Show A BOSTON ROMANCE I 1 was vena 18 ito was ton ten years my illy senior jio ila was wag my first lover and I 1 wnm convinced that no girt girl over ever lidil had one so dov devoted otell atud und hind so noble and high minded nuil and withal possess cil of such business capacity this last was indeed lit in the eyes of my lily mother blau qua non without it tho ilia other qualities combined would have been utterly worthless ila ho was owner of in ail ample amplo fortune which lio lie had inbe inherited A lut but it was well invested and tho ilia allowed to accumulate so that ono day III he inight bo be it gentle gentleman nitin of leisure ho was employed nt at a salary of a year preferring that to being in fit business on oil liis own account ila ho had traveled exten and appeared lit in many ways waya amici older than ills his years in ill conversation I 1 lava never met ilia iila superior seldom tits hia equal wo avic introduced ono one clay dabin lit august on oil tho the beach and for tho the boxt two weeks wo we walked on oil tile beach wo drove dro 0 on oil tho the botich wo ant on tho the beach wa watching telling tile tho flowing tida conio coille in wo blood on oil tile beach looking at tile tho mean shining with nil all lice her might on oil tile tho quivering waves find and then wo plighted our troth on tho ilia beach and left it an ail en couple llo ile had I 1 soon boon found a masterful way that caused ono to u carry out his suggestions in instinctively overlaid ild however with grent great gentleness of manner nud a persuasiveness not to bo be resisted tho the gloves we acie z 0 so soft that the iron iran land hand was suc caf scully hidden even from those far more experienced and keen heen of perception than Illy self it via W is new for 1110 2110 to bo be thus controlled all ail only child I 1 had blid possessed ill alio enack of making tile tho household bowl bend to my illy will over since I 1 could remember jile niber but lit I 1 had met my illy match in III jet anio crocker cracker the middle ot of september camo at this time my mother and I 1 had usually left tile for beautiful lenox where we 0 o found tile social phero congenial t us its but tills this yeav my lily jerome required in ill presence in tile alio city lie ile wits longing for my oclay Ocl ty wy ft could tako take long driver in tho the suburbs suburb sin in the into walks lit in tile tho evening even ingIn liti shoat wo could bo be t to a gether which was tile tho proper thing for the betrothed couple to my tind and shall I 1 confes it UP li a little which I 1 did not understand tanu iny illy mother agreed biti him nud and to town wo return returned va I 1 found now that I 1 ani taken lit in land hand with it 11 vengeance jerome monopolized nearly all of my lily time ho planned luy IDY employ fur for tho the day by byi mapping nappIng out lit in black and whito white tho ilia manner tit in which lie expect od ed mo ina to puss passi tho hours when he ha could not bo be with too mo ila ho informed no ino that I 1 iana ans not methodical in my lily pursuits which was true enough I 1 thought with it i sigh hid 1114 intention oll was evidently to my illy habits tastes nna temperament also it if that were possible beginning with piano music lie laid down tile tho rulo rule that I 1 must practice four hours each day without fall no moro more no lin less just that ila ho prescribed two hours houra for five finger exercises anti tile tho remaining two on oil ono one of 1110 hobt A difficult sonata which lio 10 had focused and which ho wished mo ilia to ellab a a special study now I 1 had loon in the habit of practicing whon when and how I 1 hiked and though I 1 had for three years or moro with ono or of tho 1110 most competent instructors my lily playing j judged train from on an artistic standpoint was careless and slipshod but having groat grant musical intelligence I 1 was enabled easily to master difficulties of execution ana and it was necessary forino for only to apply masolf to steady and conscientious practice to attitio a fair degree of excellence in the ni mechanical part of tile tho art at least my reading was next taken in ill iland hand on being catechised catechi sed it was found that tant I 1 was woefully ignorant in regard to most of tile tho standard writers carlyle Car lylo no ko I 1 and never rea road dinsen a son of tant virile mattO old worthy accordingly a 00 boso doso oo of tho the french revolution was nd ministered administered ono hour a day was to bo be spent lit in gazing at tho file series of lurid pictures picture thrown off tit nt whito heat beat by this grand impressionist fired with indignation dig nation at tho the slow sad years of injustice tice and tyranny jerome spen spent t nearly every evening with mp me and I 1 was fully questioned as to my illy progress alas a disgraceful pluck too often awaited mol mcl I 1 had seldom mado made out my tour bours of practice owing to callers engagements with dressmakers or headaches tho the I 1 beglin to linao