Show n o n 0 i I The Woman Thou Gayest Me BEING THE STORY OF MARY ONEILL O'NEILL I II Written nm by HALL L CAINE I Copyright 1812 1912 bv by R Hearst Magazine C Copyright oh In Great Britain J Co Copyright lU 1913 by J. J B. B LIppincott Co n LJ CHAPTER Tub July 25 26 The old aM doctor brought me mes such s sad and startling news today My fr poor poor father is dead died dead died yesterday after an operation which he had deferred de de- erred too Jong long refusing to believe It necessary Tim Tho Tho dreadful fact has hitherto been een kept secret not only from mo mn but butt from everybody out of fear of legal proceedings pro pro- arising from the failure of banks etc tc which has brou brought ht tho the whole island to the tho verge of bankruptcy bankHe bank bank- I 4 He was buri buried d this morning mornin at old St St. very Marys very early almost before day day- da daybreak break to i suit edit it the tho convenience of the bishop who wished to catch the first steamer en on route fo for Rome As A's I a n at consequence of these strange arrangements S and aud the secrecy that has bas surrounded my mr fathers father's lifo life of late people arc are saying that lip ho is not dealt a at atall all all but in order to avoid prosecution Jio lio has hat escaped from the island going oin off with the bishop in in a sort ot of dis- dis and that the coffin colfin put into litre itne grave rae this thi did not contain con conn tarn tam a human body But that's alt all wrong rong said Faid the old doctor IC Your Tour father is really dead and buried and the tIlO strange e man who went treat away with tho the bi bishop hop was the London loudon surgeon who Tho performed the I 1 can hardly realize it h that t-that that the strong stalwart being the stern old lion ion whose heavy heny foot tramping through my poor mothers mother's s room used to make the vort OW house shake is gone fjone I He nc d as ho lie had bad lived U it seems To 10 the last self self self-centred inflexible domineering domi veering veering-a 3 a pea peasant vint yet ct a great reat man if it greatness suea ness is to be c measured nie s re by b- power po er ranking T I think in 10 his own little F. F scene ott oi of life with the tra tragic ic figures of ot history I I h have vc spent rent tho the day day in bitter bitter- grief Ever since I was a child there ha has a dark clark shadow b between tween m my fath father r aur and me mc He was liko like a beetling mountain always ban hanging tIr over my bead 1 f r wonder wonder won won- der whether te lie wished to see let me at the tho AI I I I I end Perhaps ho he did and was a over over- persuaded b bv by the cold cold and savorless I nature of Nessy N MacLeod who i is giving giving 1 ing it out I hear bear that grief rief and shame for mo me k killed him P People ople will say bo ho was a vulgar parvenu parvenu par par- a sycophant a snob heaven snob heaven knows what All AU wrong For tho tr true truo o reading of his one has to goback go goback goback back to the day when he ne was WIlS a ragged boy bov and the liveried coachman o or or he the bad oad Lord Raa Ran lashed at his mother on the tho road and he swore that when he was a man she sho should have ha a carriage carnage of her own and then nobody should never lash iier her ner I Ho found Gessler's cap in int tho the market market mar mar- ket place and was was no moro more morp willing than Tell TJ to bend the tho knee to it MI My y poor father Ho He did wron wrong to uso use another r life if another another soul boul for either cither his pride or his reverse revenge But God Iod knows best bost how it will be bo with hun him n and if he ho was the first causo cause of or making my life what it has been I send after niter him 1 I almost tremble tromble to sa say it if not my 01 love lo my forgiveness July Juh- 20 26 f T begin to fo realize that after all aU J I was wa not romancing when I told toM the old dears dcarR than Martin artin and his schemes would woul collapse if I fail failed cd him Poor ho- ho boy hobe he be is always talking as if everything e depended upon me It is utterly frightening to tot think ink what would happen to the expedition if ho thought I could not sail with him on tho the Martin artin is not ono of tho men who cop n-cop for their wives as ss if tho the sun had bAil suffered eclipse o and then mart marry again before their graves raes are arc green So having hay hav in ing begun on m my great scheme schema o of of pretending pretending pre pre- tending th that t I am getting getting etting better e everyday every everyday ery da day and shall be ready ready to go o never fc fear r II I have to keep it up T I be begin in to suspect though that I am amnot amnot amnot not such a wonderful actress after all Sometimes in the midst of my ray raptures T I see sec him looking at me uneasily as if ifie he ie were conscious of a R. certain effort At such uh moments I have havo to avoid oid his eyes Jest lest anything should happen form for formy formy m my h hn great treat love seems to b bo be always lying ying i h n ri wait to break down my make be be- I Today