Show E A L W U T TRE Z L I 1 I 1 by y DAVID AVID PA in mil A auler el I 1 IT the he cast t C the denge g e etc led continued from frodi last week CHAPTER A letter flom the dead I 1 was vas living alone at the willard ilard soon alter after the death of nui banKs wife his sister and brother in law the Gra gracias cies hall had come with their three children to live hh lint him and to acol a after his bo boy y and aad gail trouble be 1 trecil his family and mane originating in some of the lie oldest grade gracie girl spread from tile the children to the lie grown people until when lie went into the white house lie and I 1 were the hie only two on speaking heinis I 1 see now that this situ situation atlon had laige inn rence on me in ili holding aloof and wailing g always for over turps aiom him at the time lime I 1 thought as no doubt lie ho thought also that the quail 01 was bi beneath the he notice ot of at any in late my family decided not to come to washington inston during his first winter ter in ili tho iho white house I 1 lived alone at the willard one toward the end of 0 fell february auary I 1 ie turned bioni the senite senate a and n I 1 i cot comand wood Woodin iliff ft und bad irl in hiis his face tor for I 1 assumed it was sonic some political tangle your our wife was taken very ery ill very suddenly he said his 1114 eyes told iii me e the rest it I 1 had ever asked myself how this news would affect me I 1 have hae answered ed eliat it would give me a sensation T of lefief gut but instead ol of relief I 1 felt lift StU stunning blow a a wave or r sorrow which has hag never w boily rs ceded not because I 1 loved her that 1 nei sever er did not because she was the otier of my children my likes and dis dials ls are and personal onal not lecause she was my wife eifle that bond aad been galling not because I 1 was fond of her ber slie she was one of those cold angry natures that foisia affection faction no I 1 was overwhelmed be causo she and I 1 hall had been int intimates linares with v etli all the closest interests of life fire in common with the world c even ten my children whom I 1 loved passionately siona tely outside that circle which late fate had drawn wound us its two I 1 im in this ibis is not uncommon among married people this brcak in their routine of association cheb one departs de no doubt it often passes with tile the tor for love belatedly discovered she did not suller said bald woodruff gently it was healt disease she I 1 had just come in bioni a ilde ikle wit with your oldest daughter they wele I 1 est ing and talking in high spirits by the library lire firl and then the he end came like putting put the light heart disease often I 1 bad noted the hingular hie gular n beat of her heart beart a throb a long pause a flut flutter tier a short pause a arid and I 1 could remember that more than once the sound had bad lan follow cd by the hodory appearance pe arance in ili he door of rny gaind of one of 0 those black thoughts which try to tempt hope but only make it hide in shaine bhame and bicad now the memory of those occasions tormented tile me mill lulo accusing myself of having haing wished ile her gone but it was not fo 0 o she had told me sh she had heart trouble flebut but she had con confided elded to no one that she knew it might in ight tiring bring on the end at any moment she left a let sealed and addressed addi essed to me IIa ivey I 1 shall never h the coinage to 0 o tell ou yet I 1 re fe I 1 I 1 i ought to know I 1 think ciery one i I 1 i autes to eiery one ele less di s than lie possesses I 1 know sou jou have not given me ill alie be cicala of seeing that on oil lid did not loc i me anil and you were nvere so kind and considerate ait and so 0 o patient with my 1 moods dods flint no doubt I 1 shoula liae baie been lec t deceived Elved had I 1 not nol known what love Is I 1 th to have loved and to ha leaie c been inki 10 ed ikc t c lopi dpn in n a bonan a bolt be t of sixth to lue and that h had id been developed dei eloped in ill nie me and when it neer responded to your efforts to decele we ne I 1 knew you did not net love me ma well neither do did I 1 love y you i though I 1 ws was able to tilde hide it fici ou nu and it has often liri tile me ilist you yon were so un olievan ObI evan you tou kno ehnow v now llie lie cause of many ot of my difficult mood have hane seemed causeless I 1 ad admired ailred jou iou aiom tile llie lust tian time e we diet let I 1 liked aou ou I 1 have been proud of ion 1 I mould not haie hac been llie wife ife of any other ot 1 ier man in ili the world I 1 nan 1 III not liae bad elny any other fattier tor for n ay iy gildren but I 1 have lirt on loving the lle man mail I 1 loved beffie I 1 met ion oil why I 1 dont know I 1 despised dc soled bani for ins his mcarce weaknesses ses I 1 should never lipe bane lip e hauled mauled hiril thou ii mother and id ed both feared I 1 would I 1 think I 1 loved him because I 1 linew hiew lie loved me that is be the v way ay it Is s with 1 1 wrner Avrin po tacy tt CY isel J NOW doin lie love loe independently man like LB love WO like to lo be loved and unworthy creathie careatti crea tuie e lawt ile 11 ws still mill lie would luie imia died for tile aloir llo ir guj goa lipid dented hini him the E to lo live for in ili hut allu t nil all that lint got gol gaye gave hini bic power to love he save aye me and io fco he be WAS different in my elies ees from what lie was I 1 in a any ll 11 loved ones else in ili the wot id ant and I 1 loved bi I 1 dont tell you tills lids because I 1 feel legret or remorse I 1 dont there never was a wife ire truer than 1 f for a r I 1 p put ut hini him completely boint lethly aside I 1 yoi yoa because I 1 want you to lo remember me ine right after im gone letney heney tear deir you may i 1 a y remember LOW I 1 was silly pilly and jet jealous 1 ous ot of you and think I 1 ani am nil mistaken staken about my own oin fee feelings lingg kat but jealousy mean ioe when lian peoria poor ie leally love I 1 think to ili c 3 fc idoni idom that jealous what makes maies people jealous usually is suspecting the llie other of haan lial nf the llie sune sime toil 0 oc they have themselves it hurt my M y anity that sou love nie me and it stung me to think you yoa caled chiei 1 for one else just as I 1 lid did I 1 want nant soil to ie member me gently kell tol and somehow I 1 think that after aro 11 youve vol riad nad this llila you will even it if you did id luve love sope one else it if yoi ever isee bee tills this at all harvey and I 1 may inay tear it up tip sone fume so ne day on impulse but bit if sou ever eer do zee see it I 1 friall be dead and we nye shall both be freand frend nd I 1 want w alit sou ou tu to tome to me and loo ioos at it me nd it ended thus abruptly no doubt she hall had intended to open the enne lope ope tind rind finish it but what more was a t there to say I 1 think she must have been content nith the thoughts that verc in my mind as I 1 looked down at her I 1 bins ing in deaths inscrutable calai calpi I 1 had one ot of my hunt oit the man she hall had iohd a sad stranded wreck of a man lie he had become be conie but since that oay day lie he lias has been shattered shAt ered at least from fiort tile the wort worst wor t of it the to which his incapacity for life exposed him there was a a time when I 1 despised then I 1 pitied them but latterly latac latt eily ily I 1 have felt for them the sym latlip tic sense ot of brotherhood ale aie we not all incapable differing only in ill degree gree and how slightly there if we e look 1001 at ourselves wilhoit wi hoit vanity mile ike practice sketches put upon lipon tile the slate by natures learned land hand and anon sponged ed jiwat |