Show y f f I 1 th V real V 0 0 AdYe iture I 1 0 f roul r cd 0 0 0 0 A NOVEL cv E 0 0 il 1 1 0 0 0 0 0 by 0 henry Henryl Kl Itchell Weli webster I 1 0 1 1 ia iness mi IM ito boam CHAPTER XIV continual 10 you wont eyou L alvo ma the poor satisfaction Af Imen of knowling what youre idol idolat awl ho he sold rd id lw lovo loveto veto to she aha said to bo be ablo able to lurito to you bear froin you everyday every day but ut I 1 dont belleve you wout want to know ll 11 aln it would bo too hard bard ford for you iBe emus causa a have to promise not to io it try ry to ket get me back not to come and me if I 1 got into trouble and things pino went badly and 1 I know where to turn could you that iedy no ne gave a groan and burled buried his face in flu his ban honda then no ho said furiously of course al 2 co ulf see suffering and stand by with my hands la in my pockets land watch I 1 ho he spring sprang up and seized her er by the arms anas in a grip that actually t left bruises and fairly shook her in the ashay y of 0 ills hla entreaty tell irell me itis a A rose arose he said tell arelt me ine it true wake me up out of it it but tinder the indomitable resolution of her blue eyes he turned away this was the last appeal of that sort that he be made til promise sho suld bald presently to be sensible not to td take any risks I 1 lont dont have te to take rii ill regard m my y life and my health and au all as something tm keeping in trust trus tor for you ill take plenty of warm sensible clothes when I 1 go lots of shoes and stockings things like that and if let me TU borrow a hundred dollars to start myself off with it a tragedy hoddy not that part of it you be afraid tor anyone else as big and strong and healthy as 1 I 11 gradually out of a welter of scenes like that the thing got itself recognized as something that was to happen but bui the parting came at last in a little different way from any they had bad foreseen S rodney came home from his office early arly one afternoon with a telegram that summoned him to new york to a conference of counsel in a big public utility case he had been working on for months he must leave it he were going at all at five he ransacked sack edthe the house vainly at for mose hose and found her ber at last in the trunk room dusty disheveled sobbing quietly over something she hugged in her arms but she dried her eyes and came over to him and asked him what it was as that had bad brought him home so early he showed her the telegram ill have to leave in an hour he said ivam to go she paled at that and sat down giddily on the trunk you must go she said of course and i roddy I 1 guess be the easiest yay way ill get my telegram tonight pretend to get it from portia and you can give eve me the hundred dollars I 1 and then when you come back ill be gone the thing she had been holding in her hands slipped t ta the floor ile he sio stooped aped and picked it up stared at it with a tort sort of half wakened recognition 1 if I t found it she explained among s some om eold 0 old things portia sent over when she moved do you know what it Is its one of the notebooks that got wet that first night when we were put off the street car and roddy look I 1 she opened it to an almost almost blank k page and with a weak little laugh pointed to the tiling thing that hint was written there march 15 your blA birthday fiday you se see and the day roe me met pach each other t and then the down below 1 the only note she had made during the thel whole of that lecture he read never marry a man with a passion 1 for principles the trouble with us you see she said if you were mere justan just an ordinary man without any big passions or anything it ft matter much it if your life got spoiled but with us cousee yo you see weve gotto got cotry to try for the biggest thing there Is oh roddy roddy darling 1 hold me tight for just a minute and then ill come and help you you sa pack t ek 11 CHAP ekr XV the world alone heres the first wae weeks ks rent then said rose roke handing the landlady thre dollars und and I 1 think better give me ine a receipt showing tilt till when its paid for the landlady had tight gray hair hidir and a hard bitten hatchet face she had no charms ore would have said of person mind or manner manner but it was nevertheless true abott rose was renting this room largely ot on the i strength of the landlady she was so much more humanly possible than any of the 0 others at whose placarded pla bla carded doors rose had knocked or rung I 1 the landlady went away to write out a receipt rose closed the door after her and locked it she paid particularly want to keep anybody out but tn in a sense in which it bad been quite tr true ue before i r fi ROSE ALDRICH LEAVES HER HUSBAND AND THE TWINS AND GOES FORTH INTO THE UNKNOWN WORLD TO MAKE A LIVING AND LEARN LIFES VALUES rose HOBO stanton Bt anton it a young wom woman an living in modest cir curn stances mardes wealthy rodney aldrich and tor for more than chawa a year lives in luxury find laziness this life disgusts her She plans to do something useful but eels thai lint the ilia profession of motherhood Is big enough for any woman hud looks forward eagerly to the birth afler of her baby sho has ewins however and their care Is taken entirely out of her hands bands by a professional burse nurse intense