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Show VOL. 2. OFFICIAL PROVO DIRECTORY. bi:e(iii:r-tii.t- o 0 siwiial. Continued Ironi Saturdays Tijia--s T. ft. OFFICERS FOR UTAH. There was much then that weighed heavily upon my heart and conscience which now weigh ft fine! JiiKtico only on my heart. I have not Associate the light which analyzes and dis( Jacob ft. lloreman Geo. 11. Maxwell, Mich. seminates things by one blow. Marshal Wm. Cnrey, III. There opened liefore me a revelaV. ft. Attorney Kimball tion full of anguish. An agonized Nathan Genenil Surveyor Heeelverof Public Moneys, J.ROverton.Pa. family, whose inmates hail been Willett Pottenger my friends, greatly beloved; the Itnrister I.aad Office, - F. Taggart, III. husband ruined in worldly prosV. ft. Assessor O. J. Hollister, Cal. r. ft. Collector pects, his household crumbling to Clerk 1st Judicial District. C. W. Emerson pieces, the woman by long sickness nnd suffering, either crippled to deceit as her husband alleged, or so broken in mind as to be TERRITORIAL OFFICERS. and either way it Geo. Q. Cannon irresponsible, lielrgiitc to Congress was her enthusiasm ..embbabel Snow as I was made to for her pastor Mlorney General lielieve. that T. T. McAllister ..J. Marshal was the and germ beginning of Win. Clayton Vmlitor trouble. It was for me to have the Jack James Treasarcr 0. n. Rings. forestalled and prevented that ftupL Common Schools, mischief. My age and experience, in the world should have put me on my guard. I could not at that UTAH COUNTY OFFICERS. time tell what was true and what Warren N. Pusenberry was not true, of the considerations Probate Judge f' Myron Tanner urged upon me by Tilton and Albert K. Thu rber Selectmen Ik? fore LThos.J. McCullough Moulton. There was grief which me in lav those who had I John Nnttall Comity Recorder warm leen and friends, C. they Rogers Sheriff.....; Henry J. R Milner alleged that I had heIjKd to plunge Prosecuting Attorney therein. That seemed John R Milner them Surveyor Albert Jones enough to fill my soul with sorrow Coroner and anguish. No mother who has L. John Nuttall County Clerk lost a child hut will understand A. Dixon Treasurer Henry of that E. Daniels the wild Assessor and Collector. .James all W. II. grief, reason, produced against Common Pusenberry Schools, Supt. blaming herself for what things she did do and for what things the neglected to do, and charging PROVO CITY OFFICERS. upon herself her neglect or Abraham 0. ft moot the death of her child, Mayor fL. John Nuttall while ordinarily every one knew ftnm net ft. Jones she had worn herself out with her Aldermen ( Albert Jones assiduousness. Wm. R Paen, Soon after this I met Mr. Tilton (James Dunn. Councilors William A. Follet, John R at Moultons house. Either MoulW. Loveless (.Milner, James fjick or was very late in L John Nuttall ton wasfor Recorder he was in bed. The Treasurer Henry A. Dixon rising, of my feelings and conduct subject C. Rogers Marshal Henry I John R Milner toward Tilton was introduced. CUy Attorney a statement made of the motives amea F Daniels J Assessor and Collector Charles D. Miller under which I had acted in coun, Supervisor A. G. Cownover seling Bowen of my feeling toChief of Police Robert T. Thomas wards Tiltons family, disclosing Watermaster JoslaUT. Armwsmlth with horror the thought of wrong, City Poundkeeper Daniel Graves and expressed a desire to do whatSexton ever lay in human power to remedy any evil I had occasioned, to reunite his family. Tilton and POSTAL AFFAIRS. was silent and sullen. He played the part of an injured man, hut o Moulton said toTilton with intense RATES OF DOMESTIC POSTAGE. earnestness That is all that a can say, and you ought rnte gentleman weight Lettur. (The standard single Is ox. avoirdupois). Single rate letter to accept it as an honorable basis of reconciliation. This he repeat3 cent throughout the United States ed two or three times, and Tiltons or ox. frac For each additional countenance changed under Mou3 tion ltons strong talk. We shook hands 1 Drop letters, single rate and parted in a friendly way. Tilton 4 oe. Not very long afterwards Newspapers. (The standard rate to his house, and said me asked ! avoirdupois). he should be glad to have the