella a r M Rounded Figure and Rosy 4 b Unwrinkled Cheeks yr w i I 7 1 f 1 1 1 7 y I Ir 1 r I c F Fou ou a aI 1 o ro i ia sat a t Gp t f l 8 t o q A r 1 t 4 d N Ns Nv s v r a f w a ti A Aa a eF eFi i t 44 S y a k 4 t tr t te r r i rs s A g gi Rrb it itY Y s t r l k F Fe e 4 3 r r 1 w 0 as l 3 oo J Jt m e bw 4 e J Jw G P a a Y I s rp a w t x d Mr nl idd y Gertrude Atherton whose who e I est novel deals witha with a woman raja at the age of sixty-five sixty By Mrs Mary Thomas Thomas- ThomasI never Dever used to be an apostle of cry cry- crying crying cry crying I 1 ing over spilled milk I always used to maintain that what is past is done dODe and that silence is the best rem rem- remedy rem rem- remedy remedy edy for the irrevocable And now having cited two precepts by which I have lived I am going to throw them to the winds and proceed to cry rather bitterly over spilled milk refusing silence as to the great mistake of my life Nevertheless it has cost me much h hesitation to decide to write ofa of a very delicate treatment I underwent three short years ago and it was only in the hope and belief that my bitter experience nce would help other women that I at last knew it lt was my duty to write The so-called so Steinach method for rejuvenating women by X-ray X treatment was first given popular attention in America by the novelist Gertrude Ath Ath- Atherton Ath- Ath Atherton Atherton erton when she sho wrote Black Oxen The book deals with the story of a woman of sixty-five sixty who was and plunged once more into a maelstrom cf of f impetuous love affairs This much discussed book has popularized popularized the idea of rejuvenation till women everywhere are talking about lt it and many particularly in the large cities are undergoing the treatment Professor Eugen Steinach the Vien Vien- Viennese Vien- Vien Viennese Viennese nese surgeon about ten years ago no- no noticed noticed no noticed that women Vo who ho had been treated with X-rays X for cancer of certain organs seemed to take on a renewed youth and anda a sparkling rosy rejuvenation There There- Therefore Therefore Therefore fore he and other surgeons associated with him decided that X-rays X applied to that portion of a womans woman's body above these delicate organs would anew r new youth for a more or less limited period The explanation was that the rays in their action stopped certain functions of these organs and turned the energy that had been required for them to other u uses es This diversion of energy built up the sag ging tissues brightened the eye added flesh rejuvenated Since Eve started looking about for a frillier fig leaf to please her Ada Adams woman has always fought against the inevitable odds to keep looking younger I too was eager to make that fight three years ago I was then in London an actress be- be becoming becoming be becoming coming very Yo weary eary of life on the staRe stage I was in that desolate age of woman woman- woman when five thirty five when she sho is five dreadful years ears from middle-aged middle forty and to ten n years from really respectable youth And An so though thirty-five thirty and almost out o of f courage I had become engaged in Ne New NewYork w York a short time before and expected to be married as soon as the company and I could sail sall for tor home Then the tragedy happened which pre pre- precipitated pre precipitated precipitated the still greater tragedy I Iwas Iwas was stricken with typhoid and after a month of serious illness wakened one on morning to realize that my hair was wa waA s streaked with gray my flesh shrunken n away from the bagging skin outside my m y A complexion deteriorated into a dull pale pal e green After the first look at myself in ii that revealing mirror I turned my fac facto e to the wall and wept I N ff j ft The Fountain of Youth from the painting f 9 by Henry Caro Caro Delvaille P 1 t t ti asp For I could see sec happiness and mar mar- marriage long long deferred deterred drifting from me When my Bill should see awaiting himat him himat himat at the dock the weary woman the gaunt gaunt- gaunt eyed eyed creature I had become with my barren flabbiness of side and haunted expression of how face face how could he want to marry me Of course the younger J woman in m the same place Yo would have been sure her Bill would have loved her t tjust just tjust the same But I was thirty-five thirty and cherished I few illusions So I wept And then it happened that I heard in that nursing homo home outside London where here I waS was rebelliously convalescing con con- convalescing con convalescing a reference to the Steinach rejuvenation treatment I was desperate for Iwas I was the woman whose life had blossomed late and to have experiences which till then I had missed it was Voas important that I get from somewhere or other a new youth and health But I was pained to learn that the treatment was not given by