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A ' --10-- 10 -10- - 10All 10l 10All 10 10i - i l ( All the time she had bad felt lost and andorlorn andorlorn andIforiorn orlorn and alone , because this was wasfyn's wasrya's wasSpryo'i wasSpryoi fyn's fyns rya's ryas ' world and Bryn's Bryns ' life nfe , a mod modern modern modSern ern sophisticated pageant In whIchhe whichhe which whichJi he bad no part ; : and because It Itade itade Itde Ji ade her ber see bow how drab and dull1 dull dulland dulland and uninteresting her ber own life lite ot of otcucumbf ofcucumber of.cucumber ofcucumber ( . cucumbf cucumber ( , frames and brook troutand troutand trout mi and made over clothes must be toAnd to tohim him i-.And i.And i .And And himi.And . - . And all nIl bis bls his talk about knittingand knittingandft knitting , , and "Inter Inter winter -ft ft " - Inter evenings by the hearth , , and , nd the kittens he be would get for forJIcr forDer forItcr JIcr Der . . , . all aU bis hIs Interest In that thatAmple . thatdimple trople Ample ) sort Bort of ot thing was pretended pretendedI pretendedtor pretendedfor pretendedfor I . ! tor for her sake sa1.e sa1e . . . . Bryn w-is w is W'lS WlS was ' - a gentle gentlean gentlegian . fln an , and he 11\ 11 ll\ed ll ed 11ed Used \ \ ed up to his bu bar- bar - bargains bir-t bir t . - gaIns lns to the last pencil pencU stroke strohe . Not Notbl Notby Notily bl by word or suggestion would he lie let leter leter let'ter letter ' er discover how bored and dull he hewas hewas he"was hewas " was going to Ond find the rest of ot his hislear hisdear hisiTear lear dear here on the mountain , , nor with withwhat withwhat withwhat what difficulty he wis W'l.S Wl.S WlS was ' . going to earnthe earnthe earn the money she slle would pay him . : Deborah slept very vc.ry vcry . little that'night thatnight that thatnIght thatsight ' nIght sight . . Lite Life Life , , that only yesterday yesterday'bad yesterdaylead yesterdaylad 'bad bad ' : lead seemed so beautiful bemtIful : and serene serenew , , was s becoming complicated and un unbappy unbappy unlanpy ; bappy . There Thcre didn't didnt ' seem to be any- any anything anything any-Etbing any Etbing - thing ahead but more dlfficultles difficulties difficultiesnd difficultiesSand nd a lonely unhappy time Because BecauseBryn BecauseBryn BecauseiBrjn Bryn would go back bac1 . to Pilar Pl1ar Piiar when whenhe whenhe whenShe he year was up , and when ho dId didhere , | here wouldn't wouldnt ' be an anybody body at all allobody allooody allNobody obody ooody could e ever er be like lIhe ] ! ke , , . Bryn BrynTen , en if 11 he "ere ere were " ere only pretending pretendinglut pretendingut pretendingit ut it there would have been a way waymake wa make him blm stop pretending , Debo Deboh Dcbolh h knew , because If It ! f be he dent went VI ent onke on onke onke ke tbls this , , , even though the look In inIs InIs 1.9 19 Is . eyes was only the tenderness tendernessne ne feels tor for fora n a child chl1d , or a lost puppy puppyie , e wasn t going to be able to bear beartwben beartwben bearwben twben , at the end of the year herove he herove herove rove rove out of the big gates to leave leaveer leaveer er r forever foreer , . . .The The . morning "as as was " as ' cold rold 'old old and grey greylihough , though ! hough the rain had stopped at atwn atawn atawn awn wn . Deborah bad had them lay a fire firethe firethe firen the small sitting slUIng room down downtAlrs downtairs downairs tAlrs tairs , BO so that Grandmother might mightot mightof mightOt ot of feel a chill There , when break- break breakast breakast break-tst break tst - ast was over , Pllar PlIar Piiar and Madelinend Madelined MadelIne -d d - d Sally and Grandmother and andrsel andrself andKrself rsel rself ! were sitting . The three men menere menwe ere outsidePllar outsidePilar outside PUar Pllar Pilar , In a beautiful dress