Pally, seven times a week, .V) ets. per quar. good old times renewed. I do not 30 six I ever took a remember whether la meal after that under his roof, but - 10 I certainly vas4nvited by him to - 5 (Weekly renew my visits as formerly. I 3 Monthly never renewed my intimacy with his family, but once or twice I rate PrRiomcAiA. (The gtamlard single went there soon after my reconIs ox. avolrdupoisl. with Tilton and at his - 3 cts. per quar. ciliation I particularly remember request ! L Monthly a scene which took place at his 'quarterly... house when he talked about his The maximum weight of any package of wife and me in a very gracious printed or miscellaneous mntter Is 4 tt av- mood. He liegan by mourning oirdupois. his sorrows. He was very desolate. The future seemed fjuite black. After impressing us with his great Registered letters and money patience, he grew generous, praisORDERS. ed me to hi3 wife, saying that I had taken upon myself all the on Registration: Letter mar heregKteml Payment of a fee of fifteen cents, but the blame of his troubles and had her, and government takes no responsibility for honorably exculpated eafe carriage or compensation In cases of telling me that his wife likewise loss, had behaved very magnanimoushad blamed herself and declarToney Orders: All principal post, offices ly; ed that I was blameless, and he now receive small sums of money and e drafts for the same npon other post closed his homily with increasing 'fltrns, subject to the fbl lowing charge hope and cheer, saying that deep was his misery he hoped that as nd regulations: would come out in the future he n nrdcrs not exceeding $20 0 cent cheerful than he had liefore. more ITr33 and not exceeding $T0... 15 restrained I my smiles at the 43 and not 20 exceeding the of thing, well conabsurdity and not exceeding J50... 25 tent to have it evaporate, and even thinking he was generous in his way. Rates of foreign postage. This seemed to me the end of (The standard single rate to Great Rrltaln the trouble. With a sensitive and ( llf an nnnee who had no ulterior avoirdupois; letters, six honorable man a to two cents. Papers, accomplish it would designs burial of the diffibeen the have j'Mandant rate to France Is 15 grammes, I suppose Tilton had given culty. J, n'Hl,,aner ox.; letdors, ten cents; of intentional wrong Jdea the up cents. Governor ...... George I. Woods, Oregon George A. Bhipk, Utah Ja. H. McKean, N. Y. ( Philip H. Emerson I- self-accusati-on -- heed-lessnes- s, -- -- y 4 ftemt-month- 1 ls-n- 1 'r 1 pa-tw- o CITY, U. T., TUESDAY, on my part, and forgave my unin- tentional wrong. I plainly understand now what 1 (lid not then suspect, that any trouble of mine was to Ik kept alive and nourished so that I might he used to act on my friend in securing from Bowen the money which Tilton claimed to !h? due as compensation for his expulsion from the two Mr. Moulton and Mr. Tilton lxth strove to obliterate from my mind all belief in the rumors that had leen circulated nbout Tilton. There was much going on in silencing, explaining, arranging, etc., that I did not understand then as well as now. Of one thing I was convinced, viz: that Tilton had the highest sense of marital purity, and that he had never strayed from the path of virtue, which preservation he owed, ns he told me in a narrative of his life, to a very solemn scene with his father, who, on the eve of his leaving home, pointed out to him the nature of all those temptations and snares and evils to be dreaded from unlawful practices. He declared that he had always leen kept spotless by the memory of that scene. I was glad to iKdieve it true, and felt how hard it was that he should le made to suffer by evil and slanderous foes. I could not explain some testimony yhieh had lieen laid before me, but I said there is undoubtedly some misunderstanding, and if I knew the whole I should find Theodore, though with obvious faults, at heart sound and good. These views I often expressed to intimate friends in spite of their manifest incred-uilt-- and what in the light of facts I must call their ridicule. Moulton lost no occasion of presenting to me the kindest view of Tiltons character, and on the other hand he complained that Mrs. Tilton did not trust her