Show FROM THE missionary FIELDS conflict between deity and self st louis louie missouri october 10 te ft now nearly two years since I 1 a fond farewell to loved ones red friends and associates and gh h fond emotion bade me stay still and above all such bidding came wil still small voice whispering in my pointing out the line of duty which lead away from all that was near near dear to me on earth ay iy pointed away from all these at lons ong of my dear old mountain and demanded a sacrifice at my and with what might seem cruel unfeeling firmness would listen to but insisted on enforce afier er demands against al the plead beof desire against all the pleadings fed d emotion thus the voice vadee of det was s silenced and butys commands fed and now I 1 am made to feel lever ever before the truth in the foles hg etsity sity whom long I 1 dreamed my foe iou u cold unsmiling hard dame 1 4 no longer see thy face I 1 know VM wert my best friend beyond reproach roach or blame best achievements and the fairest nights flights t my winged fancy were inspired by thee th ee airn voice stirred me to the mountain heights ty bade me doand do and be j for or thy breath the spark of living fire n we me might have shouldered ed out at length for thy lash which would not let me tire nver er should have measured my own l bength it tor for thy ort times merciless control son on my life which nerved me past despair aver er would have dug deep dee p in my my soul ad found the mine of treasure hid had oden s den there octive discovered coveTed dis that thai within me areas it were two perso persons I 1 e 3 myself perhaps some of py my jt remember reading the story of yowl owl on an the larder shelf where log js is made to say may 1 I did not take got 1 I but that naughty myself n I 1 was not looking stole up to the those who remember reading artl I 1 know at once what I 1 mean enever there se ms to be a con between duty and desire I 1 am alfa found on an the side of duty and let it me remind the boys and girls duty is always on the right side fjords as side how man many v have havi heard AW goddard stog sing ehos anthe on the 1 clr side etc duty dut y is always on cords ds sid sida but that thal naughty myself up to the shelf and takes i with desire and sometimes som times tImea by such jaaice ance duty and I 1 are overcome to yield to the wishes of aff and myself behe e case of my leaving home and lt and deax dear to bethere me there lust just such a conf conflict licit duty and I 1 go itis god who calls youthers you there 11 e and myself said you had better feat at home and enjoy yourself look much money you can earn jn in two be years think shift how comfortably wm an live at home and how many ps and indignities you would arto a endure out iti in the mission field BOW how bow much time and mone money y it ii win will ou which uwe time and means you might devote to building up a comfortable for table home then duty reminded me of 91 the promise of our savior wherein he says it if you will seek first the kingdom of god all these other comforts and temporal necessities essi essit ties leD shall be added in such rich abundance that we shall not have room to contain it yea more much more he has promised eternal life joy oy and happiness beyond our power to imagine to endure throughout the endless ages of eternity to all who will yield obedience to his laws what doth it profit though a man gain the whole world and lose his own soul what are the transient passing pleasures of this life a few brief moments compared with the true and lasting joys and happiness throughout eternal ages thus the conflict went on until desire dealie and myself were made to surrender to the most firm unyielding terms no compromise but an unconditional surrender since then I 1 have often felt to rejoice over this glorious victory of duty and I 1 over desire and myself the power and strength developed in this conflict has of often ten come to my aid since that time I 1 find that true and genuine happiness is found borund only along the lines of duty and that the trouble sorrows and sins of this world result from our own failure to govern our impulsive passions and desires solomon very wisely says he that ruleth his spirit Is mightier might ler than he that a city individuals like nations find their greatest enemies within themselves rome became so great and powerful that she ahe feared no nation on earth nay not even the combined force of all other earthly powers yet within herself arose that power which proved her destruction a power which the combined nations of earth had failed to produce nothing but the great all governed power of rome herself could gain access to this mighty center of bf political power undermine its it great foundation and bring it coruth to ruin thus fell fellia a victim to her own suicidal forr force thus from the history of nations let us draw this leg lesson bork earths greatest powers have committed suicide the forces which have proved their down tall fain and destruction have arisen not prom from without but from within and if this to Is true with respect to nations it is not less true with the individual our own ill governed impulses Impulse sand and de sites are our oar greatest enemies enemies not from without but from within solomon says again my donit sinner