Toda though T had resolved not to toI jno he wit way to tears tear when ho be was talking talk talk- I m ng ing about the voyage e out and how it would set me mo up p and n how bow the in- in v air of tho the Antarctic would mako woman of me mo I r cried How splendid How Now glorious Then why are you yon crying he lie asked Oh good good gracious that's nothing nothing- ng- ng for me met I answered But if I am am throwing du dust t in Martins Martin's Martins Martin's Mar Mar- artin ar- ar tin tins tin's f 8 eyes I am deceiving nobody else che it seems Tonight after he and Dr O'Sullivan had haa gone back to the tho Plough h Father Father- Dan came in to ask Christian Ann Anu how she found me and being answered rather sad sadly I leant heard him say gay Ugh cha ha nee neo Woe is mo me mel What I is life It is oven even a vapor which ap- ap for lor a little while and then away A And n half an ail hour lat later r when old alii Tommy Tomm Tommy camo came to bring me some somo lobsters he still declares they thoy are the on only food for lor or invalids and t to ask hows the thc lily lil woman no now non 1 I heard hear him moaning as he ho was going out Therell Therel be no shelter sh-elter for her ber this voyage the I Shell She'll carry the sea Aea in with mth her to the Head Im I'm think think- iu ing Jul July uly 27 I r must t keep it up up I I must I must To allow Mai Martins Martin's tins tin's hopes and dr dreams ams to bo be broken in iu upon now would bo ho enough to kill me outright I don dont don't I jant ant to be unkind but some explorers kayo c the impression that I their highest impulse i is the praise of achievement and nd once they have ha do done a asO sO something all they've C got hot to do next is to stay at home and talk about it Martin is if not like that Exploration Exploration The Tho of is a passion with him lure lulo the little voices n and the call all of the unknown wn JJ have havo been with him from the beginning and th they will be bc with him to the end ond I cannot possibly think of Martin dying in bed and being Doing laid to rest Inthe in inthe inthe the green peace of En English lish earth earth dear dear and sweet as that h is to tamer natures i. i mine for instance I can only think of that wild heroic soul going up to God from tho the broad white wilderness of or the stormy South SO and leaving his body under under un nn- un- un der heaving hummocks ks of snow enow with blizzards blowing a requiem over his bis gra grave c Far oil off m may j that glorious ending be but shall hall my poor railing ailing heart mako make it impo impossible sible Never never never Moral Moral Moral-I'm Im I'm Im I'm going goin to get up every day whatever day whatever my nurse may may say July 28 I was rocking baby baoy to sleep this afternoon when Christian tian Ann who Rase was spinning inning by the fire told me of a a. quarrel 1 between ln Aunt Bridget and Ne Nessy essy MacLeod It seems that Nessy who sacs she ahe was married to my father immediately before tho the operation claims to bo the heiress of all aU that is left and as the thc estate includes the bi big house she i is is putting the law lawon on Aunt Aunt Bridget Budget to obtain possession ion Poor Aunt lAunt Bridget What a pitiful end to all her scheming for Betsy Beauty Beauty Beauty Beau Beau- ty all her cruelties to my lon long suffering mother all her treatment of me to me-to to bo be turned out of doors by bJ her own stepdaughter step step- dau daughter I When en old Tommy heard heard- of the lawsuit law law- suit cult he said faid Chut Clint Serves Serve her right I say It Its It's 5 the black life the bi big woman lived before before befort be be- fore fort and its it's the tho black life lifo shell she'll be UV living DIl now and her growing old and the death looking in on her July 29 We have finished the proofs toda today and Dr O'Sullivan has gone gono back with then them I thought ht he looked rather wan when ho camo came to say goo goodbye goodbye good good- bye to met mt and though he made a great cat d deal of noise his voice was husky when swearing s by his bis favorite fa f saints ints he talked about returning for tho the include Treacle with all aU tho the boys Of course that was nonsense about his bein being in love Jove with me But Im I'm sure ho loves mo me all the tho same same many many man many people veople love lovo mo me I dont don't know v what who I Ive I've va done to deserve all this thi love lovo I have had a great reat deal dal of love in my life ife now that I come to think of it We worked hard over the la last t of the proofs and I suppose I was tired at atthe atthe atthe the end ond of them for when Martin carried me upstairs tonight there was less lu laughter than usual and I thought ho he looked serious as he set mo me down by the bed I bantered him about that A A penn penny for your tho l thoughts mister but at toward midnight ht the truth flashed upon me me-I me I am becoming thinner and therefore lighter every OI da day an and he is beginning to notice it it Moral I Moral T must try to walk upstairs I in future To be bo continued tomorrow |