huslutnd or him, and did not assist him in his effort to keep Theixlore. I know that she distrusted Moulton, and felt bitterly hurt by his treatment of her husband. I was urged to use my intluence with her to Inspire confidence in Moulton, and to lead her to take a kinder view of Theodore. Accordingly, at the instance of Mr. Moulton, three letters were written on the same day, Feb. 1st, 1871, on one common purpose, to be shown to Mrs. Tilton, and reconcile her to her husband, and my letter to her of that date was designed to effect the further or collateral purpose of giving her confidence in Moulton. This will Ik? obvious, from the reading of the letters. I have no recollection of seeing or hearing read the let-tof Mr. Tilton of the same date. In my letter to Mrs. Tilton I alluded to the fact that I did not expect when I saw her last to le alive many days. That statement stands connected with a series of symptoms which Ilirst experiencI went through the Freed in mont campaign speaking in the open air three hours at a time, and three days in the week renewing my literary labors. I felt that I must have given way. I very seriously thought I was going to have apoplexy or paralysis, or something of the kind. On two or three occasions, while preaching. I should have fallen in the pulpit if I bad not held on to the table. Very often I came near falling in the streets. During the last fifteen years I have gone into the pulpit I suppose 1K) times with a very strong impression that I should never come out of it alive. I have preached more sermons than any human being would believe when I felt all the while that whatever I had got to say to my people I must say it then or I never would have another chance to use it. If I had consulted a physician his first advice would have lieen you must stop work, but I was in such a situation that I could not stop work. I reatl the best medical books on the symptoms of nervous prostration and overwork, and formed my own judgment of my case. Three stints I marked were, that I must have good digestion, good sleep, and I must These three go on working. things were to be reconciled, and in regard to my diet and stimulants and medicino I made the most thorough and searching new-pajKT- S. y, well-deserve- d et NO. 8. AUGUST 17, 1874 trial, and, as a result, managed my Itody so that I could get the most work out of it without essentially impairing it. If I had said a word about this to my family it would have brought such distress and anxiety on the part of mv wife ns I could not bear. I had for many years so steadily taxed mv mind to the utmost that there leave Ikou periods u hen 1 could not afford to have people express sympathy even with me. To have my wife or friends anxious ft bout It, and showing it to me, Mould 1k? just a drop too much. In 18(kl I came again into the same condition, just Ufore going to England, anti it was one of those reasons why I mas to go when the war was at its height. I carried my country in my heart. 1 had the Independent iu charge and was Working, preaching and lecturing continually. I knew I was likely to be trust rated again. In December, 1870, these troubles brought theso symptoms on again in a more violent form. I M'as very much depressed in mind, and all the more IxKause it was one of those things that I could not say anything nltout. I was silent with everybody during the last four years. These symptoms had Iteen repeatedly brought on by my intense Mork, and carried fonvard on an underlying basis of so much sorrow and trouble. My friends will hear u itness that in the pulpit I have very frequently alluded to my expectation of sudden death. I feel that I have more than once already been near the stroke that would have killed or aralyzed me; and I carry with me now, as I so often carried in years hefore this trouble began, the daily thought of death as a door Mhich might open to me at any moment, a way out of all my care and lalmrs into a welcome rest. During the whole of the year 1871 1 was kept in a state of suspense and doubt, not only as to the future of the family for the reunion and happiness of M hich I had striven so earnestly, hut as to the degree to which I might personally be Subject to attack and misconstruction, and