entree thee consent thou not 11 and ad we might wen well add if sin enstice thee consent thou not for the enticement which leads to sin comes from our own ill gov governed govern arned pd Impal impulses sim and desires more often than tram from the of others therefore cheref bre that which ewery every boy and girl young man and young ayoung woman neG needs ds above all else Is the power of et self control of self restraint the greatest enemies of nations or individuals arise from within themselves the truth of this may be seen all along the une line of history in our own grett great and dreadful dread tul civil war this troth was shown very cl clearly eaily indeed our own dear country was almost brought to ruin by this dread civil strife note ato how that terrible conflict sapped the vital force of griat great government adduced her mighty pillars of political and moral strength to a condition from I 1 which she has not yet fully emerged the baneful effects of that fatal drain upon her vital force still salu appear as a a waft upon twe this great en eat berutto putto Be yet how grandly she has swerved swerve cl all yet how grandly she has hae survived aur au all drafts upon her vital and today stands transparent among nations a beacon light to the world fearing no power on earth except her own rebel lous force the one great fear of individuals as well as nations in reviewing the present grandeur of our nation I 1 have but one regret expressed by the following of all sad words of tongue or pen the saddest axe are it might have been but for her own re rebellious bellous ill gov arned force what wh at heights might not have been attained the allied force of lee and grant what power dare oppose destroy the band of union and they axe are ewh each others foes easy victims they become while in the civil strife A foreign foe may conquer both without the loss of life if this is true in regard to nations it is not less true with respect to individuals divi duals were duty and desire united hand in hand if the latter would conform to the formers stern command what victories might be won what glorious heights attal attained ned what miseries might be shunned what joys and pleasures gained gaind now how can such an alliance be effected that our forces may not become divided and exhausted in the civil conflict how can the great friction within ourselves be avoided and perfect unity of action established united we stand divided we fall applies to every individual with no less force that it did in revolutionary days with respect to our nature every kingdom kingdon 6 divided against itself is brought to 10 desolation and a house divided against a house falleth 11 what our savior here says saye of kingdoms is equally true with respect to each of us then let us develop this self denying self controlling self re straining strad ning power in ourselves just bat as any any power physical mental or spiritual is developed by exercise and as a means mean to this end there is nothing more effective than contact with adver adversity affy tribulation and necessity provided we survive all these forces our greatest men are those that have grown up through such stich circumstances and survived ved these most developing forces while the weak and depraved are those who are overcome by these same forces with the wind of tribulation god separates on the floor of the soul the chaff from among the th corn may we survive these trying winds and pa not off on as chair chaff 1 your loving Bro brother therin in M 1502 kashing ton avenue st louls Ouia Xi missouri rome home address cipcer topete tooele county T utah the manitoba XUa mission sion brandon Mi matoba september 28 A D 1898 1998 As we share shane in the pleasure given by the letters from jo acx air elders maldag known their varie 44 experiences in the missionary fields the worl jel we trust haat a few words worda eon the ManI manitoba taba aAs aion will wild not bar aw appreciated by our co lab laborers and ld th saints at home according to appointment the laboring in this province gathered in brandon on the anat and held AL a brief council meeting as to the pl plan fl procedure during mr conference costeren con teren oa 1 sw two days following notice of our three conference beet ings to be held in the Po foresters resten riall hall had been duly given through the news newa peepers of the town and the menta were ere filled as follows follow on sunday afternoon at ait 3 after a spirited hymn upon the street the congregation was addressed by elder W W cooper who spoke upon the personality of god and elder A M Merkley who treated upon faith and repentance pen tance during the evening service elder frank may spoke upon the necessity mode and object ot of baptism and was followed by elder J G Stew on the bes bestowal towal of the Holy ghost and authority the monday evening meeting was unfortunately appointed at the same hour 8 p m as the prohibition meeting canada being belaj ed at present in the throes of a plebiscite campaign looking to the legal abandonment of the liquor traffic however a very attentive gathering listened to fro elder S ridolph who discourse upon the apostasy lapo stasy elder sterling williams con concluding the meeting by treating briefly the subject restoration of the gospel the public meetings though