Show i 7 Margaret Margarel Garretts Garrett's k ki l i m d Husband I art L j 4 BV By JANE PI in PS f 1 CHAPTER 39 Morbid Thoughts and Actions 1 It may be that I was a poor Judge I of human nature but it seemed to me that the force which drew Robert nobert Garrett and me together and mated us was as natural and irresistible as I the force torce that moves the world My ly love threw around our life liCe an I Impossible I always saw the future spent with Bob as rainbow I tinted My y imagination pictured our life together as one long season of ot I I blissful living for tor each other with no room for tor outside entanglements entanglement But Bobs Bob's world the world which interested and appealed to him was an alien one Each Kach day it was Im tm- Impressed pressed upon me more and more Usually when Bob had bad In any way distressed me when he had remained j I away from me for or an any reason I had t anxiously watched for his return But i inow now often otten It had become an effort to I appear natural and it was with a a sullen spirit that I greeted him Often Often his very eagerness coupled with that I j bright look on his face tace intensified my I resentment at his being able to enjoy himself apart from RIP mI i Once when he was telling me of I something which had interested him i and John Kendall something for tor Which I cared nothing T stopped him Oh do stop Ive I've hp heard ird nough nought Im thought you would sor sorry I th be Interested T should I I I dont don't see why yoU ou snapped I never made any pretense pre- pre tense I Well ell Bob answered deliberately it might be better If IC i J ou did take I for both of r us s- s I some interest interest better better Xo No Bob I have told you ou I didn't t care for tor there these friends of or yours forthe for forthe th the things the they did Fm Im sorl sorry Margaret Oh that's what you always say say- ay that's the measure youre you're sorry If It th measure of ot your our love I call It si simply P Y YIng I never am Ing your selfish desires with me to happy unless are OU you jou share things But you I stopped It was the first time that I had ever ome hinted that Bob did not care for tor me meas meas as I did for tor I- I Urn m and I knew knew even everi M as MI asI s I said it that I didn't be beHe believe myself his wife Ve e He lie lo loved ed me I was We simply had different ideas of c certain I 1 patient things thIng I must be he more would in time win Bob over oer The Thc psychology of woman womans woman's s love ikes is likes Each woman woma always a mystery to think her man is strong courageous courageous cour cour- in the ageous but that he Is her slave marriage Some ome Intimate things of women when they are ore d disappointed P Inh In h own with a man having ving their own way will viii with a love still mother him and love another another an an- Lakin akin to pity pin some seek other while whilo others other merely weep an and 1 wail their away iy 1 I w was s not I 1 made of the stuff that docs does a any y o ot t these things I would In the en endI end d I have my own way with Bob That i I S never for a i mom moment nt doubted and I T would have haye It I because of m my Intense love rove for him which he must recognize as as the greatest thing in my life lICe andin and andIn andin I In in his nis I have been very vel unhappy B Bob b I T I told nM him when u we went upstairs I after aCter spending th the evening on the tho porch with father tather and mother Im 1 m sorry what about 1 I I wish you'd stop saying Im SOI sorry its it's getting Betting on my nerves nerves Well Avell what was It about about about- Because you ou remained away from me e I couldn't eat any dinner last night and stayed up here alone all the evening Bob suppressed an impatient ex eX- eXclamation waited a n. moment then said That was as you chose No Bob T I didn't choose You did that tha t for Cor me meI me meI I dont don't understand your reasoning impatiently he answered You know I am not happy unless you vou are with me that I 1 never have a good time without you OU I felt too badly to eat too lonely to talk to anyone You punished me severely while you were enjoying yourself You are morbid Margaret No I 1 am not morbid I 1 love my husband that's all and want his so society society so- so If I cant can't have It Ill I'll stay by I myself until he sees fit to become my companion Nonsense It Is not nonsense from now on I r shall neither eat nor see anyone when you remain away from me fo for r your own selfish pleasure Tf It you can have a good time under such conditions you jou OU are a different man n from the one I 1 married But Margaret Margaret- We Ve wont won't discuss It It Bob nob You know now Just how I feel teel what wha t course I shall take Knowing this tI I certainly certainty shall expect you to be with me unless unless' business calls you ou elsewhere elsewhere else else- where Then as I 1 noted his scowling face tace I added You know that I love you devotedly you love m me too Justas Just as liS well dont don't you Bob darling and T i flung Clung my arms around his neck and pressed my lips to his lips It must be awful to be married to a man who doesn't care for you you as I 1 repeated over and over again the words of oC love I T always used and gave pave the caresses caresseR T r supposed welcome because I myself loved so dearly to be caressed Strangely at that time I T never thought that Bobs Bob's caresses caresses were forced that he gave pave them only onty because be because because be- be cause I 1 demanded It Yet now as I 1 look back I think he cared for Cor me There was no one else else