dissatisfaction with tho the useless life of luxury returns to rose ilose she determines to go out end and earn hor her living to 0 in make ake good on her own hook she ancher and her doting husband have somo some bitter scenes over the cifes whim 11 what sho BOOS goos and does Is described d in this installment this washer waa her room abroom where anyone locking lacking her specific invitation to enter would bo be an intruder a condition which had not obtained either in her mothers house or in she smiled widely over the absurdity of indulging in a pleasurable feeling of possession poss eslon in laa a squalid little cubbyhole cubby hole like this the wall paper was waa stained and faded there was an iron bed the mattress anthe on the bed was lumpy th there ere was a dingy looking oak bureau with a small mirror a marble topped iop ped black blacka walnut washstand and a pitcher standing in a bowl on top of it astor asfor the hurrying life Ilfe she looked out upon from her grimy window the difference between it and that which she had been wont to contemplate through florence McC macreas Mc exquisitely leaded casements was simply planetary ar Y I 1 and yet queerly enough la in terms of literal lineal measurement the distance between the windows themselves was less than a thousand yards and such la Is the enormous social and spiritual distance between north dark clark street and the drive she was ns as safely hidden here as completely out of the orbit of any of her friends or even of her friends servants as she could have been in new york or san francisco of course wherever she went whatever she did always bo be the risk that someone who could carry back news to friends would recognize her it was a risk that had to be taken at the same time shed protect the secret its as well as she could there were werd two people though it be kept from portia and her mother the story given out to friends being that rose was in california with her mother and portia left the chance always open for some contretemps which would lead to her mot mothers herts discovering the truth in a surprising and shocking way but the truth itself confidently stated not as a tragic ending but ais as the splendid hopeful beginning of a life of truer happiness for roseand rose and her husband bea shock so tills this was what rose had borne down upon her in her letter to fo portia I 1 X have found the big thing be hath had without a fight she wrote you be surprised because youve probably found out for yourself that n nothing th worth having comes very easily but youre not to worry about me nor bo be afraid for or rne me because im going to win im making the fight somehow tor for you as well as tor for myself I 1 want you to h know that I 1 think that realizing I 1 was living your life as well as mine Is what has haa given me the courage to start ive got some plans but im not mot going to tell you what they are aie but ill write to you every week neek and tell you what ive done aone and I 1 want you to write to rodney I 1 want ant to be sure that you lou understand understand this rodney to blame for hap happened ened we quarreled and I 1 believe were farther in love with each other than weve ever been before I 1 know I 1 am with him break this thins thing to mother as gently as you like but tell her every everything thAng be before fore you stop this letter written and dispatched dispa c e she had worked out the details of her departure with a good deal of care in her own house before the sor servants she had tried to net act just as she would have havet idone done had lier her pretended telegram really come comb from portia her bag was packed her trunk was as gone her motor waiting at the door to take her to the station when the maid maia doris bi ought brought the twins home from their airing this chance but prearrangement give them to me rose rosewald sald and then you way may go up and tell mrs ruston she may have them in a few minutes she took them into her bedroom and laid them hem side by side on her bed they had bad thriven finely justified so eo far as that went Hari harriets lets decision in favor of bottle feeding had she died bac back k there in that bed of pain never come out of the ether at all i still be just like this plump placid methodical rose had thought of that a hundred times but it what she was thinking of now the thing ilist that caught her as she was looking down on them vas as a wave of sudden pity she saw them as persons person with thelong the long road nil all ahead of them as a boy and a girl a youth and A a maid a man mah and a woman shed thought of efthem teem like that before the baby she bad looked forward to the baby she had fiad had never been thought of that that way TRY either it wits was to be something to provide tier her rose with an occupation to make on an alchemic change in the very substance of herline her life the transmute 1 tion taken place she surmised sed now dimly that she ift deserved it should youve never had a mother at all you poor little mites slie she said but youre going to have one some day youre going tobe to be able to come to her with your troubles because shell have had troubles herself shell help you bear your hurts because ashes hid hurts of her own and shell sheli be able to teach you to stand the gaff because abbs stood