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Vs" she pleads: Ivf (B usra&ic Pankowski By MRS JAMES E FERGUSON JR as told to Mary husband is an American airman missing in My action He was shot down by the Russians Sept 2 1958 No word has ever been received from him I 'don't know where he is or if he is even alive For more than a year I have known only the denied me agony of waiting Even hope has been in recent months But maybe I have reason now to hope again In June President Eisenhower will visit Russia It's a remote hope but possibly he will be able to learn what the Russians did with my husband I must not hope too much though When Premier Khrushchev visited Washington last year the President personally inquired about the fate of Jim and four of his crew also missing The President later wrote me: "To my deep regret Mr Khrushchev's reply has failed once again to provide any new information In spite of this I assure you that the government of the United States will continue to do everyfate of thing that can be done to determine the those missing men" PerPerhaps then there still is reason to hope to end my haps in June something will happen agonized waiting It is not easy to be neither wife nor widow I Debbie have two children to raise— Keith who was born after Ann and his father vanished in a remote region near the Russian-Turkis- h border What faces us in this world we live in? How will endless waitwhen he ing affect us? How will it affect Jim returns? And what if he doesn't return? I do not think I am presumptuous to hope that the world leaders will consider how important these children They questions are to one woman and her are not great summit questions yet they fill our lives At least I must hope that Mr Khrushchev and Mr Eisenhower will take time from complex questions to try to answer my simple ones Jim's and my story began on a happier note in three-year-o- one-year-- ld old March 1958 when he arranged for us to join him overseas We rented a small house in a German village not far from Frankfurt and lived pretty much like any other couple— except Jim's job was flying over the most dangerous air routes in Europe On Sept 2 that year I was alone with my little girl waiting for Jim to return from a routine flight to Turkey In the afternoon I was putting on water for some tea when a blue Air Force car pulled up in front of our house Another followed Two officers grim and silent came up to our door My heart skipped I recall but I convinced myself this was nothing to worry about One of the officers was Captain Tarbucks Jim's commanding officer The other was introduced as "I Major Swanson from the air base at Frankfurt have some news for you" the major said softly and I knew this was the news every flier's wife dreads "Why don't you sit down?" "What's happened to Jim?" I insisted They had little information Jim had been aboard an unarmed transport returning to Adana Turkey The plane and its 11 crew members were missing Beyond that they knew nothing When any further news came in they would let me know about 10 minutes They gave me a t They stayed phone number to call and asked if I had enough money They asked if there was anything they could do for me Then they left in-betw- een 6 Family Weekly March C I960 minutes I sat stunned and helpless Then suddenly I grabbed my little girl and ran out the door into the narrow street stumbling on the rough pavement Joyce a neighbor girl of my own age called to me and I ran to her Still clutching Debbie I gasped out the horrible news Joyce helped me back to my house and somehow I finished making the tea An hour later I had gained control of myself and accepted the news After all Jim was only "missing" There was hope He would come back to us I was sure dinner with Joyce that night when Sergeant Burgeron from Jim's outfit drove up "You've got to come to the base Rita" he said "Its no good for you to be out here alone" I didn't want to go The house held all that Jim We had just finished and I had built together "I'll be okay" I said "There's more to it than you" he replied "You're five months pregnant Suppose the baby came early? There's Debbie to think about too You'll be better off at the base and when any news comes you'll get it faster" I protested that I didn't know anyone at the base How could I move in with strangers? "It's all arranged" he said "You're to stay at Sergeant Kresge's" Sergeant Kresge was on the ball team with Jim I had met him a few times I had never met his wife I looked at Deborah Without understanding what had happened she had sensed this alien feelbeting that had come into her home It would be ter for her elsewhere "I'll go" I said I gathered up the few things we would need for the night The sergeant said we could come out the next day to get anything else we needed Margaret Kresge welcomed us as if she had known us all her life An only child she had never been around babies very much Stanley their son was four months old and teething We talked babies We fed babies We washed babies I kept as busy as I could And I waited For 10 days there was no news Then on Saturday morning as I was dressing Debbie Captain Tarbucks came to the house with a medical officer They said Russia had found the plane and reported all aboard dead Still holding Debbie I walked into the bedroom and collapsed on the bed I had never let myself cry before— now I couldn't stop There was no hope after all My husband was dead |