Show K C CHAPTER IV ABY BY BOLLINGER OLLINGER K IBY By HARRY J. J HAISELDEN M. M D. D m a HI HIGH H Surgeon Tells of Hope a Waif Sound rind ind and Body Rescued From a Fate as the kopjes kopje's Ward and Her Effect Upon the Future F By k iby Y Bollinger l i er C 1915 li or y J. J Haiselden M. M D D. in the preceding chapter Dr Haiselden told of how he hethe hethe I the hospital got away from the sight of Baby Bellinger Bollinger sought Outside to help him keep his mental balance in his struggle to question of this baby's life or death Chapter h pter four today In which he tells of the continuance of his I lent nent of the strange life and death eath story of Baby Bellinger Bollinger that walk refreshed lied in a better frame of rope ope with the problem that rt lo iLme loitered th the hospital a little hit bundle came toddling ross ross the floor and fell Into with Ith a cry of Joy Hope my little adopted child of at th the hospital that heavy weight of care are careme Im me met i as I 1 played with the l had learned a new word rda and and and strange to sa say Y lL s mamma mamma is never knew mew her hera a ut iut she had learned the low The lay snuggled up in my lk pt saying over and over lemma famma amma mamma mamma Ii tier her r Abandons Babe Lher er for seventeen months born In the hospital Im- Im all 1 the nurses voted her beautiful baby they had The mother lay with her here herIe Ie e wall vail and dl did not seem stem to toen en n when a R. nurse took the theer er she would scarcely smile a a pale pate miserable nervous with a thought for none but butt t tta nurse went tp to her roomi room i tt t and found her gone She II IP out of bed dressed her- her herl herc l left c the building e er came back At first wethe we wehe the she would come back and andl l babY but weeks weeks' and then assed and we did not hear ho we all were in love rosy rosy little thing that was there A At last I made up upI to keep her We Ye called her hert t 1 was the healthiest hap- hap d I I ever had seen Hope Hopet t I be tie bethe the only fitting name names s Hope for me now as ase ase e e in the reception room of ital with the dark cloud growing blacker er er over my head on t of Two B Babes bes arms close to my breast ie te a child a. a fair normal orous r us little being And yet shatter his Earth Birth Irth the mother t ted d it had it-had had run back Into from which she had come It t ta a farthing what might her er r baby Hope we had W nd Hope she he was was hope hope I i ice Hope sparkled in the ryes yes hope shone ruddily 11 of her cheeks ks hope fly fr from in her sf sturdy ra lIm little j is Ss In laughter but oc oc- In g good od honest bawling d duller closer to me I it my ears trickled that l hine of the other child the e. e next room I 1 did not l 4 iB it t t. t for it was too softly carry so 80 far far even even through thickness of t a thinly pan- pan loor But It sounded In my uncanny canny shrillness It was wass s Bant sant nt sound my arms was one child radiant health Its life o out t before it like a sunny sunny I 1 That quick little brain is isy in the gathering of ot im- im already solving the simple o 05 child life le already e over over the early mysteries of 1 Id d grow in power and jj would guide and control meets ts of life Ufe surely andI and I j T. T s SKI a life that w was s well worth I. I tr r the beginnings of a life rl l e a sweet and beautiful beautiful- l le gj existence So much so soi i willing to devote the rest resti i 1 years ears to the launching t of f lttie craft so that It would antly on the waters of life of of Hope rang In my sliver silver music I Sn e p pf the unfinished one one-i v d t i. the death brand on its t I i l 1 the dark hour of its I 11 l red d in my ears I thinking thinking I gil There I sat for an ant an t I lope lying securely and I t II ITO I TO Lain In my arms She slept I soundly sweetly soundly sweetly Her Herme Herme me like faint music It me me It made a man of ot n with more purpose and resolve solve 61 plump little arms arms' of one led d' d ho tI about my neck Imly condemning another l to grave I was coolly de- de tilts its best cradle would be lyard plot With the pure one one child child beating in soft eJ w ves against my breast the moments when ring of ot another little one c cut cut- t. t short r F lof f Ugliness had not been been given lol name had yet it by blind un- un that t could not oits grave as it had c come comet me met t t t of f r it IL as I r sat there hold- hold close to my heart I ne childs child's name was Hope I rE lot that other child the child the Qed ned one was one was one was surely surly DeI De- De life IHfe I did not stretch awa away ke a broad broad road ma unwholesome tunnel ghastly creeping things st shit it might expect There for those whose with blackness blackness no no for for those who are cursed ess CBS and abnormality an and andt J ud t d' d that I 1 am in love with does not mean that I 1 am Jl craving only they the good ifer Ife I love its rough and andye we ye Its Us hardships Its i that challenge the we can put forth to hem Through my school keenly enthusiastically in- in athletics I 1 hungered for field where life ute and youth youth- were found in prodigal I have always loved the I like to tramp gh deep snow 1 I love to liar about my ears and I gh a a. downpour of ot rain lain L. L I like the beat of ot the torrent against my forehead And I like to amble slowly along along- some sunlit steam steam- now stepping quietly in shadow and now bursting into the great grat yellow blotches blotch's of sunlight I am am- thoroughly thorough thorough- ly in love with life wIth life with life Itse itself The Fate of Litte Hope To me me Hope meant life I could not see such Ii a life sacrificed cd as I knew it would be sacrificed If this happy little girl were wre turned astray In some great Institution for children children children chil chil- dren whose parents have died or abandoned them I 1 knew that this I abundant Jubilant lIf life would be crammed Into a hard groove It would not hav have havea a chance to develop into beauty or completeness So I 1 took Hope as my own I will always keep kep her and always love her Does that same ame instinct that compelled compelled compelled com com- me to become th e a foster- foster father of little Hope also compel meto me meto meto to devote my energy and my skill to the saving of that which can never be anything but Despair As much as I love life lite I cannot force myself to conserve wretched uncompleted of at it It A Achild Achild Achild child is the most wonderful thing in the world It is full of the promise