Show I iJIK DISK IS DUNG GREAT ITALIAN ACTRESS AT CURTAINFALL lice Mriuolri An Already I In llu Edl Inrs handA TrnlMlon I f the llrl lhi > trr < ltrn Ki n llntnc or rrtpnndrnt y UHK IB DYING her lheatricl lroup I dlnbanded IQ the other day nail Ito star toahl r to be tf t net recovery Like 11 1 her great contemporary contem-porary Tomaiio Hilvlnl she linn a rlllm her morn ji Itn 1 ulrii but unllk Ihoc of the hero of he Inglt mum her remlnliceiiees lack dlrpctnei selfpu ieeiilon stamina Thy are lion ever an excellent mirror of Iritoe trails and whim Signora Matilda Herrio Italy a greatest great-est woman writer will publish loosen memoir whlih came tu her In the shape of letlera written t > y the great nrllil The ulRiiora tell a Homo cor reipondent llmt she hu pre erved the identity of the lettera throughout her dutlea in the editor iii < says conilit principally In a methodical arrangement arrange-ment of the material placed at her ills I ial here follow the opening chapter of the memoirs exactly aa Duie wrote II Itcmlnlicenci No I dont want to remember I urn what 111m what I have been U pail Ah It I could forget my dlaappolntments m > struggles my nlianementu No I must not rowel tM battle I fought nol thpie but everything every-thing elii 1 > ever thing 8IIII can It M done Time and attain our thought travel 1 lurk to thing snit event that hand Ono cannot help remember Inn what liai at one period In lIfo torn our heart made It bleed amt tremble 7 J M jt r ra rirANOii niHi mmle It cower and suffer ne cannot eicap4 the thoughts nf what has been and does exlit In tplte of us Tiny are like mildew on the leaves of our mental diary And then come men and women people you have never seen Mrangers for whom you care not and who do not care for you to Inquire who you are and what you are what you feel what you think They want to know all about your pant And when you refine to re pilve them when you do not answer their iiueitloni they call you grout full of pretcn Ions arrogant ArroRint and why Ileinuie you will not Pelt them whit you are afraid to tell jour elf what frighten you what you mean tu keep a secret from your own lienrl Int of my life There ore many 01 them but what look to mo on event nn occurrence that perlmpi forced upon up-on me Urn part I am pla > lnK In tic world the markstonva In my life In short to another they may alIr Half ana empty and unprofitable accident Yen I have had many experience IM many but they were not experiences In the nine which I thus eniatlonhunitnr I I mob alone recoRnliei they are more like trials trial that have coat manr tears and the remembrance of which make merry cry cry every lime when I play Idla dl Mornno In the drama Visitor at the Wedding I feel then III If my soul wan ready to RO out In tine greet sob II was tn years alto 10 Itin The yellow finer went from house to house from palace to hut lathering In vlctlms We play actors played One day at rehearsal Dlolll appeared with the pillar of death on hl brow tired hardly able to stand on his feet What atla Ihee For c to1e sake Ml Nothing strange feeling my head la I not rlgf but come let ua make a atari And ho did begin I aaw he waa not himself I saw him tremble na If shaken shak-en by lnten e cold 1 Io not attempt the Imposilble I aid I am going to close the theater And thy fortune he made answer all thy fortune la I at lake I will bo better tonlirhti let ua proceed with re hearaal Suddenly In the mldt of an exciting situation he broke down It vas the fever The fever that never lets up on a being marked for destruction What were no to 101 We had ta play became be-came ne were under contract we ha Ito I-to play because a Rood many tickets had been old we had to play because 1 I the IIhlo klan Imprenapo wanted his pound of lleah we had to play while he was lying alone deserted righting the battle of death On the flrat evening Ieolora The house aa slated sold nut and Ia failure fail-ure In all that the word Impllea The theater great Immense atructure 1 li ielt mail Inalgnincant a heron of no conie < iurnce My voice Rreat nod how should my voice penetrate Into the parterre I believe I might ni nell hate ald Iorl I love Utre than Lorls lento moliobod woull halo known III difference Add to hula that there ItI I wa a continuous whllierlng and tour murlne In all parts of the house In tin hone In the gallcrlm erryu here all the time from the beginning up to the curlalna fall My heart my head mr volceIho seemed not to belong to meat me-at all I had no power over tllhcr I was thinking of him all the time of him alone At last the performance close I ran home and In the darkness of my pm threw m1t on the lloor I had nivut tilt ao lonely before Next day Intermliilon We played only three times In the week Tin newspapers give their final declalon They said I had a certain something about me that attracted attention but my voice Well half of that I have aald they could not hear and the other halt they were unablo to understand 1 Th full wing day 10 had cur Her nd P rf nance Denise The thmur lhet Immense barn empty Only three or lour r > WI of seats were taken and to the right and left two nr three time My l > oir l > nl e an simple ao devoid of all eniiatlonat element no toilettes to Wax sf no Jwrlnthe audience Hi tri to her during the Drat act they IIJ her nome attention In the en1 arl IOn in the third act I had a crying veae and I cried real tar and the audience crlel with me Mine was vie tory hub the kettle was not entirely woo yn for the pirt of Iernando wa estayed by anither he who had been mr fernandn wu atlll battling with death And the thought of him of the patient aufferer would never ceane to ailttle me that evening II Mood between be-tween h10 and Ike part I WaR trying 10 l Iar lie subways was before me cold Pllll shaking his features dlrtortd sod Mi epee glassy In vain did I endeavor en-deavor to throw off this feeling In vain IU I area with rnyaelf that art de nun W from Its followers the ssrriflee of irlf negation I could not t > e other nil lie was attvaa before methat looor l man that coal man who never hirmM anybody In the world He WAR to die Hmll atrangera while we hits friends llaod coined Comedy Indeed la there anything more tragic than life And there b tore those damned thone Rorbousthinee I blniM foolllghta t prayed O Madonna 1 Ma-donna cave my friend Rev him for hi hn a father and a mother whose only hope In life he li I Hive him and take me In hli sled 11 me die let mi lose everythlnRmy renown my talents my future but save him Two days later and all was at an end An wi continued playing comedy Aa for myself I heaped aucceaa upon success and every triumph I earned Increased my sorrow made me more wretched Why had heaven refused the offering of my poor nItT On the evening of IMntlla dealb day I played Pernande And then nnd l them I became what I am Then and there I felt for the tint time that I had a heart that I had soul and Wool In that heart Then and there 1 learned that life la I not base only sorrowful and hard to heir This I Ml Io you rail It an event I don know whether It li I Important enough 10 be an ctiixd by others Aa for melt me-lt was the markitone of my life A lift In a life |