lit in plenty and the thoa french reval too I 1 could not grasp tho the situation or understand two consecutive sentences neca and was helpless to inake out in tho the least what all those people who seemed so terribly in earnest were trying to 10 lo do that ponderous work was accordingly according ly replaced by david which I 1 should havo have heartily enjoyed enjoy eil bad I 1 not felt that I 1 was regarded by jerome in tho the light of another dora Sp enlow I 1 had nn underlying conviction that tho the story was given to mo ina that I 1 might inight ice co how flow small and insignificant a poor little brai can bo be in tho the eyes of n bright intellectual tita ina telle tel ettl A I 1 man I 1 am of tho the opinion to this ibis day that jerome had an ulterior ob jcck it n selecting that charming book just at hut ta till 1 1 1 an AS 8 1 I look 1191 oil all that bot str strange aligo y e 1 V 11 my ay youth which vina a veritable storm and stress period I 1 marvel at wy joy mil and infatuation sly aly will was entirely merged ilfra that of 0 Jero ollo ilia 1118 and nil quiet in rules for nicacio liko ined on tho 11 aples six hundred Hund iid his voice ovag w rich anil melodious and ilia hla manner polished to courtliness with not a or sternness own oan cp w n was so EO often tile tho case ho aldust havo beni sadly badly disgusted at my labi lk of n of subjects subject its lt which lio found faund so ca much to enjoy to pay fay ho he bindo no ito nd ad veric criticism on oil my tylo of oress it lit la truo true I 1 wita waa always cousin mutely clo clothed tiled riot not alone by my own taste but because I 1 was allowed to RO go to tho the best ors without zog arato to jerome jeroma told toil mp ing frankly that ho he admired tile tho nil all of at in n my slender flouro tho ilia slight droop of tho lead tile tho thront throat thol email Finall greek nofo and chin tile tho typo apo was waa patrician tho the calin biad it receding slope however iwas it 11 little aeral a 0 cit alint 11 no it meant weakness t LI ar acter I 1 knew kne W illa hl diagnosis was correct thoro there beyond quest question lun tile tho w inter passed and tho the spring it was arranged that our marriage should f 10 lo place tho the coming october and now I 1 began to loso lose iny illy and pat strength my lly parents and jerome specially sa 60 A Eu Kuro ropeti pom voyn voyage goas v discussed by tile three roost most solicitous for foe lily iny welfare and finally decided upon but for baltic reagon which I 1 could not myself understand my illy will la in this matter asserted itself I 1 so violently opposed tho that plan that it wag given up though inoff reluctantly I 1 haj baa it in lumund mind tanti was sinking into a decline and I 1 wanted to illo in mv lily own country in a dini dim sort odway of way I 1 felt that a groat great c chango was iua lit in eforo for mo ilia in the coming summer somo boino crisis crisli in my illy life and my lily langmar and of spirits cabusca nio me to lily kiyon own death I 1 had bad even arranged tho the deathbed scene and the pro probably bablo time of which I 1 thought would bo be either in ili july or august I 1 avas as in fit fact fac ti lit in a deplorably morbid state st ditc itc of inland aly and of course given up I 1 had fainted while at tile tho find tile physician whom wo we lina hail known el lito lit o my childhood issued its ills mandato that I 1 was to to do 10 nothing in during tho the suni nier and that my lily reading if I 1 road read tit nil lill must in list be boot of tho and most trashy naburn tile tho of july found us again tit at tile tho sc seashore ashore at tho place where we had first mob met tile tho year acir before geromes Je romes passion for tile ocean was ivas it if po poi greater greit tor th alun tit over ever ila ho scowled really fIed and at caso teiso only hen ila ho avab near the water or on oil it a liking which I 1 did not nob share though I 1 wita waa usually his companion when lie avent on ills his st railing ailing excursions ono evening I 1 had started bilone for a stroll on oil thu the beach leaving Jero jeromo moon on tho the hotel butel plazza talking bust busl ness with 0 friend the still wa was setting when lie johned inn I 1 abia anillo we stood in silence watching its disappearance below zon yon line let us walk vi allt down aown to tho the wile cove and tako take a boat and ana RO go for far A Is short I 1 10 r t ro row W ily henrt grow brew sick with apprehension I 1 it t Is 1 too late I 1 urged it 11 we would ia bo be darl dark long before wo could got get bach 11 I 1 nut not fit at till all tile tho ivill bo be tip lip ond and CP there th croaro tire others starting out oB hall liao have company about us its even it wo we do not know thein I 1 feel somehow I 1 insisted tons ns it if I 1 cannot go on oil tile water to ton loht llight 11 1 lie ho quiri d 1 11 I cannot till tell why but you know jerome I 1 never oppose yo ujust now however nor must yon now lie ho my hands and looking into my eyes with tits