reputable doctors to young women women-to women to women still capable of becoming mothers This then at once would bar the thing for me For a painful day I hesitated and then I determined to travel over to Vienna and use any deception offer any price within my means to have the tho treat treat- treatment treatment treatment ment given me I went and within three weeks after my ThaI in Vienna I had undergone the treatment on 1 which I foolishly thought my future happiness depended Of course there were ere preliminaries Through the interpreter a certain Vien Vien- Vienna Vienna Vienna na specialist in this sort of thing asked me certain grave questions Ho He very painstakingly inquired about my age and other physical matters f fT f T Al l A I thought I succeeded In t Ing log him as to my age and physical i f condition At any rate he consented cont consented con- con consented t to give me the treatment r t With the courage of the martyrs t when the day arrived and probably probably probably ably feeling about as grim as the tho J M martyr allowed felt in tio to o crisis Ial I al- al al lowed loved Myself to ha bJ on a table in the operating room I gr my teeth and puckered up my lips while the whirr hirr of that wicked X-ray X machine pulsated throughout the room filling every inch of the tho atmosphere with Its buoyant ozone waves The machine spluttered behind tho partition the specialist and his nurse manipulated the apparatus while whilo I lay there knowing in those terrible few mo- mo moments mo moments ments that I was doing something which neer could be undone something undone something which might bring me back my youth but some some- thing something which might bring me roo only eternal regret At length the treatment was done After a week I was pronounced re re so far as the rays could do doIt doit It and at the tho doctors doctor's advice I made my way to a n seaside resort where two other American women who ho had also done and dared as I had were waiting as I was to wait for the great restoration I suppose nobody except some BOme woman in my place with my prospect prospects and I Et t rr g r 1 tw two o a J F r eA eAk eAr r k f ff r 1 y L 1 sf F Fi i ee s sz sr iciK z r i ff Y 4 r Pt 1 y f fN N j w s r eta IA by Marie Mario Ape Apel one of modern modem sculptures sculpture's most appealing portrayals of motherhood hopes and fighting desires can can ever im- im imagine imagine im imagine agine the anguish in my ray heart as I wait wait- waited waited waited ed for the which sCience had announced was almost sure to fol- fol follow follow fol follow low There were certain physical stand stand- standards standards standards ards which I tabulated in m my very sleep and which I felt I must come como up to be- be before before be before fore I would could be convinced I had been helped First of all my complexion It should bo be rosy it lt must lose its sickly yellow tinge Next my flesh my flat breasts must round out my blue blue- blue hands must lose their blueness my barren eyes must lose their woeful expression So I waited with hope and fear be- be because because be because cause I was the woman who had sery ery definite reasons for wanting to appear young And as I waited I thought of my Bill Bill again ngam Bill who isn't so hand hand- handsome handsome handsome some himself nor so awfully clever but who ho was fond of me and who de despite his plainness was an wool all-wool man I recalled what ho he had said to me when I sailed You mayn't be baone one of the these s e chickens Bill B i 11 had said to me and you may not be any baby doll but you suit me all right Honest Mary Diary nobody 1 would ever know you were an ac- ac actress actress ac actress tress unless you told them Bill had had a av av avery v e r y religious bringing up which included a warning against actresses but his heart was as ahva always s 's In the right place So I waited as philosophically as asI asI asI I I could And in inthe inthe 1 the mean time I studied the other two tl American women who had bad been treated as I They were both perfect hypochondriacs hypochondriacs hypochondriacs who talked of nothing but their new youth youth- youthfulness youthfulness youth and what they were going to do with cairn It ii une lie 1 woman was owner and manager of a achain achain achain chain of well well-advel well advertised candy stores stores- stores she wanted her new youth for the busi busi- business business ness The other was a simpering ma- ma madame madame ma-daine ma dame of forty-five forty at least and what she wanted her new youth for was to pro pro- prolong prolong pro prolong long the billing and cooing with her new fifth and year twenty-year-old husband I looked at both of them and I was fairly dl disgusted gu ted to find myself in such selfish self conscious and dIscontented company I made up my mind that either of them would be quite as 1 well ell