Show r THE DELUGE bay GRAHAM P jap uller of MM M M amir 4 var av yo 65 CM CHAPTER XII continued 1 Il ersly bat me and I 1 WAS irritated and thrown into confusion too every evely time I 1 lifted my ees bv the crushed criminal expansion of his face lie ile ate and drunk drank li tigel and bad ri anners it would have baye leen been regarded in me had I 1 male as much bolsi as he or lifted such quan titles at a time into rny my mouth hut but through this noisy gluttony he aged sonn how to maintain that ali it hang clo log rde like a thief who mho has gone through the house aliouse and on his way may out has haa paused at the lantri with A ith the hack of plunder beside him to doige himself I 1 looked at anita several times each time with a carefully cAie fully lemack leady each time I 1 found her gaze on me ine and I 1 could say sav nothing could look awa in a sort of panic tier her eyes freie mete strangely variable I 1 have seen been them of a gray no BO pale that hat it was almost sah baher er like the steely light of the snow line at thea mhd edge of ti tie e horizon again and they so that evening shone with the deepest softest blue 11 ue and made one think as one looked at tier her of a fresh violet frozen in a blok of clear ice I 1 sat behind tier her in the box at loe le theater during the first and mccond intermissions several beveral men dropped jn ill to speak to tier her mother and her fel lows who dian didn t ever come down town domn but I 1 could tell they knew who I 1 was by the way they ignited me it exas pR pirated prorated rated me to a pitch of tury fury that coldly insolent air of theirs it a jerky nod at me without so much as aa a glance and no notice of me when they were leaning leading my box beyond a faint smile as they passed with eyes straight ahead I 1 knew what it meant athu hit they were thinking th that at the bucket shot shop king hing I 1 as the nem news a papers had dubbed me was trying to use old a as a jimmy and bieak into society when the he curtain went down donn for th the 6 last two young men at ap pe ired I 1 did not get up tip as I 1 had bad be fore but stuck to ruy my seat scat 1 I hid reached that point at which courtesy couite sy haa bas become cowardice th they ey craned and attained at her round me ine and over mn me presently gave up and regind their anger as aa contempt for the bad lanneis roan neis ot of a bounded nut but that disturbed me not a ripple the moi moie e as aa I 1 m was as delighting in a consoling di discovery desemer semer listening and watching as she talked m ith those oung men whom she evidently knew well I 1 noted tint that she was distant and only politely polite fil friendly endly in manner habit biall that while the ice might thicken for me it was there always I 1 knew enough about women to know that if the woman who can thaw only for one man Is the most difficult she bile Is also the most constant once ehe he thaws toward inel IF I 1 said to ma myself self when the soung men had gone I 1 leaned forward until my head bead was clote close to hers to hei bet hall one fille so sort abundant electric hair like the in fatu aled tool fool that I 1 was I 1 tore out all the he pigeon pigeonholes holes of my bi biala aln in bearch of something to say to her something that hat would mould stait her to thinking well of me she must have felt my bleat I 1 uton upon her neck for she moved away slightly and it seemed to me a shiver shive r visibly passed over that wonderful white hite abkin of hers I 1 drew back and involuntarily sat said beg pardon I 1 I 1 glanced at her mother and it was N as my tui n to shudder I 1 can t hope to glye give an accurate impression of that stony mercenary merc enari mean fae face there are looks that paint upon the human count countenance nance the whole of a life as a alish of lightning paints upon the he blackness of the night milea ol 01 on miles mile of landscape I 1 the he look of mrs airs stern at her daughter stern command chrt she ehe be more chil that she unbend showed me the old woman s soul I 1 it if 3 sou oil wish it I 1 said on impulse to miss Ell ersly in a low voice I 1 shall never try to see vou again I 1 could feel lather than see the blood beating in hax skin and v was as in tier her voice a ness very like fright as aa she 1 I in sure mamma and I 1 shall be glad gad to tee bee ou whenever you come YOU ou I 1 persisted yes yen she sali said after a bilet best tation I 1 Olad 11 I 1 persisted she smiled the faintest change in the pel feet curve of her lips loll 1011 oi tire ire very persistent anat sou aou 4 very I 1 answered I 1 that Is att I 1 have always got whatever vr I 1 wanted 1 I admire it said gold slip sh yio no you dont I 1 replied you think it is vulgar and you think I 1 an am vulgar because I 1 have that quality that and borne bome others she did not contradict roe me wil well I 1 am vulgar from your standpoint I 1 wert mert on 1 I have amr pones and passions and I 1 pursue them for instance you up I 1 she said tranquilly you I 1 repeated I 1 made up tip tuy MY ond toe tae first day I 1 saw yuu you that 1 d urice you like me and vou ou will that Is very Latt battering ering said she bho and a little for F she faltered thon went w ent bi avely on I 1 suppose there anything oud stop at in fidei 01 dei to gain your end ud nothing said