his mildly kindly searching gazo but tho ilia boccali ocean Is so BO largo and our boat so 0 emall yes but I 1 know tile ocean and loo lo 10 vo it wo aro arc on the best of borms bernis you know too that I 1 hindla tile oars with tho the akil I 1 of botn A professional oa om riman nian by this time wo we had cil tile cove and tho ilia man in charge of tile tho boats hall bah ono one in fit readiness for or us tho the strong will mado made mo ina obey as it nl 1 ways did and I 1 stepped into tin tho boat bo it As wo we pushed off I 1 saw raw a gyll small ill cloud coming up out of tho the west A sick over me and tile certainty crept into my brain that tile tho crisis I 1 had h hl bier dreading was hanging oyer nac ino but I 1 said nothing jerome hall had no 6 sympathy apathy with frightened women wo nicil tile tho cloi cload tl grow larger anti and blacker it was in fit to mo me that a man with will such cool judgment and so large an amount of caution ns as jerome possessed did not at once turn back tile tho other bouts boats avera A nil 11 coming coining in but still wo we went on it grow grew darker the aholo appearance of 0 tho ilia night seemed ghastly to wo mo tho the damn lay jay very tery black tho the breathings brea things of tile tho wind just rippling tho water A thin shadowy vapor camo and idd tho file moon now tile tho breeze died out and tile tho atmosphere grew hut in tile tho extreme west tile the shado of tile tho heavens lic was of a dismal SInal state and tho the lightning was ivas winking like stars dancing mildly madly in among the gloom I 1 sat bat motionless it in tile the middle of the boat bant strangely and unnaturally calm watch watching ilig tho growth of tho the storm the bloom gradually into a as though a giant hand was wai warily drawing a n sable curtain about abou ns twice I 1 arlid to ask it ho acro trying to row raw licin homeward eward but I 1 could not articulate a v word and now camo came it vivid vh id flails of forked lightning it showed mo ino Je jerodes Jeromo romes 8 handsome face palo as death tho features feature a set und and rigid tho the crash clash of thunder that followed was waa terrific when the peal lind died cited away something camo came to my crippled consciousness ns as decisive and hopeless ns as a sentence of f death to a criminal wo anro doomed I 1 my 1 7 dear clear oil child ild bit but tat at least wo can die together I 1 could riot not have gono gone without you the th wind row rose and our bont boat begin dancing on oil tho the crosta of 0 the waves as lightly ns As a bird on oil a clover top I 1 thought I 1 saw not fir far off a boa larger thin ouid with th some ono in it but was not sure that it we was n not 0 ta n I 1 banc fanc fancy of mine born of a djin dim hope illa that t wo might bo be saved A thousand lights danced befaro my mv oyei eyes tuv ruse son senses se s were leaving tile me my illy act feet kraw ley icy cold anil and felt ns as it if they water which was indeed tho case all nt fit once anco tha nuit boat gave a whirl and plunge anti and I 1 knew no nl were when tho in morning orning downed dawned clear hid and cool I 1 found myself lying in tile the boathouse blanketed aind with wills other mother anti other about mo why did I 1 not lit in ta tho the fata of I 1 lil lordly know knew hut but I 1 did nut not amr ir crocker haa just gono aono ubi to tile tho hotel hatol to dry and warm self volun bevrett one oiw of lily iny frienda Irl cuda wo a logged him 1111 tu to iq go we vo aliu wo solid hin him word woid directly you your consciousness 1 I after a fortnight had arnod durau g which time wo luid had not suell BUCH annich of paoli other Je being laid up with symptoms toms g of 0 nil an illness which wua wits only warded off I 1 inn am suro sure by tile tho strength ot of ills his iran will I 1 became alvaro of a flet luct change in III my lily illusion my baturo hitherto 11 tumbling about among incongruities antl found its feet nud and wits planted on oil tho linn ground of consistency I 1 began to discern with clearing vision the real future tho the pearly dawn had changed into a shadowy durk daric ness which showed nio ilia laii igers III shaped alin poil and lii ducus what would my lily llo life wo bu ol 01 I 1 repeatedly asked myself it spent under the control of a so KO exacting dellal leing the absorption of my whole aholo bring being into tits simply moral anti and in our long tal talk k on oil that distressing subject which I 1 saw his keen perception had in III A n Inon Furo anticipated lie listened to my lily decision and accepted hla his de destiny stilly with characteristic ca calmness linness and anith etli a polo palo taco face and features fea set bet and rigid left ilia forever I 1 am ain married to it a man who JIM hm no marked intellectual gifts but who possesses posa it a cheery nature a and acquiescent teni temper pur which create about ailin an ail easy Indelli indefinite lito atmosphere illo tho liazo haze of indian suman r over a landscape koston boston transcript |