of ot somery somery some somery * ry fine woollen material In a darkrtmson dark darkson i son color , sat beside the door door- doora1 doorfly doorway - way a1 fly with her feet out on a low lowtool 1 and a n long cigarette holder holdertween holdertween holderitweon tween her fingers She could see seeInto seeinto seeflato Into the orchard , . tooyand too . . and Debo DebonoUced Debonoticed Deboih noticed noUced that her eyes e ; } es went to toryn toryn toEryn ryn frequently , although she gaveo gaff gave e o 0 sign Ign Grandmother va.a vaa was \ , as . In a low lowIr lowr lowhair Ir ! r beside the fire , listening to tolar tolar tolar lar with the same fascinated fasclnnted In- In Inest ! In-erest In erest n- n nest - est she had bnd shown last nIght nightetching nightHitching , , atchlng etching her ber , taking In every per- per per-Ct per Ct - ( t pert detail of her grooming . "I I " ' ' 1 hope yon yoU don't dont ' mind my com-g com g com corn- corn cornhere - . here uninvited like this thls , Irs Mrs Irsmed Mrsrued ! MrsAraed med rued ; , " ' she was saying In her low lowIce lowice lowIce Ice . "I I " * l found tound myself completelyerted completelyerted completely erted and lonely and I couldn'tnd couldn'tad couldn't couldnt couldn'tnd ' > nd ad It any longer . " "My My "Hy Hy " dear , you ar ark are more than wel- wel welme wel-me wel me - me me , , " Grandmother said Vr warmly vtarmly.Jiy vtarmlyJiy armly . , friend friends * of Bryn's Bryns ' are our ourends ourends ourlends ends , too , and our home Is ai- ai al- al aleye aiopen al ally - eye " ly . open to them . And I am de- de dehted de- de dehted de-htcd de htcd - - - ; hted to hear you discussing dLscussing del deof de- de deof de dell - - l ll * of modern society sodety . I am sure sureur sureUr surew ur tulk talk will w1l1 be a liberal educa- educa educan educaa educa-a educa a - - - ) n a for Deborah , and help her totabllsa to tobUsh bUsh herself hersel berself ! more easily easUy whengoes when ' worldth Eoes goes out Into Bryn'a Bryna Bryris Dry Bryri ' s world worldth th him . " slag's PU 1lar.s 1lars lag's lags ! r ' . black rested s eyes momen- momen momeny - - momen-rtly momen rtly momenD1 D1 y on Deborah . They were quIte i quitenreaslonless quIteresslOnIess quiteresslouess resslOnIess resslouess . . . " " There "There will wlll be no nocnItIes ' " nclenities cnItIes caltles for Deborah : , " ' ehe she age said snld saideriy ' snldderly derly derby eriy . , "She She uShe " Is so adorable ndorable thai thnt that thatWon't ; won't wont ' need to make the sllght- sllght alight- alight - t tt tteffort ( slighteffort sllghtt alighttt effort . . , Everyone will wll1 fall Ir in ine ine i e Bight-Just Bight Just Tvlth with her at first sight . . - " added1 Just as Bryn did , " &ally ally Sally & alIy added , i loo looked ed fleetlngly fieetIngly fleetingly at Pllar PUar Piiar . ' 'Juit Juit Just repeatbut M as Bryn did , " Pllar PUar Pilar repeat- repeat repeatibut - but her mouth tightened a little littleworih , , borah bosh saw , at the corners . How 'low low ' corners.How cornersHow long are you planning to tor toT t < > 17 evenlyn r T , Pllar Pllar2 Piiar ? " MadeUne MadelIne said evenly . . you eolng going home for the yacht yachcesr yachcesr"I 1- 1 - ? ' " 1really "I I reilly really hadn't hadnt ' considered it It . . I In't In't : [ "n't nt " n't nt ' aure sure ' Pd I'd Id ' be Invited invlted to stay , stayP tee lIee see . , " Grandmother sigbua 81gham sighem randmother gave a little 81gh sigh am em 80 eo o thankful thanUul that when Debo- Debo - - - Deboi Debodoes sh1 sheii does emerge Into society Bociety she i 11 ii haTc have dear Bryn to take care of o t . wbac hatlite whatlife He IIe understands BO so \ veil well ell what \ hat t life lite has been and be he , Is so o ' s'neutful sneutful songhtful soaghttul nghtful aghttul and nnd 10\ 10 lo\lng lo lng 10Ing losing \ Ing . It takes a , i at ba\n ba n t load off oct oft my mind to ha base base.k \ e e to 10 fro . , " .k k . .kfro rYn yn hag has always been a n dear , " " r agreed at once 'I I ' I don't dont ' knoi.at knoiat know 7 Ittc . at t I * shouldB shouldever 'hould hould sbould should ' ever ha\e ha e hose \ dono dODO done dODOlth \\lth lth with \ \ > lthBryn B " " ' Bryn yfl , the sbe she " ' went on "For For "I'or Ior ! year years ; , , tl w , ho ' has been staunchestd staunchesprade stllunchestrade my stllunchest staunchest it d rade . No matter in what dit dif dl"y dly ditIty difity ' Ity " I 1 found ( myself , there wi was a18 Sys wiy wasa18 y Bryn , , , and he be andhis hisbe brought me n his * " mehis metroubles It&hts Itghta troubles and Joys as well . . It [ &hts hts ghta & my beart to know no\V no V \ that he hei i apP1 appy heapP1 heappy . " eborah did not move . Gran Grand Grandh h mother lifted lItted her eyes and loohed looked loohedat lookedat lookednt at Pllar PlIar Piiar frankly frnnhly . "You You " modern girls girlsare girlsare girlsare are so honest and open , " she saId saId"In said"In said"In saidIn "In In " ' " " my day a girl girlould " \\ould ould "ould would \ \ " never "ever ever have haved1red havedared havedired d1red dared to mike w'l1.e wl1.e wl1e make ' . such a statement statementabout statementabout statementabout about a man mnn She would ha\e ha e base \ been beenafraid beenafraid beenafraid afraid of ot being misunderstood " "Misunderstood Misunderstood nsunderstood " ? , " Pilar murmuredflicking murmured murmuredfilching murmuredflicking filching flicking open the lighter . 'In In * ' In my day , " Grandmother ex explalned explained explained plalned plained , there 'there ' ' R VI w ere few s y ; } oung oungmen oungmen oungmen men such as our dear Bryn , so sol1andsome sohandsome sohandsome l1andsome handsome , so eligible elllble . ; in every eery esery e\ e \ ery wayso way , , so One fine line It If n a girl had been his friend friend'l1Va friendalwa3 friendilwa 'l1\Va 'l1 l1 Va alwa3 ' \ s , as you hay has have e a been , my chIld childthen , then she would have been expected expectedto to marry him , and , Indeed , she shewould shewould shewould would herself have expected tomarry to tom'lrry tomarry m'lrry mlrry marry ' him I do not quite under under- understand understand understand - - stand the new camaraderie which whichallows whichallows whichallows allows of ot such close friendships friendshipswithout friendshipswithout friendshipswithout without any thought of ot marriage mnrrlage or orrom1nUc orromantic orromintic rom1nUc romantic love . In my day , so soqueerly soqueerly soqueerly queerly uncontiolled unconti unconh oiled oUed 'n n ' was as human nn na nature nnture nature ture then , the sort of ot friendshIp friendshipSou friendshipou Sou ; } ou mention would wou1d have been po potentIally potentlally potentlally tentIally tentlally dangerous If It either thegirl the thegirl thegirl girl or the man-particularly man particularly man - particularly the themanm'lrried themanmarried theman man-m'lrried man m'lrried mlrried man-married married - mirried ' elsewhere e1sewhere " PlInr Pilar Pllnrs s eyes narrowed the taint faint taintest faintest faintest est trifle trine agilnst ag11nst against the light as she shelooked shelooked shelooked looked at Grandmother . , Grand Grandmother . I II Imother mother was sitting up a little littleI littlestraIghter littlestraighter littlestralghter I I straIghter than Deborah had seen seenher seenher seenher her sit for some time , and nnd there thereI therewas therewas therewas was a n little llttle pink In her cheeks But ButI ButI Buther Buther Buther I I I her e e3 eies ; } cs es as they met Pilar's Pilars ' were werecalm werecalm werecalm calm and kind , and Deborah pushed pushedaway pushedaway pushedaway wereI I away the tho thought that Grnndmoth Grandmoth Grandmother . . er