to the trouble Indng brought into the church and magnified by publicity. The officers of the church sought to investigate into Mr. Tiltons reliand moral conduct, gious and on this latter point Iliad lxen deceived into the lielief that he Mas not In fault ns to religious views. I still hoped fora change for the better, ns it Mas proposed to drop him from the list of mem-lftr- s and lie for l, asserted to me, after his wi-hi- ng Ix-lie- f with-dnuva- this might have lieen done but that his M'ife still attended the church and hoped for his restoration. I recollect haying a conversation, in which he dimly intimated to me that he thought It not unlikely he might go back into his old position. lie seemed to lie In a mood to regret the past, and so, when I was urged by the examining' committee to take some steps, I said I Mas not Mith-o- ut hopes. Mean Mh lie, one wing of the female suffrage party had got hold of the story in a distorted and exaggerated form, such as had never lieen intimated to me by Mr. Tilton or his friends. I did not then suspect, what I now know, that these atrociously false rumors originated with Mr. Tilton himself. I only saw the evil growing instead of diminishing and perceived that Mhile I was pledged to silence and, therefore, could not speak in my own deforever perfense, some one Mhich severing in tho falsehood, in diMas groMing continually mensions, and these difficulties Mere immensely increased by the affiliation of Mr. Tilton with the Wood hull clique. In May, 1871, Mrs. Woodhull advertised a forthcoming article, shallowing an account of tho disturbance in Mr. Tiltons family, but without using names. It Mas delayed, ostensibly by Mr. Tiltons influence with Mrs. Wood hull, until Novemlr, 1872. During this suspension of her publication she became a heroine with Mr. Moulton and Mr. Tilton. She was made welcome, at loth houses with the toleration but not cordial consent of their wives. I heard most ex s BUSINESS CAROS. travagant eulogies ujon her. She Mas represented as a genius, lsim and reared among rude influences, R. M. ROGERS, M. D. but wlio only needed to Ik sur-munde- d by refined society to show her noble and communing nature. I did not know much aUtut her, and though my impressions were unfavorable, her real character Mas not then really known to the world. I met her three times. At tho first interview she was gracious: at the second she wo cold and haughty; but at the third she Mas angry and threatening, for I had peremptorily refused to preside at a lecture she Mas nbout to give at Stein way Hall. The most strenuous efforts had leen made by both Tilton and Moulton to induce me to preside at this lecture and to identify myself publicly with Mrs. W o m1 hull. It was represented to I me that I need not, in ho doing, expressly give assent to her esHoially Mith regard to the marriage relations, upon which x)int she Mas beginning to be more explicit, in opposition to the view which 1 in common with all Christian men entertained; but it was plausibly urged that I could preside at the lecture and introduce her ujxm the simple ground of advocating free SK?ech and liberty to debate; but sa I understood she was about to avow doctrines which I abhor, I Mould nbt be induced by this plausible argument to give her public countenance. After continuing to urge me up to the very day of the meeting, without any distinct threats, but with obvious intimation that my persona! safety M ould Ik better secured by this advice, Mr. Tilton himself wsnt over to New York and presided at the meeting, where Mrs. Wood hull gave vent, as I understand, for the first time in public, to a full docexpostion of her free-lov- e trines. The very thought that I should have lieen asked, under any circumstances and upon any excuse, to preside or be present at such a meeting was inexpressibly galling to me. Whatever my astonishment might have been, the motive of Mr. Tilton and Mr. Moulton, in asking such a thing, as to which I had not at the time as a clear a perception as I now have, the request was nevertheless humiliating. At about the same time, I found the circle of which Mrs. Wood hull formed a part was the centre of loathsome scandals, organized, classified and PHYSICIAN AND SURCEON, Irov