bald I 1 and I 1 tier lier to meet my gate gao blie drew a long breath and I 1 thought taa aas it a aal aab in ili it ft like ilke a child but I 1 lefeat I 1 went on that it if you mish it I 1 shall never ti it to see eee you again do you mabli if I 1 dont don t know she answered sered au scowl I 1 think not As she spoke the last word blie lift fd cd her ebes to mine with mith a look of foice in ili them theiu that id lather not have seen there I 1 bibbed to be blind to her defect to the stains and with mith which hei bet slit bur soundings must li hive we sullied tier lier and that fil endly look seemed to mo ine an unmistakable li in obedience to hei mathei Ilo however wever it had the effect of bil nging her neater to my own earthly leel of jutting me at case with her mid and foi the he few remain ink iti ml niiles we talked fibel I 1 india whether my lanneis and con veis atlon conert As AB I 1 helped her into their carriage I 1 pleased her airn aim and said in ili a voice for lier her only until to XIII MIT FRESH AIR IN A greenhouse at five the next day I 1 rang the IM HI berlys bell waa as taken through the drawing room into that same the curtains cutt cm ains the double doorway between the two leoina almont di dhawn awn she presently entered hoin the hall I 1 the picture bile bhe made in the doorway her mg big hat tier her drees of white cloth and that small acet cold face of hers and as I 1 looked I 1 anew that nothing not nothing lillig no not even hei bet wish tier her command rom manil could stop atop rie ri ficia trying to make tier her my own oma that resolve must have shown in mv face it or th j passion that instilled implied it for she abe paused and paled nihat ahat la in ita I 1 asked are ion ou afraid of me mea she ame tame i forwald a tine line scorn tit in her ees no she ehe said ald nut but if you knew you might be afiafi ot of roe me I 1 am I 1 confessed I 1 I 1 ani am orald afraid of oi because iou oil inspire in me a feel ing that la is beyond my control iva I 1 ve committed many follies tn 1 my ite iffe 1 I have moods in which it amuses me to def tale fate hut HIM those follie foll te have ai aade wa B been ofay 0 my own willing you I 1 laughed you are a folly tor for me m but one that compels nie me I 1 she spilled not discouragingly and seated herself on a tiny sofa la in the coiner a curio curiously wily impregnable ast as I 1 noted for my iro fin pulse was waa t carry her by storm I 1 was mas aiston blied hed at my own atlea city I 1 I 1 was mas gondring non dring where ray my fear of 0 her ber had aone ini in aw awe e nt nf hr hor Hii periT flo fin ass ss atto laie tu ceding edIng wll will be kown iown in a few minutes she said ald 1 I dmit ditont t aconite to see your mother mot riar replied I 1 I 1 I cama to see aio ai o you she flushed then froze And 2 thought I 1 had once moie moia got upon tur hr with my rude direct lieAs ilow how our neives are to bad of one w t don dolit 1 like and how 1 dinst to bad linale loni ol 01 one ne me do liet vea I 1 ti i e I 1 VP offended offen dd d maln a as usual abd I 1 I 1 ou on attali to io luich wo tance to iett little danchig mahder ellef diets a and ion w live at al 1 aus 1 RA liae hae imd in ili an all at 1 1 real keal billas a act t uli oil ou on liati fai hl all un on a hot bothof house 40 floel von are fisl fish all slit alii quit with lah laii iau chig thing 1 I 1 nin ill ilin it itola 1 I I 1 nd rood for oil u da as ou aull 11 find nd when ou iet get umed tx to me I 1 1 I 1 lit t a aid 1 I vokes voices in th hi next loom tier her mathei a and conle mail a IN e waited until it was man eident we wele not to be oe bisti lit d As aa I 1 that fact act and fI its ita inu ine aning I 1 loo doolittl at her I 1 we see non ou ale aie nelv net fiig said I 1 ith a you at aie e perfect 13 1 centala I 1 am to to iou bhe flamed scarlet and ailed up P your mother in the he ireat loom 1 expects it too I 1 mei on laughing lauf ehing eaf eatn n more I 1 loui par ants need money they hato hae to sell ou on theli theft only large income producing asset and I 1 am willing to buy bu what do son hay baya I 1 v m as blocking hei bet v m ay out ot of the loom she was at anding her breath coming pint fist hei bet eyes blazing you are 11 frightful I 1 bhe exclaimed la in a low voice because I 1 am frank because I 1 am honesta because lle cause I 1 want to put things on a sound bound baals I 1 suppose it if I 1 came lang find pic tending and let you lie and and let your parents and ham barn lie and pretend you would find roe ine almost tolerable well I 1 m not that kind when there a no special beason one aa asai or tho other I 1 im in willing to smirk and grimace and dod der and drivel like the rest ot of sour our I 1 f I 1 N 31 flu I 1 10 I 1 F 4 f g M ma P ev j 1 gilr IN MY aroid ANT AMI 1 fisl is iqs D IIER NOT ONCI kua MANI nm S fi lends alio llio ll those io ladles and gentlemen nut but m when lien e a buSl buAl neba nebs to be ti liana ans acted I 1 am businesslike business like let s not begin with inith our dour thinking wi oil are de me kind and so BO hating me and Is ie rue me and wing to keep keel up the deception lets begin light sit ahr way wan sho she was waa no longhi longing to lly fly front from the he loom she was ceilous I 1 knew I 1 had eclied I 1 in any evua I 1 continued