quite quite as well her hone honest t tage age But as for me of course it Vo was as different in my case It always is-in is is our own case as I have ever observed At length two months of convalescence were up and I can honestly say that I had improved My new hair was coming in brown as it had always been My teeth were firmer in my jaws my weIght had increased and I was no longer the pale green beauty I had bad been just after the fever it 1 m tM- tM J t I 1 V I VI 1 j t j Mt A Fu S if Sr d 11 ih iI 4 a S r LT iP aV s fix i s f 5 I Ir IbN fw H r j So I sailed home Bill was was waiting on the dock and he was glad ad to see me Youre sure you want ant tt marry a sick old woman like liko I am I asked him ex- ex expecting expecting ex expecting him to remark that I looked younger than ever just lust jabo it bout seventeen at at any rate not more than seventeen t and a half halt Instead ho he looked at ime out of his honest bonest uninspired blue ic o eyes es and then reassured me Oh well weli after a hard fever what hat can you exp export t A year in inthe inthe inthe the country will fix fir you up tip all right So we wo Vo were era married and built our house in the country ane and an l settled down downto downto downto to life For Por a time I was seas w as sure I was getting younger I fought foug t with myself to make myself believe that I was as still at any rate only thirty five ve years old m in health as I was in years But as the months passed it grew increasingly harder to convince m myself Then one day very dispirited I sat down own in my rose garden and told myself that ever since that day an in the Viennese operating room I had bad never known n the full range of womanly I was stunned when hen at nt length I owned up to myself But it wasn't only I who noticed the change Bill was to me mc and I knew I was to im I had tad never felt to hum since I had returned the tho way a n should feel toward her husband I II II I knew he was good and kind andall and all wool and solicitous for me nse But I never felt a lush rush of feeling for him for him in which I wanted anted to pull his Ius hair tin tm fun or rum rum- rumple rumple rumple it up over his honest honet forehead I never felt any extreme C of feeling at all allI I had been reduced to a n nullity In the mean tuna timo the trouble that finally wrecked our married m l life e was casting its terrible shadow between us My poor old Bill was passionately fond of children Our neighbors down 11 the laden tree laden road had llad three flossy flossy- haired flossy haired things to delight the heart These children had a way of coming over to tD our house at tea time till Bill grew to look forward to their By this tillS time timo a shocking atmosphere of repression had grown up between betwee Bill Billand Billand Billand and Ime me For Por my husband knew I was strange his Ius ordinary masculine instinct knew that I was no longer the femi feml- femi- femi feminine feminine nine woman he had lowed loved but still he hofelt felt delicate to me about my- my myself myself my myself self However at last the silence be- be between between be between tween us had to be bo broken That hap hap- happened happened pend s one evening when we sat together J w i r a r v t tF ty F ci a y j 1 is a t tit r rb a b it ita P Prof Eugen Steinach the distin distinguished Vienna surgeon and dis- dis discoverer dis discoverer coverer of the ray X-ray method of rejuvenation in m our rose garden which Bill had plant planted ed in such hope of happiness The neighbors children had just gone home and our little world was hushed of their laughter for tor another day Then Bill spoke bluntly awkward as was his wont ont under great emotion uthe Mary he asked baldly what is the matter with you Iliad I was stunned My senses reeled I lied bad dreaded this moment and yet some some- how somehow I was as strangely relieved I felt my mouth go suddenly dry and then I spoke up trembling and stammered out the awful ful truth You mean to say Bill began slowly stel sternly that you that you that wo we can never hope to- to to Oh dont don't My pleading cry rang through the garden Have Havo mercy on me Yes that Yes that was it it But I did it only for you for you for your sake Bill be- be because because be because cause I hated so to be bo old A stark silence followed poignantly broken now and then by the laughter of the neighbors neighbor's children at play in their yard across the way Billat You are arc a wicked woman said Bill at last and then he went away leaving me weeping as I had ne er wept before That was as six months and ago now my the husband the only man I ever loved choll 1 11 or ever V shall love love-is 1 bringing SUit sun to 10 have havo our e marria-e annulled Such is the piti piti- piti- piti ably pitiably crue price Iam I am paying for a sem blance blanco semblance of the youth I feared I was losing forever a l |