it herb belf elf vor for the first time since they were born she was thinking of their need of her rather than of her needom need of them and with voth that thought came fo for r the first time the surge of passionate maternal love that she had waited for so BO long in vain there was suddenly an intolerable ache in her breast th thai A could only have been satisfied by crushing them up against her breast L kissing iss their hands their feet rose stood there quivering giddy with the force of it oh you yon dar I 1 she said but walt wait baio wait un all alm U deserve it I 1 and without touch ing them at nil all she went to the door 1 and opened it mi mrs mis s ruston an and dDoris doris were both Nv waiting Alting inthe in the hall 1 I must go now she said goodby good by keep them carefully for me ner iier voice was steady and though her eyes y ere bright there was no trace of df tears upon her cheeks but there was vas a kind of glory shining in her face that was too much for doris who turned away and sobbed loudy even mrs custons Ruston Rus tons eyes were xit wet goodby good by said rose again and we went rit down dowd composedly enough to her a car she rode down to the ahe station shook hands with otto the chauffeur allowed a porter to carry her bag into the waiting room there she tipped the lie porter picked up the bag herself hersel ft and walked out the other door crossed over to dark clark street and took a street car at chicago avenue she got off and walked north keeping her eyes open for placards advertising rooms to let it was at the end of about half a mile that she found the hatchet faced landlady paid her three dollars and locked her door asa as a symbol perhaps of the bigger heavier door that she had locked upon her past life strongest among all the welter ot of emotions boiling up within her was a perfectly enormous ou relief the thing which when she had first faced it as the only thoroughfare to the real life she so passionately wanted had seemed such a veritable nightmare was on an accomplished fact the week of acute agony she had lived through while she was forcing her sudden res les upon rodney had been all but he was Counting Aloud the bars of the music unendurable with alth the enforced contemplation temp lation of the moment of parting which they brought so relentlessly nearer there had been a terror too lest when the moment actually came she do it well and now it had biad come and gone gonel I 1 the surgery of the thing was over rose dusted the mirror with a towel a reckless act as she saw fur for herself when she discovered she was going to have to use that towel for a yeek wiek and took an appraising look at herself then she nodded confidently there was nothing the matter with her looks and resumed liar her ulster iier her i rt rubbers ibbers and he her r umbrella for it was vas tha kind of december day which called for all three then glowingly conscious that she wasi was sa saving vinga a nickel by so doing she set off downtown afoot to get a job sho she meant to got it that very afternoon and partly because she meant io so very ery definitely she did on the last sunday before rose went anway she had bad studied the dramatic section of the morning paper with a good deal of care and wits was rewarded by finding among the news notes on an item ref referring eIng to a new musical comedy which was wasa to tb be produced at the globe theater immediately after the christmas holidays the girl upstairs up stairs was the title of it it ta v i K r was spoken enof of as one of oc the regular i globe prod chions jimmy wallaces w blaces experience with the production afan earlier number inthe merles would at least give her something togo to go by granted thil that ashe she was goings to be a chorus a while she could hardly find a better place thau than one of the globe productions productIon st to q tie be a chorus girl in according accordi to jimmy etwas was a decent d e enough little place and yet it posse possessed sied the advantage of being spiritually as well as actually west of dark clark street Rod neyA friends were less likely to go there and so BO have a chance of recognizing her than to any other theater in the city the news item in the paper told her that the production was la in rehearsal and nd it mentioned the name of the director john galbralth galbraith referring to him as one of the three most prominent musical comedy directors in the country when she asked at the box bos office at the the globo globe theater where they were rehearsing lic the girl upstairs up stairs today tile the nicely manicured young man inside answered automatically north end hall im afraid said rose smiling a little ril ill have to ask where north end hall bull Is not at all said the young man idiotically and he told her the address only a block or two from roses room CHAPTER XVI tho the first day with her umbrella over her shoulder rose set sail northward again through the rain absurdly cheered the entrance to the north end hall was a pair of white painted doors opening from the street level upon the foot of a stair which took you up rather suddenly at the head of the stairway tilted back in a kitchen chair beneath it a single gas jet whose light lie he was trying to make suffice for the p 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