of of that at I am sure j I 1 CHAPTER 40 Molding a Man 1 Twice again that summer Bob remained re remained remained re- re in New York without letting me know his Intentions In time to Join him and twice again I shut myself away from the others and moped until his return If I had to crucify cruelty myself to mold Bob into the man man I wanted him to be the kind of man I thought he was when I married him why I should do it I Occasionally he had told me In the morning that he was to remain In town and I had gone in and wo we had gone toan to toan toan an hotel We Ve would have hav dinner then theno go o to a roof garden or something If It Bob could get away if It not I sat quietly In the hotel room and waited for him Take It all in all It was a very happy summer for tor all of or us Our boy we had named him Donald wasa was healthy health j natured good-natured baby and mother declared de declared de- de no care at all all Bob had wanted t to name him Kendall after John Kendall Kendall Kendall Ken Ken- dall but I wouldn't listen to It It I always al alwayS always al- al ways had admired the name Donald so although I know no one of or that name save Donald Payne it was the one I Iga ga gave ve my boy Bob gave all his evenings to me lIe He would come down early and play tennis until time for tor our late dinner then after atter that was over we would sit on the porch until we were sleepy sleep I enjoyed enJoyed enjoyed en- en Joyed those quiet evenings with Bob beside me and would tell him how much I loved him as I slipped my hand In his In the half halt darkness of the summer nights I was not quite so happy durIng during dur dur- ing ng the week ends for then John Kendall Kendall Kendall Ken Ken- dall and Henry Creedmore came down and Bob played golf Ml II day Saturday and Sunday I But I flattered myself that he was beginning to realize that I was right In my demands that he had decided he ho had a duty toward me for tor he scarcely ever went over to the club inthe In Inthe Inthe the evenIng even even when his friends were down Elsie Barton said it was because he was too tired after his Ills long days on the links but I knew better better- at l least ast I thought I did We Yo returned to town the first of October Oc Oc- OcI I tober Della Delia went in a few tew days ahead to put the apartment In order It was wasso wasso wasso so clean so livable looking that Bob I declared we hadn't been away at all we had dreamed we summered on the Island One day Elsie and I were talking of ofa ofa a a. girl we both knew who was unhappily unhappily married One might know they would be unhappy unhappy unhappy un un- happy Elsie said in her usual decided wa way they haven't a single thing In common She Is gay loves life ute wants to go and have a good time while he wants to sit at home read his paper and go to b bed d. d I If he were a strom enough charac- charac ter er he could make her see that it was washer washer I i her duty to stay at home with him I I replied a home for tor I d dont don't nt know about that perhaps I It t is his duty to go out with her What's sauce for the goose you know Xo No o I don dont don't t know when people marry their duty is to make a home for each other to be happy together in it it it People dont don't always do their duty Margaret And how I 1 hate the word it always conjures up something unpleasant un un- pleasant Youre as bad as as' Bob he hates to have me use the word but I do Just the same Mme It is good for him to be re reminded re- re minded that he has a duty toward me me Have you jou commenced to realize Margaret that Bob isn't the quiet dod domestic domestic do do- man you declared he was when you ou married d him I I Bob Is all right it Is his friends lie He Te will not see much of or them in the future so 80 I wont won't have that to an me I I wouldn't be so M positive of that Margaret and 1 I 1 I waited a moment for tor her to finish then hen as she seemed disposed to drop the subject I asked What do you suppose made Grace marry that Mr lr Black Propinquity and some sort of physical physical physical phy phy- attraction probably horrid It is the reason nine out of ot ten couples cou cou- ples pl marry marr You mean that thy they dont don't marry for I lo o lo like Bob Doll and I did lid I t They thought they were In love love love- for Cor a little while But stop and think Margaret Dont Don't you ou suppose even I In your own case that had you and Bob not been thrown together under Just the circumstances that you were you might never have married Bob was depressed sad lIe He had lost his mother You were sympathetic you soothed him and in his saddened mood you aPpealed appealed ap ap- pealed to him him to to a certain side aide of his nature You mean to to imply that had I met Bob before his mother died he would not have cared for me me I asked in indignant indignant In- In No not No not Just that You perhaps wouldn't have cared for tor him if It you had met him when he was wall careless and gayas gay gayas gayas as he used to be But that Isn't the idea I 1 didn't mean to be personal I Iwas Iwas Iwas was only trying to prove that propinquity propinquity propInquity was the cause of ot most marriages that and physical attraction Often Otten people who marry In this thin way become very fond lond of each other and live Jive happy ever er afterward and some and some dont don't she laughed in her happy carefree way wa You know I caught Tom on the tho rebound rebound re rebound re- re bound another girl had refused him and he was a bit sore Yet we are as happy as can be Tomorrow Tomorrow-A A A Hard lIard no Row flow v to Hoe floe I 1 |