not mot as largely attended as those ot of the pre beeding coherence com ference three months were characterized by good order strict attention and a plain yet powerful presentation of the gospel plan the priesthood meeting was held on tuesday afternoon at 5 the elders reported their various fields of labor and expressed themselves as greatly encouraged and strengthened by the conference instructions were given by the conference president elder W S baxter and elder S williams upon some points in connections with the duties of the elders in their future labors elder W W cooper was released from his manatowa Mana toba appoint appointment appointee me nt in order to carry the gospel message to his relatives in great britain all rejoiced in the feeling of brotherly love and union which filled each heart and ec according cordIng to the statements of those longest in the mission more of the spirit god was present in this gathering of the elders than has at any time previously been manifested in labors here the following day elders J G ste and social rolph departed tor for hartney having the southwestern portion of the he province as their field and elders A M markley and C F jensen jr leaving for carberry to labor in the part par of the conference elders W IS 8 baxter end and prank frank may leave shortly for a trip to the north and east olf minnesota while elders W W cooper and S williams we are at present pre at brandon there are many of the honest in heart in this thil land but the gospel message of the latter day saints Is yet new to its inhabitants your tour brother in the cause of truth W S BAXTER conference president sell san francisco conference the san francisco conference of the Call california fornia nils mission slon of the church of jesus christ of latter day saints conven ed 13 oct 2nd and at 10 a m elder J W nixon presiding As Is usual on these theise semiannual semi annual gatherings the elders came in from their various fields of labor happy tn in the work ae ac and rejoicing in the reunion of saints and friends the meetings throughout were well attended by saints investigators and strangers among the afternoon speakers were two of the sisters laboring as missionaries aries in the state mrs E H nye and mrs B J bennett both reported themselves aa a rejoicing ta in their work and d bore faithful ul testimonies to the dignity of the tn gospel elder W E stoker president of the sacramento con conference terence addressed adre saed the I 1 meeting ig sunday evening his subject being bedus od and the nations he wd said that every advance nae made by the he christian church in the last fifty years has been a step toward mormonism after doeling on the personality of god he referred to the prophecies that showed the creator to be interested in the affairs ot of the nations and illustrated by the fate fates s of babylon tyre and jerusalem and also by the events that have and are taking place in this age monday morning the he general authorities of the church were preen prevented ted b by y elder W rollo emmett and unanimously sustained elder E H nye was presented arese prese cited as aa president of the california mission with elear W R F ommett jm mett as secretary both were unanimously sustained also elder F C platt to succeed elder J W nixon released as president of the san francisco conference with florence T rawlinson Raw binson as secretary were presented and sustained unanimously after ahia elder nye offered a few words of explanation as to the duties and callings of the officers of the church and their necessity n to the thorough working of the whole elder J W nixon was the speaker of the evening he spoke feelingly of his labors in the state of the spread of the gospel here and of the many dear friends and associations never to be forgotten he bore an earnest testimony to the truth of this latter day work urging all who did not no t have a knowledge of its i 1 ts divinity to seek it at the fountain head his subject was the authenticity of the book of mormon he proved from the bible that the coming forth of the book of mormon was only ondy prop prophecy hety fulfilled that it was the stick of ephraim that was to speak low out ot of the dust duat as one that hath a familiar voice mrs lizzle lizzie edwards of the tabernacle choir who Is visiting here rendered a vocal solo accompanied on the violin by miss ardele cummungs and on the organ by elder bider 1 Y smith FLORENCE P RAWLINSON secretary knew joseph the prophet elder charles A haacke writes in a letter to the Sev entys quorum of which hols he Is a member as fbi follows laws Waters town 8 D oct 2 1898 I 1 feel to relate a few of my experiences lm in the mission field but again I 1 feel to hesitate what could I 1 say as a new beginner of spreading the gospel e to brethren who have grown grey in the wide field before us you 11 nearly farly all know what missionary amary life la Is and what occurs and wh what wt conditions and circumstances confront the elders but old as the story may be it is always spiced with new experience having labored some eighteen months in the field to gather the pre precious elous grain I 1 have re received delved sokha knowledge that a harvester need udo ito do his masters work although it has the appearance to me that I 1 am engaged and working in |