of ot great beauty and usefulness A a fraction of a baby Is not nota a beautiful thing It is a ity It is not to be saved And then there came to me the remembrance of the old parable of the Hearken Behold there went outa out outa a to sow I And It came to pass as he sowed some fell tell by the wa wayside side and the fowls of the air came and devoured It up And some fell on stony ground where it had not much earth arth and Immediately immediately- it sprang up because It had no depth of earth But when the sun was up it was scorched and because It had no root It withered away way And some fell among thorns and the thorns grew up and choked it and it yielded no fruit And others fell on good ground and did yield fruit that sprang up and Increased and brought forth some thirty and some tome sixty and some an And he said unto them He that hath bath ears to hear let him hear The Decree of Nature And as 1 I sat there with Hope I actually seemed to hear a voice telling telling tell teU- ing me that here was seed that had fallen on stony stony- ground and that It t would be withered away by the sun And who was I to decide that this life should be saved when something vastly stronger an and greater than I with my miserable little science decreed decreed decreed de de- de- de creed otherwise I am a devout Christian From my early boyhood I have always been an earnest and sincere member of the Methodist church A profound love and respect for religion came cam to tome tome tome me from those who came before me It is an unfortunate thing that science and religion do not often go together In my life the two always have harmonized I have never gone so far with my theories theories' and my practice that I believed that I 1 was capable of going the road alone So no now now that my great grat problem had come to when be-when b be when I could no not look lookup lookup lookup up the answer in any of the books of my prof profession do you wonder that I 1 turned to another book and another creed for guidance I am not ashamed to say that In tl Is great grat hour of trial I turned to the religion Jl of ot my hit boyhood boyl d o my thY manhood manhood man man- hood and my days I 1 ac act actually actually ac- ac t V e for guidance p I took my great problem and laid l laid ld t before one In whom I had always P put Pt t my trust f Sophistries of His Profession n And suddenly I felt feU great And a a. great wave wave pave of strength surge within m me I 1 i had been distrustful I had feared lest leHt I 1 had been betrayed by the sophistries that beset men of my profession for forIn forin forin in no other prof profession do ao to perspectives become so utterly confused and confounded confounded confounded con con- founded as they do o In the e profession of medicine unless medicine unless it be in the profession profession pro pro- of ministry Mountains with us often assume the minute proportions proportions proportions of molehills and likewise molehills molehills molehills mole mole- hills many times loom before our mi microscopes microscopes mi- mi microscopes as lofty and unassailable as mountain peaks I felt as s though I had sat lon long in a close room Inhaling musty air Somewhere Somewhere Somewhere Some Some- where a window had been thrown open and fresh pure life giving air came In with a rush that made me I sure of myself I 1 knew that I 1 was right When I made little Hope my own own daughter I felt the same way A feelIng feelIng feeling feel- feel Ing of Indescribable comfort had invaded in- in in invaded my heart And now that I 1 had passed Judgment on this poor little I mistake of Nature Nature Nature-I I was suddenly aware aware that my action had been ap approved approved approved ap- ap proved by my Superior the Superior the Chief I Surgeon of them all And straight straight- straightway way I felt feU as happy as a a young In In- In terne who has Just solved his problem problem problem lem and has listened to the approvIng approving approving ing words of his lis chief My diagnosis was correct I felt exhilarated I leaped from the chair suddenly inexpressibly happy Hopes Hope's big blue eyes opened slowly slow slow- ly A smile spread slowly across the baby face The hot little arms clasped I me tighter She kissed me Then at last I 1 knew that in de deciding deciding deciding de- de to let the life o of Baby Bollinger Bollinger Bollinger Bol Bol- linger end itself naturally I 1 was do doing doing doing do- do ing the right thing Then Hope and I 1 had a merry little lit lit- little little lit lit- tle romp Two of her friends friends- mothers they thy call themselves themselves- nurses in white gowns and white whitecaps whitecaps whitecaps caps came running in and claimed h her Youve had her ter for a a. whole hour they cried reproachfully Do you jou OU want to keep her forever Im Fm to keep her forever going I told them But they could not be denied They lugged her away between them screaming lustily and kicking out right and left with her fat little legs Consultation with Hope What a consultation I have sat in inmany inmany inmany many of them And I have come away unsatisfied unsatisfied unsatisfied-my my br brain n still worried over oyer this problem or that But here after a consultation of an hour with a child that slept almost every moment of the time I had solved the greatest problem of my I Ilife life life- It was one of the greatest greate t problems problems I lems ms that have perplexed the world I I It was s a a. riddle believed impossible to solve l And yet now it was completely un un- un- un raveled I was sure of myself Hope would live because because- life had been given to her completely She had the full capacity for the enjoyment enjoyment enjoyment enjoy enjoy- ment of the blessing of life Ufe Despair the Despair the other tot with Phom m my life was Joined In intense sorrow would sorrow would die The same power that gave life to the one was withholding withholding with with- holding it from the other It was Natures Nature's way Nature had been successful in one case And I had hal helped her I t would always help her In the other case Nature had erred erred abominably abominably And And- now Nature Nature Na Na- ture was striving to redeem herself And In this case also I would help her I 1 would help her to my utmost power And that power lay not inthe In Inthe inthe the cunning of my hand but In the solemn Judgment of my heart By permitting Death to come unchallenged unchallenged un un- challenged I would perform my lifes life's great deed Do Donot not fail faU to read Chapter V. 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