Show KATHLEEN NORRIS Remorse Is Expensive Luxury AM A I have done the thing that Is unforgivable In a No words can paint the shame and self-contempt I or what I am suffering with If tearing myself to pieces would wipe out the events of the past two I would gladly tear myself to This Is a quotation from a letter that lies here on my The writer signs only Therefore she must expect this open and I am glad to make because her situation Is not an entirely unusual and other women still safe within the bounds of honor and self-respect-may profit by It In affair was all the more the letter goes our families were old my husband and his wife sharing a daily coming and going with without ever suspecting that we had many secret On two occasions we were away from home for a few nights without causing Fred claiming I supposedly with my came his long due to when I shared with his wife some of the sickroom At this time my eyes opened suddenly to the truth that he is an ordinary man with no unusual and also to the horror of my own Since his convalescence we have made no allusion to our and have avoided ever being Knows No Peace was almost a year Since that time I may truly say I have never had one moment's peace of mind or The shame and self-contempt that I feel awaken me at and are with me all Fred has one a boy of I have three beautiful mon closely united The thought that I may have someday to reveal to them will change their whole attitude toward life drives me nearly as our girls grow my husband and I grow more closely My feeling for him is now one of We plan together we make the little trips we always hoped to That I ever compared him disparagingly to another and betrayed his is an unbearable The urge to fling myself upon my husband's charity is so that I find myself walking he floor in a nervous to control But that would mean that we lose our oldest that my girls suffer a part of my and possibly the misery of a have spent hours on my I beg you to take this to God before you assume the responsibility of answering At have I destroyed all chance of happiness in my of you Is my And this urge to confess is Just one last little flick of the one last chance to relish the whole thing over One More Thrill You were and you chose a very ugly way to indulge that hunger that marks the end of The hunger for just one more grand sex that comes to a woman somewhere in the a delight in finding herself desirable still capable of love stolen Intoxicating That of course Is the base of all these pitiful love flattery Is what stirs the flattery fills the eloquent little flattery breathes through every whisper and every And how the neighbor's wife loves after the quiet duty and routine of her housekeeping To my disturbed correspondent I there are many other Infidelities in marriage beside the actual physical Put this mistake behind you once and for Never dream of disturbing the four contented lives so close to your own with the exhibitionism of a It would be pleasant to you to let them know that you won her but not It wouldn't The age of your neighbor's that ol her husband and your husband's your young daughters' faith and love would be too wholesale a There'd be no way out for anyone and the young persons would be scarred for So your only course is the heroic one of living from now on entirely for Devote yourself to your the the the the sick the neglected children down the the nearest hospital |