suspected something and was wastaking wastaking tahmg taking her own way to combat the thehInt thehint thebint hInt of ot danger . Pllar Pl1ar Pilar rose and stood for a mo moment momeat moment ment meat , tall and llssome lissome and full fuJI ot of otgrace ofgrace ofgrace grace , . beside the door . She was wassmmng wassmiling wassmiling smmng smiling Customs 'Customs ' are very differ d1ITer- d1ITer differ- different d1ITerent different - ent now , " she murmured , and andbegged andbegged andbegged begged to be excused , and weni wenl went < QuttlIrrugl Qutthr out Qut outTherewas tlIrrugl thr ; ugb ! , the Qali OOL.a OOLa . : # ' r , # . r Thereiwas rThereiwas There Therewas Therewas | was > i rllttleTsilence irllttleTsilence S'illttIe SillttIe .1Ittletsllence 1Ittletsllence . ' sUencewbenPllar * ' " + when whenPJIar whenPilar PJIar Pilar was gone ! . , Deborah looked upfrom up upfrom upfrom from the puppy to find Grandmoth Grandmoth- Grandmother . - er stitching away aw'lY awlY ' placidly pl'lc1dly pllc1dly ' again againher , her eyes on her material , and Sally Sallyand Sallyand Sallyand and Madeline looking 1001.lng 1001lng . at each other other'ro otherwith otherttlth 'ro ro ' with lth steady meaning Sally SaUy and andMadeline andMadeline andMadeline Madeline didn't didnt ' understand . They Theydidn't Theydidn't Theydidn't Theydidnt didn't didnt ' know whit wh'lt whlt what ' It must have been beenlike beenlike beenlike like for Pllar PIlar to love Bryn , to have haveloved haveloved haveloved loved him for years , and then tohave tohave to have him suddenly marry anothergirl anothergirl another anotherglrl glrl girl . They didn't didnt ' know what It Itmeant itmeant Itmeant meant to love Bryn . . fclmon Simon Imon and andTabby andTabby andTubby Tabby were all right , of ot course , and andperfect andperfect andperfect perfect darlings , but they weren'tBryn werentBryn weren't werent weren'tBryn weren'tBryn ' Bryn . Deborah's Deborahs ' eyes burned , and andtbe andthe andthe tbe the bad lump came back In her herthroat herthroat herthroat throat . There " nas "as as was a knock hnock at the door It Itwas Itwas Itwas was one of the maids , wanting Deborah Deb Deborab Deborah orab orah . . The cook would like her 11er or- or orders or orders . - ders , the maid mnld said respectfully respectfullyDeborah re ecttuUy ecttuUyDeborah ectfullyDeborah Deborah went out and shut the thedoor thedoor thedoor door behind her . Deborah stumbled down the halltoward hnll hall hnlltoward halltoward toward the kitchen . In her mind's minds mind'seye mind'seye mind'seye mindseye ' eye she could see herself hersel ! sitting on onthe onthe onthe the VI wall all the other night , with Bryn Brynleaning Brynleaning Brynleaning leaning close beside her . She re remembered remembered remembered membered what she had wanted to todo todo todo do . Bryn's Bryns ' face was as so close , and andhe andhe andbe he was such a n dear ; : she had bad want want- wantted want-ted want ted . - - ted to take his face tace between her herown herown herown , own two palms and bend down andput and andput andput put her cheek against bis his forehead foreheadShe foreheadShe foreheadShe She had almost done ! It t when he hesaid hesaid hesaid , said . , , . . "Deborah Deborah " , do you like likeme likeme likemo me . , . . at aUi all ? ' ' But now she was wasglad wasglad wasglad glad she hadn't hadnt ' done If It , because hewouldn't hewouldnt he hewouldn't hewouldn't wouldn't wouldnt ' have wanted her to . It Itwas Itwas IIwas was Pllar Pilar be he loved . . He had said saidso saidso aaldso so . He bad had told her bow how dearly he heloved heloved heloved loved this other girl . : . ; - . and If Ifshe ifshe 11 she hadn't hadnt ' been so blind bUnd she would wouldhave wouldhave have seen Instantly InstanUy tha-t tha t thm thst - his tellIng tellIngher tellingher tellingher her of ot the other |