Show girl tries to commit suicide geisha driven to it by monotony of life girl says she want to die now but may later if she Is I 1 seized with another melancholy pit FIL boklo Tok foA A sensation was created in tomo by the recent attempt at suicide of one of the most famous of the Shim basht geisha who are in their turn the mot famous of all the thousands sandhof of geishas in tokeo them the first reports stated that the unfortunate lady had boon been driven to her death by mountains ot of debt contracted aalthe aa the result of a passionate attachment tu a certain popular actor the tha boklo asahl indeed con alfered the matter of such importance that after the recovery vOry of the would be tho the editor induced her ber to write tho the history of the incident and her own feelings during the attempt for the benefit of tta its readers here it IB the mere idea ot of a debt of 1000 or 2000 yen yea could never drive mo me to suicide I 1 am subject to fits of melancholy and when inthe grip of one of these r want to got get out of at the world why simply ply and solely because I 1 am tired ot of life ua its monotony and quietness A geishas life contains no excitement it la Is always alwain the he bame day in add day out sell drink rats eats ca acri mice dos watch and nen aen have their constant varying selfish 11 pastimes and occupations but tho the geisha has nothing to do but continue always in the same tiresome groove dancing and singing singing and dancing I 1 thought if I 1 died that I 1 might one day bo be reborn in the shape of one ut those creatures men mice or dogs therefore I 1 resolved to die 1 I finished the bottle in one wild gulp then the pala pain began tn in my chest cheat and at once the utter stupidity and madness of my wish to die cams came upon me all wish of dying vanished I 1 coughed and coughed and here I 1 am quite well again it I 1 get another fit of nt melancholy I 1 may want to die again and I 1 may commit suicide at any am time but I 1 dont want to at present but in raise cane I 1 always carry my will wilf about with roe me in n my dress |