Show 5 I ATI ATOMS IS OF A WE AWE BY Adele AdeJe ii IJ I E O iH RF I UK JU ThAT TIL CALE TO MADGE Dont you think so Decidedly But But- we cant can't say anything any any- thing thing- yet jet I I dont don't think she suspects suspect Hand me that bottle bottlo again as please 1 There She Sho Is coming to all right I seemed to be slowly risIng from abysmal black depths and the voices o of or m my mother law and Lillian sounded as If It they were miles away Late I I was 1 to wonder what thc they me meant nt by their puzzling references Just Juat now I had not the vaguest curiosity curl curl- concerning their conversation I opened m my eyes to see Gee their faces bending bending- over o me mc Anxiety waa was written writ writ- t ten tea n on ca each hh I could plainly see that I and m my law In wore also an expression don familiar to mo me th thc frown with which she greets any unexpected situation But on Lillians Lillian's countenance there was Infinite pIa play and tenderness i L pulled on her band hand t feebly bly and she bent beat her head to hear my whisper Cousin Agatha and the physician are with Katie silo she said sald Dont worry dear Everything E is being done clone for tor her hor But she Is afraid of ot Cousin Cousin Cousin-Agatha Agatha I faltered visions of ot the various arlous nagging cruelties to which the woman had subjected m my little maid rising before meShe meShe meShe me She Isn't t now m my mother law struck In Agatha is responsible for tor this accident and is ao no remorseful and afraid arald something will happen to Kato Katie that she's as meek as Moses And she's waiting on on- her hand and foot toot But now that youre you're all right Im I'm going back to Katie anyway But But Mare Margar Margaret et el I think you ou ought ht to tD BC see Bee a physician phy phy- soon I The Awak Awakening Her manner was hesitant far different dif dif- ferent from her usual crIsp command I felt Instinctively th that t at any other time she would have brought the physIcian physician physician phy phy- to my room Immediately after alter such a a. swoon Insisted upon my consulting con con- suiting him Wm and following his directions directions directions' circe- circe minutely And then all In a moment the re realization re- re swept over me of or the meaning of ot m my In laws queer manner and of ot Lillians Lillian's earlier In the da day I cast cast- casta a quick frightened glance glanc at Lil Lii- lian han then threw m my shaking hands over m my face in ii a futile utne effort to shut away from me mc for Cor a a. moment the tho I knowledge which once would woud have transported r me rae to the seventh heaven of ot I I i I Lillian's Lillians ns firm hands took mine awa away from my t face ce her kind eyes ees looked re reproachfully ro- ro at it m meThis meThis me This Is Is' Is no good business Madge she said firmly then firmly then thon she added And added And it Il Isn't fair tair 1 I caught her thought tho and audit It steadied me me enabled mo me to put a firm rein upon my myself elfI elf r I know I have have been acting like an Idiot Lillian I said 1 con contritely tely bu but t you wont won't have to complain about me again And And please And please you'll understand Id I'd Id I'd bo be al alone for a little while Of ot course child she said and left the room room immediately And nd then 1 I faced the future the wonderful won won- I b bewildering terrifying future A little child was coming to DIcky land and me Mixed Jo Joy Jor arid and Doubt How I had longed and prayed for tor this boon And now that It ft was vouchsafed vouch ouch GaZed me there was waa more misery than happiness in the tho thought of its grant grant- ing trig For two to miserable sordid facts stared me mo In In tho the face ace DIck Dicky did not want a child He might hide bide his Ius' displeasure although know log InS Dicky 1 l wasn't confident of or that fact but he would be sorel sorely disappointed disappointed po pointed ted a my news And unless my doubts doubts' concerning m my husbands husband's p patriotism and his faith to tome tome tome me were cleared up I doubted sorely that I I desired motherhood either The child chUd of ot a slacker Tho phrase seemed to come from the thc air around me met meto t to ring rig In my my oars ears Every fiber of or I 1 me revolted at at- atthe tho the stigma my my- bab baby might have to bear And then like Uke R a clear invigorating breath of ot mountain air dispelling all the mists of ot my valley of ot desolation the great vital joy of or expectant motherhood motherhood moth moth- came to me The Ti-ia little child I had long longed d for was wan cornIng coming to me I too would feel reel the touch of baby hands upon upon- m my face would my ray neck for the holy accolade acco acco- lade of motherhood It Jt Isn't fair Lillian had said With Witha a a. flush of shame my soul echoed her words The little soul str struggling lIng to I life lito should riot not be hamp hampered b by fears or I doubts or or sadness Th The mystery of ot Dicky's conduct his inexplicable treatment treat treat- ment 7 of ot me receded far tar him Into the horIzon horizon hori hurl zon son of or m my mental perspective e e. e There was but one one dut duty one ono thought before beCore me now to fit m my W weak al unworthy self for v. v wise I se loving motherhood |