ion would have diat hauled mauled i led fot foi money you youve ve in aen en hi ought brought up till to it like all chiso gills of set loud bo be mise miserable table without luxury if ou oil had our choice between loe oe without luxury and lux ury without loi loe e it ltd d be as eab COB to foretell foi etell which aoud end to do an aa to foretell how a starving pott would choose between a loat loaf of bi bicad ead and a volume of I 1 lofnik of nit you may love love but bill aou ou love life your kind of life butler botter sh lociel hei bet head it Is tine she ahe said it la Is tow low ard lic it but it is true trite I 1 houi pal aits nits lieck head money I 1 be gan she stopped me with ith a gesture I 1 don t blar blac thom she pleaded I 1 I 1 am more guilty than they I 1 was an of her its aa she ahe made that you yon haie hae the mak ing of a real woman in you said I 1 1 I should havo havn A anted you even it if you hadn haan t hut but what I 1 now ape maka what I 1 thought a folly of mine look mere like isdoll 1 I 1 wara aou ou she ehe sald md now she ehe was man koking di estly at me I 1 shall never lo ion e 3 ou oil I 1 never la Is a long time replied 1 rm POT old cilo enough tigh tu to bo be cynical about abou tj prophecy I 1 shall never luve you she repeat d foi nn nv reasons suu wouldn i und I 1 ir r one ou u will mill unde understand rlland I 1 und undo 11 and the many reasons vou 1011 sa N an ll 11 1 b vond ond UK tit bald I 1 por for deal deai voun lud this coarse ex belloi I 1 1 iou ou thebes hidden a talani cathi sharp outlook on human no na luie ei find and at will arva IK arvea that respond t to 0 the HB faint si changes is in ou on as do litno cam an t b alt altogether oether without s n biats hat B the other beas leaann 0 u the hie abon I 1 ason I 1 hat ou think thi nit you love lova solm one flae else I 1 I 1 thank hank ou for it for me she elia r re ibid loll 1011 ou cant cam imagine how eilf pleased ased I 1 m was a s at having haing earned her gratitude 1 un I n in ili su so little a matter I 1 have thought of that said I 1 it la Is of no nce kut YOU dont understand she aho pleaded earnestly on the contrare contrad ar ari I 1 understand tier per factly I 1 assured her and the i lea son I 1 am hot disturbed la in you bod are here 3 sou on lire are not with it it him bile bhe loi lowered ered her head bead no BO that I 1 had bad no view of her face I 1 oil oi and lie he do not marry I 1 went ment on because vou fou are both booi no replied because he does docs not care for youa no not that she bho said bild because lecause ou on thought he be hada t enough for twos A long pause then deiy faintly no not that then it must be because he han hain t as much money its as he be it d like and must find a girl who holl 11 biang him what ho he most wants I 1 she was silent I 1 chit alt Is while he be loves you dearly he loves money moncy more inore and lies he a will mill ing to seo see you go to man be the wife ile of another man be every thing to another man I 1 laughed take my chances against love of that you dont understand stand she murmured you don dont t reable there BIO ate many things that mean nothing to vou and that mean ob 01 so BO much to people bi ought tit up as we me are Non nonsense wild eald I 1 whit what do sou mean by we e 9 nature has b been een bring ing us tit for a thousand thousand ears afta A few yearb of alliy false train ing doesn doean t undo her m work ork it you and lie he had cared for each you I 1 wouldn be here apologizing tr fr his bla selfish vanity banit no matter about him she bhe cited impatiently lifting her head bead haught 11 the point is I 1 love him and RIAN iii av a shall I 1 w at ai n you and I 1 take sou oil at my ow om n risk I 1 ter her look answered yes avell e 1 I took her hand then we at aie 0 engaged ter her whole body grew tense and tier her hand chilled as it lay in mine D in t please don t I 1 bald gently I 1 ni not so BO bad as nil all that if you will mill be as gner generous ou with nio me as I 1 shall bo with of us will aei ro re glet giet this there tears on her checks as aa I 1 slowly lelei sed tier her hand I 1 ahall ask nothing of you that 30 i are not lead fiegly to give I 1 said impulsively she ehe stood and put out tier her hand and the ekes she lifted to mine shining and friend I 1 caught hei let in m amis ainis and kissed tier her not ot once but many ulm a s and it was not until the chill of her lc ice like face had cooled me that hat I 1 te leased d her drew back red and ashamed and apologia hut but hei bet im of friendliness had been killed she once indie as I 1 saw only too plainly felt foi me that sense of repulsion felt for herself that sense bonne of self degradation ra I 1 cannot many iou she mut I 1 ri ei ed you yon cati can and will and must I 1 cried infill by tier her look was a long silence I 1 coiled easily cosily buesa what was waa being toight out in liet mind at last she ehe drew lic herself roelf up 1 I can riot not refuse she sha said and her eyes even sparkled mith defiance that had hate hale in it boll you have the jower to compel me usi it like the baute you refuse to let me forget that vou ate ai e she looked so young so so 80 angry and no ino tempting so I 1 shall I 1 I 1 answel answered ed 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