Show KATHLEEN NORRIS Saddest Thina of All MYSELF HAVE RUINED L my I have nothing writes Kathryn from don't want blame from I want Nobody can blame me more than I blame But life hasn't been fair to just the and many a woman does what I and never pays at am and the mother of two lovely and My one night and is to regain some share in their I don't want I want a few days of my loved children's company every or a few weeks every When Lettice was born I almost lost my when Jackie was 2 my nursing brought him through Don't these things count at is the the letter goes years ago for the boy's convalescence I moved to a little mountain cabin in a colony of unusual professional My husband Joined us week but in that time he became infatuated with one of the nurses in the and asked me for a I and remained at the while he closed the city house and moved to the seven months I did not see and In that time I met a painter whose cabin was near my I suppose I was tired after long anxious care of and deeply hurt by my husband's but also I fell deeply in Before I knew it I was leading a double devoting myself in the daytimes to my children and maintaining a My out thought neighborly friendship with Jeffs but wrapped in all the thrill of a love The secrecy added much to for and I was simple enough to imagine it might remain a Jeffs wife was a much older woman than a north and unsympathetic in every Humiliation that is about Someone gave John a hint of what was going and he had me Nothing was spared me in humiliation and John got his divorce and got his the day of his divorce ho was to Ids I knew everyone knew what their relationship had been for but there was no scandal and no She has my wife died immediately afterward of an overdose of sleeping Suicide was not but my name was mentioned in her Jeff was to forfeit a considerable legacy if he married and was t take their son to Europe to up her So for me nobody stood it then I went and was handed ever te a He naturally didn't tell me anything I didn't but he did prescribe I got a have been promoted and sent hers sv to be head of a I will not marry but I must have my Their little wistful faces haunt me day and They need and I need Is It grandmother will not let me see their father returns my letters I have a home for them a back yard with oaks and fruit And I am a different woman from the one who made those inexcusable But are they really Can you give me any of course I And I won't talk blame and sin and for your own heart has drunk deep of them alL Part of the cure I suggest is Time has a strange way of shifting things people circumstances John's wife may not always want the care of two restless small persons who are not her John's mother will go her way and loosen her hold upon Fill your days with work and friends and service service to service in a or for the or In any of the Red Cross The other half of the cure lies in the words of an old spoken thousands of years is said Your character has worked an unhappy so But if you use every day of the next and the year beyond to make yourself a better a stronger an all-around developed you won't have to struggle for your heart's |