U. T. f East Office, store, where he keep drug of all no28 kinds. K. II. SIMMONUi, M- - U., Resident P.HYSICIAN AND SURGEON, Provo City, Utah. nnl J4.VCS K. mBKOKE, Centre Street, Irovo City, Utah,( PRACTICAL WORKMAN ON CLOCKS. WATCHES Him JEM LLMI. ' hnl All work warranted. Utah Brewery, II. MARGETTH, doe-trine- s, perpetuated with a greedy and unclean apxtite for everything that was foul and vile. Mr. Beecher here details his efforts to prevent the scandal lieing made public, which was threatened by the trial of Tilton by the church, and says of Tilton: I was so determined to curry out my pledges to Moulton for him, and do all in human jxnver to save him even from himself, that I was ready to resign, if that would stop the scandal. I wrote a letter of resignation, not referring to the charge against me, hut declaring that I had striven for years to maintain secresy concerning a scandal affecting a family In the church, and that, as I had failed, This letI herewith resigned. ter was never sent. A little calmer thought showed me how futile it would Ik to fttop the trouble; a G'ity, 1st door east CITY, MHIOI.ESALE AND SALT LAKE Denier In Ale, Deer, Porter, Ar.. Imported and domestic. nnl JOHN RIGGS, M. D., PHYSICIAN AND SURCEON. Special attention given to Cancers. Office at residence, 4th West Street, and one block south of Peter Stubbs Provision Store-- , on Centre Street. Irovo City. JuAi C. HTEVENHON, .1. MERCHANT TAILOR Provo City, TJ. T-- , Regs leave to inform his numerous patrons that he I now prepared to do tailor-l- n In nil II branches at the shortest notice, u Ins residence, one block East and three South of the East Store. ap30 D. P. THUE8EN, BOOT AND SHOEMAKER Is prepared to make BOOTS fcnd SHOES to order on the shortest notice. Choice French and U. S. calf skin and California sole leather always on hand. Repairing neatly done; charges moderate. Shop, Centre Street., Provo City. may28 errr pottery; A. II. BOWEN, the Proprietor of thaold established City littery, would respectfully announce to (he citlseds or iTovo City and vicinity that he Is prepared to sell as good an Article of Earthenware and as bought anywhere In tho chenpasean be me a call. auT Territory. Give J. STEWIRT S SON, Civil Engineers and V. S. Dspaty ANDREW Harvey or. Will give especial attention to obtaining for Government Lands, Mlrtnr patents Coal and Iron Lands, and will Clnlras, the necessary papers tor protests. prepare Scrip amt Land Warrants Bought and Office at residence, half block south of Provo House. Ml H. I T J. MOORE, IT U B Mltdios to Inform bis friends aad tha public generally, that he has opened a T I N -8 HOP, And lspreparedtomanufheture all kinds ' at reasonable rates. of comer of Centre and Mala street. Shop Provo City. no21 tin-wa- re SPECIALTIES .. . , ,.r TAYLOR & CUTLERS SALT LA I tlC CITY. mere useless sacrifice; but I showed it to Mr. Moulton, and possibly Silk Bonnet Bilbons 25 cents per yard. he copied it. I have found the Velvet Jhbbons at Neta York prices. original In my house. If I could ' 4,000 Rolls Wall raper. at this moment remember any other letters which I have writ- A BIO STOCK OF GROCERIES, ten to Mr. Moulton I would do so. WHICH WE ARE OFFERING If he has preserved all imr effusions of feeling he must nave a WHOLESALE end RETAIL large collection. I wished him to VERY CHEAP. bring them all Ixffore the commitrr ph tee. I have lieen glad to get ftiich hints as they may contain to re- B1KERT 1ND PROVISION STORE. fresh my recollection of facts and seouenees. I have no fear of their full and fair publication, for, PETER STUOD8, though they would doubtless DKAI.KB Iff. make a Aad exposure of my weakand ness, grief despondency, they do not contain a lino confessing GROCERIES, TOBACC6, that guilt as has been charged to FANCY CANDIES, NUfs. ETC. me, ora word inconsistent with All kinds of tho best quality of my innocence, nor any other Kdrit than that of gencrons remorse over a great and more ir- Xj IRr Q, TT reparable, evil. But, however InKept constantly on hand. tense and numerous may be thee cannot of expressions grief, they At the old stand. Corner of 41k on second I (Continued xyc.) Weot ond O Centre htreeU. 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